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•Word of the Day-Satire

⚓ •PEICE NO-2•⭐

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Being secured through silence
Being secreted
Being stowed-away
Being inside-secrets
Being seduced
Being seducted
Being sucked-out
Being secret
Being secerative
Being syndicated
Being somebodys-secret
But the secrets are kept-back
But secrets are lodged
But secrets are all-locked
Being all in-sections
Inside of yourself
Try access to what's lost
Like choking on an apple🍎
That was offered-in good faith
Now it's just blind-faith
Now it's just blinding-fate
Now it's just-bloody pains
It's colours are all in-reds
The taste is like salts
The pains are like metal-pins
The metal is like cold-gray steels
The bondage-is like iron
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Fantasys-are not reliable
Pictures-painted from pains
Puncture-points in your soul
Painting pictures-all from hells
But all I wanted was to go-paint heaven
Paint in heaven-with you
But you saw better in this world
But you saw better through your enemies
Biased you saw better through them
Biased by those bastards
Bending-out all your inner-realitys
Better mentor that I was
But you didn't care
Busted-out all on me
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Love didn't have itself a name
No realitys to struggle-through
When switching is the game
And blame-gets charged onto others
Just go abandon & deny
Can you even know your name-now?!?
Now that the future is all squandered
Better ways are all beguiled
By devilish-monsters
Conscious of controls
Cannot quite reach
Inside of yourself
You don't know what's happened
Love should be-pure
Love should be sustinance
Love should be meanings
Love should be measured
Between best-friends
Between best-friendships
There's nothing to hide
There's nothing to go-divide
Nothing hideous or horrid
To go need to go-hiding
Nothing to need-go hide*
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Between worlds
Between walls
Between wounds
Between words
It's been purjured
It's been murdered
It's been purchased
Not earned-rightly
Not rightly earned*
It's been stolen-away
Hidden even from myself
Hiding behind-masks
Horrors-bitten back
Horror-dynamics hidden
Hideous features-forbidden
Hallowed-ghosts upon your tracks
Strange-dislike upon your back*
Strange emotives-taking tracks*
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Secreted-away
It's all inside of-yourself
But it's all-somewhere else
Bloody-nonsense
Because access is restricted
Biased against yourself
Your reality is all-conflicted
Turned-over to reverse
Your somebody-else
You owned-yourself before
Now your owned by-someone else
It's all inside of-yourself
But it's all hidden-from you
It's hidden inside-layers
Files of realitys
Files from self-conciousness
Files from perceptions
Doors of the mind-being opened
But who has the keys?!?
Like spectrums
Like realitys
Like spectrums-of realitys
But can you divinate
But can you divide
But can you decide
But can you decider
But can you decide
Filing-sustems
Files-within files
Features within features
Files with focus
It's all in your mind
It's all inside you
Concious-conceptions
Considered-equations
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Secrets of-realitys
Sequences of-realitys
Sources of-realitys
Systems of-censure📍
It's what I couldn't find
It's what I couldn't figure
It's what I couldn't understand
It's what I couldn't find
It's what I couldn't reach
Now I'm reaching-out for nothing
Reaching-out to noone now
Because illusions can no-more sustain
Realitys were too weak & have crumbled
Love is everything all-denied
Realitys of bonds that couldn't count
Realising the bonds were just bondage
Words were like weapons
To get nearer the target
Tarnished-all loyaltys
Tortured-the soul
But it's all through the layers
All done through numbers
Your not-gonna see it
Bondage without love
Friendship without trust
Future with basis
Realitys-all from bias
Relationship all from greed
Realitys were all-controled
Reason was all leaking
Securitys your seeking
All just-denied.....
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⚓POETRY-PEICE-1ST-ONE⭐

💀•TITLED •ALL MARKED-OVER & ALL MESSED-UP•💔


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Should I be defeated-in you?!?
When your defeated-in me
Should I be dying-in you?!?
Like it's dying-in me
Now I most surely-am now
Dying-all over meself
You go all-out for denials
Because the life-bond is dead📍
No idea what happened
You don't have any-graces
Just being a blind-bastard
Myself I don't have no-faces left
Losing-face
Losing-on time
Looking so-crazy
Looping the loop
Cause your such a head-case
A real-head f*cker
A real bastard-motherf*cker
A real tough-guy
Your all-out for denials
But I'm not that far-under📍
Your always out for the denials
But I'm not that far gone-down📍
Can go see shit is crazy
Still underneath-you
So I'm dying-inside
Mentalist-maniac
You've all gotten-inside
My most precious-spaces
My personal-mind
I've nowhere to go-hide
But your a million miles away
Ain't got no-dignitys left📍
Just bleeding out-drops
From somewhere-inside📍
Know it's from-you
Don't understand-it all
Know it's-all through you
Don't understand-it all
Know it's all-inside of you
Don't understand-it all
Don't need-to get-it all yet
Know its-from you
Marked-inside out
Mentalist-maniac
Don't get it-all yet
What's happened to meself
But I know it's from you
No matter how much you go deny
When your mind is so-weird
When your mind is so-wired
When your mind is so-twisted
When all the vital-parts-are just missing📍
It's so easy-to go on dismissing
It's just deficits-all round
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All just-in shit
All just-being f*cked-up
All just-feeling so shit
You just cant-go compute it
Should I be defeated-in you?!?
When the self-defeat is yours
When your already-self-defeated
When your dying-from your own mind
When your trying-from your own mind
When your own trials-are from yourself
Blaming-society📍
But your own self-society is shit
Your own self-talk is shitty-really
Your not even friends-with yourself now
So how can life mean-anything?!?
When you self-value is so-low
When your down-on yourself
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Hard to believe you were-better before
Your capacitys-that much better
That much-brighter
That much more-marked
Able to take-part
Walking & talking
Teaching & learning
So much more of a-man
So much better-before
It's hard to believe-now
That all that-communication
That much-in all words
That much-in all ways
Was ever-even you
Mindblowing-shit
How could all-that content
All that-communications
Ever be-you now?!?
Living-all in confusions📍
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Now your capacitys-have dropped
Dropped through the-floor
Like a big-black gaping-hole
Just opened-up
And then you just-fell away
And I'm just getting myself-lost
Getting my-self lost in stupid-shit
Trying to make some-sense
Out of just-nonsense
When things were-amazing
But now its-anything but
When things were meaningfull
But now it's just-not
It doesn't mean-to matter
It isn't meant-to matter
It's okay to not care
According to you
All your stupid-rules
All just-excuses
For controls
Rules that don't make-sense
Twisting-reality how you'd like it
Mindblowing-shit 💀
It really-is just madness
Your mentalist-schemes
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People don't matter-how
People don't matter-now
People don't matter-how
People don't matter-now
People don't matter how
People don't matter now
Loyalty dosnt even-count
Because you don't care
So nothing now-counts
So the template-is set
Template-set by yourself
Mindblowing-shit
For f*cks sake-man
Your one headf*cker of a guy
Society didn't care
Or so you-say it
But I did-so it just sounds stupid
To go-on alienateing-on me
Go-on then you prize d*ck
Why go alienated-on me
When I'm the one-who actually gets-it
When it's all your strange-styles
All-over again
Your stranger-ways
All-over again
But it does-matter to me
Saying nobody-cares
But it-is mattering
From over-here
And the sorrow-is just cutting
Denials
To be-denied
I am most-denied
I am most-in denials
But I keep-on trying
Because I'm avoiding-being on dying
Denials & death
That isn't helping me-much
To hold-on to everything
But realitys-slipping everywhere
Every time it gets-solid
Then it just goes-slipping-again
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Emotional-resistance📍
Emotional-persistance
Emotional-distance
Should-all be mine
But it just aint-holding
I'm just not holding-up
As I should-be
World's of all-sanitys
Turned-on over
To world of all-insanitys
So much head-games
So much mind-games
So much weird-mentalitys
So much mind-bending
Trying to come-back to reality
Everythings-all going onto awol 📍
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Going back-around to the past
Going back-around to an extra
Going back-to an older-friend
Back to my fren-emy friend
Back to my enemy-emnitys friend
Back to my fiendish friend
Brain-is all wrong here
Baffling
Badly-played out
Bent-out of shapes
Is just going-on badly
It's all just-crumbling
By your-self
By you & yours
By your-self you'd rather be
But I'd rather-not be
In this life & the next
Time has gone both-up & down
Time has-turned
And then-turned around again
Mind-boggling
It's left-me wanting
It's found-me in shit
I'm not-getting through
I'm not coming-on through now
The links are-not working📍
Not like what I say-is getting through
It's not-helping much
When its-all just gone-on stagnant
Stupid-stagnant-stances
Stupid-stale statements
Stupid-lax excuses
You want me to go-away
Try just saying-thanks
Or saying-something that matters
Your not helping-shit
Try just saying-thanks
Or something that matters
You want me to go away
Try just saying thanks
Or something that matters
Not even-helping yourself-none
You total-tool Mister
Don't mean-nothing
It's just empty-of substance
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Men should be-leading📍
Leading-us through-it
No matter-how shit
Bad attitudes
Weird-altitudes
That aint-helping 💀
I'm just getting-stuck
I'm just stuck-on shit
Older-habits go-dying harder
Harder to get-back around
Harder-to get going again
The world goes-shit on you
That part is-true
But you dont-understand
It's on-me too
They shit on me-too
From the start
They tried to-take you all apart
They tried to destroy-me too
From the start-it was all just wrong
Everything-stolen📍
Life had been-just taken apart
From the start
Noone-had any real-chance
Not much-of a life
Everyone was just-lying
That's all-anything was
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I was your friend
That's what i-thought
I was your friend
That's what I was-taught
I thought it-mattered
Thats what I beleived
I was your friend
That's what I was-taught
But to you-its just nothing
I was your friend
But to you-its just something to use
I was your friend
That's what I was-taught
That's what I was-told
Now it looks like-lies
I was your friend
Now it looks like-lies
That it actually-counted
Now it's like we've never-been
A thousand-miles-apart📍
Your gone & erased-everything
Being-loyal I can't stand-it
You've gone & erased-everything
It's gone-all back to the start
Taking all-my chances📍
Being loyal-i can't understand-it
Standing-by you
Now I'm just-invisible💀
For your bastard-convience
And that's just all-too sly
Thats-all just too bad
Treating folks-like they don't count
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Treating folks like-they don't count
You didn't say-goodbye
You didn't bother-to rate it
You didn't bother to-go care
You did talk-me
You did tell-me
You did send-message
After I went & pushed
But it's all just-rubbish
Recyled-trash
Just eXcuses
For you to-not try
Don't go-tryi g
Don't go-straining yourself
Like your-exempted
Like your excused-from realitys
Life is all-trials
Nothing but-trials
That's what we go-through
But your not helping- yourself
You yourself & you
Your own-case
Your not-self-advocating
Your just not fighting
Your just not fighting-it
It's hard to believe
It's hard to-conceive
You don't like yourself-enough
To try to go be-tough
Thought you were-tough
But now your just-drowning
In pools of-nonsense
Down on yourself
Blaming-me too
But your own-self-talk is shit
But you cant-see
You can't see-outside yourself
But you cant-see
Society-dosnt care
So you have to go-do it
You can't see-outside yourself
I'm watching from the-outside
Wanting to get-in
Wanting to get-on in
I'm watching from-the outside
An outsider-now
From what was mine-before
From the world-i was in
I've been-exhiled
But I cant-go do shit
But I cant-get back in📍
I cant-do anything
Blaming-social statistics
Make-yourself a statistical-loser
Your inner-self is faulty
Why not try another-way-around?!?
I'd be the first to go-help you
But you want me-away
Away from-you
In case I get-in
In-case I understand
In case-i can get-in
In case-i can get-it💀
You keep me-outside
Where you want-me
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Held back-through you
Held-in check
Held-back through you
Held-in through you
Trapped-somewhere-inside
Trapped-inside yourself
Self-immersed
Self-stewing
Turning-into a human-prunes
Your oversized-cranium
Your oversized-head
So full of-capacitys
Which you don't understand
When I'm somewhere-behind you
Dying from things-i can't yet see
Dying from-lacks
Dying from your-traps
Dying from your-lies
Dying from-burning inside
But not dying from-lack of trying
Trying-so hard
It's something to cope-with
Inbetween-dyings
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Entrapments
Endearments
Turning-sour
Defeated in-yourself
Defending-yourself
Denying-yourself
Any-common sense
Any-honestys
You might be-crooked
But you were-honest before
If I pushed-you to it
By a cage inside-yourself
By your own-dynamics
Not being-dynamical
Your own mind-making crooked-equations
Your own gods-not seeing you through
Your own mind-not working right
Your own-mind is regressive
Your neurodynamics-going backwards
Your brilliance-going waywards
Your own-mind lying to you
Not trialing-yourself📍
Your-testing yourself
Not trying-not struggling
Self-detached
Your not self-attached
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Living-with lying to yourself
Is better than-dealing with me
Be better to die-with me there
But I know you wont-allow it
Be defeated-in you
But I know you'll just deny-it
Everything's been denied-me again
Progress was slowing
Your brain-stem was shrinking
Progress-was slowing
Now its-dying
The stagnancys-its hideous
Great-big green soupy-bowl
Dark green & blacks
Raised me to angers
Sick of your-shit
Your sacred-cows
Your sacred-holy rits
Where you are-just god
And I am just-shit
Shit on your-shoes
From all of your-rules
Too many rules & not enough reason
Your reasoning is all marred
Your mind is all-off
Your all last-season
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Your all-off tones*
All your greens-are off tone
All your own tones are-off
All your own-colours
Have gone-to sour
Your green-tones
Are all-off so tired
Your all defeated-inside yourself
Your all dying-away inside
Outside of you-i can feel
Outside of you-i can see you
Outside of you-its just awful
Defeated & depleted
Denied & repressed
Inside-your all-off
Inside yourself-falling & fading
Like you've all gone to-sour
Not that you were ever-sweet
Your sour like-off cream
Your sour like-bad vinegars
Your fading off-into silence
I'm falling-away
I have to let-go
Caught-off gaurd
Im falling-out
I'm falling-back
Your fading-back
Back into-silence
You need to go-die
You need to go-lapse
I have to go & die......
To be continued 💀📍