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This thick, cancerous love

Bred between the apparition and I

A sight that blinds thine memory

Caught in the eyes of the beholder



Pick the scab, peel the burn

Tear the flesh between reality and fantasy

You will never be

Why can't you come home to me?



I'd pick the pieces up a thousand times over

Just to see your face again

Even bloody on the asphalt

I'd kiss your eyes, just to say goodbye.

It's not fair.

But it is ever fair?

Sometimes we scream

Our bloody protests for the forgotten

You're not just a memory...



Listen to me

Can you even hear?

My season has cycled, faded

To grey

Set on our subtle wake of realization



Breathe

Can you even speak?

Dig a little deeper this time

See and believe

Understand what you will never be

The shotgun shells scattered on your bedroom floor

I heard the cries before I reached the door

It's all in vain for the things you abhor

Haven't I been here once before?



I remember the nights you held me, I cried myself to sleep

Those secrets we shared, you were supposed to keep

Why did you have to abandon me?

Look, now you've gone and made me bleed



Doesn't it matter anymore?

I died the day they closed the coffin door.

Empty room

There's people all around

But I can't hear your voice

Silence wishing for the sound



Empty lives

There's people everywhere

But I can't see your face

Blindness searching for the stare



Empty feelings

There's people standing still

But I can't taste your lips

Weakness working for the will



Empty hearts

I'm feeling all alone

And I can't feel you near me

Your death I won't condone.

Is it sad to say

That I've gone my way

That I've turned and walked a different path?



Does it hurt to see

Faced empathy

Unable to succumb to your wrath?



Is hard to know

That I've let you go

The knife in my heart is gone?



Are you glad to be

What you've become to me?

A face of feelings withdrawn.

The sky seemed so lonely that night

The stars didn't seem as lovely

You weren't there beside me

So I writhed in subtle dark



I screamed your name

Until I had no voice

I cried and wondered

Where you were, I no longer knew



I was cased in a void

Trapped, and your were somewhere out there

Free and beautiful,

I always loved you for that



Last tormented thought:

"Please, don't leave me this way"

That was all I had left

As you turned and walked away.

How does it feel?

Now that you've broken the skin

I know you're too poisoned

To see the smile

But with the blade

Could you cut it off?

The mangled flesh

I call a heart

Could you take it?

Heal it?



Or would you just hurt me?

Tear me, use me

Do you think it's that easy?

Fuck me



Your lungs are severed

Do you realise,

The cup is half full

Of your blood

The knife's half plunged

In your skull

I've stolen your heart

Can you steal mine?



Or would you just hurt me?

Tear me, use me

Do you think it's that easy?

Fuck me

Scars that bleed

Why does it come to this?

I thought it could be so much more

But the result is something less



I am a monster; deviant

I'm fucked in the head

Ugly. Empty. Bruised.

I'm better off starved, than fed



But I've stayed too long

And I've taken too much

My good intentions? Hollow

I've ruined everything here









Use me.

Abuse me.

Fuck me.

Leave me.











Baby, don't cry

It won't hurt for long

A shot to the head

And I'll surely be gone.