I am philosophically depressed. i have self awareness, but i am not aware of myself. the world stinks of Romans and everywhere i look i see blank roman faces cheering at the Colosseum, ever ignorant. Madness strikes me when i get claustrophobia from the edges of the map being filled in. i can be pretentious, but thats only because of the lack of intelligence i encounter in my day to day life. perhaps im arrogant and i have an inferiority complex, but i haven't thought about it enough to decide. you see, i have this strange feeling inside that i shouldn't give a shit what other people think about me. people in response are quite negative at times, but that's only because they have this toolbox of predetermined responses to the same shit they experience day, after day, after day. its almost like everyone is chemically addicted to being themselves it seems. "i HAVE to go here, i HAVE to do THIS, i need to behave THIS WAY" i just dont get it. one day, i stopped at a dollar general. on my way in, i saw a rack of pamphlets that read "would you like to learn how to read?" i shook my head and walked on only to be encountered with another sign that read, "numbers so simple, you can add them in your head!". now, as a new human coming in, i cant help but see the retarded stupidity in all of humanity. so of course, im stuck and hell bent on explaining this to everyone. for some reason, i just cant get over the fact that people would actually go as far as to kill whole ethnic groups and religious groups *just* because they disagree on the original thoughts of the origins of the universe from each of their respective cultures. i mean, look at the vested interest in considerable losses, what the fuck? you literally have nothing to lose. this essentially means, any time ANYONE want to get physical or kill someone, on the inside they are whining like a piglet that was just told its about to be turned into bacon. lol. "uhhhh, you dont agree with my archaic theories about the universe despite our technology, so im going to kill you so i feel better on the inside." psh, please. just religion in general i dont get. its quite obvious that the universe is a fractal example of reverse reductionism, but why is it so fucking important? of ALL the things that we could have been in a universe of INFINITE possibility, we are chemically and technologically addicted planet that cant come to grips with flying though a black space with no walls floor or roofs. and of ALL the things i could have been, i waited 14 billion years to be stuck as a human in the 21st century. FML. fuck this planet. but if you feel like you can cheer me up, please, shoot me a message. that's why im on here. lol.
