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They stand in the corner of my eye,



I feel like dying each time I cry.



They come like the timeless rain;



My life feels over, flushed down the drain.



Why did I have to break down and lie?



Now I am alone to drown in the river of life.



I thought he loved me but I don't feel his care,



I reach out for him and he isn't there.



I wonder if he feels my guilt or shame,



I am sorry if I ruined his name.



I can't stand to see him bearing false pain,



My tears come as steady as the rain.



By Stacey Blair



For Todd maybe this will make you realize just how guilty I feel for what i did;

Special World



A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.



Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.



And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong.



- Sheelagh Lennon

The scars of my past haunt me like no tomorrow,



that is too bad as i drown in my tears of sorrow.



My weakness was that I cared too much,



now tears is all i see and such.



I know what i felt was too real,



now i am numb and can't feel



My tears drown me like the rain,



Its haunting me like the broken heart that is my pure pain.



As soon as I heal,



I know I will then be able to feel.

I thought you cared,



so I took a dare.



To become who you wanted me to be,



To let my heart be you the only one i could see.



instead of loving me true,



You made my life very blue.



I tried to tell you honestly how i was and who i was meant to be



but you couldn't see.



Now its me who stands alone,



still here standing talll and strong.





To all those assholes in the past who have broken my heart.

I see my body being lowered into the ground,



knowing that no one is uttering anything not even one sound.



There are no tears from the mouners standing around my grave,



I feel as if my life was meaningless with nothing to save.



Why can't they pity me for just one undying moment of their boring lives,



They just continue to stand there as day turns to night.



My mind and spirit become restless as I realize no one ever cared,



I curse at someone but no one turns around and its as if I am speaking to the air.



Why couldn't I have found that one true love everyone do desperately talks of,



Now my soul shall wonder restless never to go to the heavens above.



I begin to understand the way people go,



walking away from my grave, like it was I whom they never did know.

He's watching for me and waiting for time to end,



little does he know that he is truly my only friend.



i wish i could love him more,



they say time is only an open door.