I really wouldn't know how 2 describe me. I am myself. I don't try to be like other people, because thats just not my style, and there aren't that many people that are worth changing myself to try to be like. I'm 15. I would say I'm a very nice person, until you mess with me on a bad day. Umm... I'm not exactly pretty, but I'm not the fugliest person in the world either, not that looks are all that important. I am usually a loner, very quiet, that is until I'm around my friends, whom I love so much. Umm.. I'm deffinately NOT preppy! The only people I truly "hate" are those who judge me before getting to know me, and I don't take the word "love" very lightly, so , obviously, I don't use it very often. As far as my looks go, I have dark brown eyes, underneath and the tips of my hair is fire red, and the rest is light reddish blonde, which will change soon, hopefully. I'm pretty short, 5'1", and the clothes I wear vary, I usually just wear what makes me comfortable. Well, I guess thats all for now.
Some movies I like
Queen of the Damned
Blade Trilogy
The Crow
Pirates of the Caribbean 1-2
Underworld 1-2
Saw 1-2
Waiting
Jackass: The Movie
and more.....
Some bands I like
AFI
System of a Down
Blink 182
HIM
Linkin Park
Marilyn Manson
Nine Inch Nails
Avenged Sevenfold
Nirvana
Korn
AC/DC
Staind
Lacuna Coil
and other good groups that don't suck....
*Body Crumbles*
finally recover and the mood is right
looking up into a neon sky
child in me takes over, guess it's been too long
since the last time that i tried to fly
finally i find when i lose control
inside my body crumbles
it's like therapy for my broken soul
inside my body crumbles
all i need's a moment, chance to get away
from the stressfulness of every day
know if i don't question and i never doubt
everything is gonna be okay
finally i find when i lose control
inside my body crumbles
it's like therapy for my broken soul
inside my body crumbles
i don't know if i'll be alright
is it okay to be myself
why do we always have to fight
now i know it's alright
finally i find when i lose control
inside my body crumbles
it's like therapy for my broken soul
inside my body crumbles
*Only Happy When it Rains*
I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains
You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down
You can keep me company
As long as you don’t care
I’m only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me ...
*Heartache Every Moment*
From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us
Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so warm
Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god
Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you
From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right
*Slept So Long*
Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can't bear
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
Well did you?
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise(surprise)
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
Walking, Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can't bear
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
I hate you!
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
And touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How'd it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I couldn't kill you
I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
*Conflict*
You are, enemy
You are my hated enemy
I am enemy
Number one rated enemy
I'm labelled enemy
I am your mortal enemy
My actions enemy
Make me your bitter enemy
All the world around enemy
They're tearing up the ground enemy
They're drawn in by the sound
Enemy, enemy I must eliminate my Enemy
Your people, enemy
My people's hated enemy
What are you, enemy
Though a created enemy
Terminate the, enemy
Eradicate the hated enemy
I am an enemy
My very greatest enemy
You try to tell me that you love life
Then find another way to kill life
Wanting, love life
Needing, kill life
Wanting, love life
Needing, kill life
Enemy
*All That I've Got*
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I..
I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
Love those songs!!
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
