I keep coming back t document the day to day insanity that has become my own personal hell.
I got up early today after me doing a shift swap so I could go with dad to fix the insurance situation he has gotten me into with the car. The house insurance and car insurance where with the same company under the family for years.... he re-newed the house insurance but left out the car insurance and tryed to MAKE ME take the car over.... I knowing bloody well if that car was in my name he would NEVER help me with a single thing again declined that was 4 weeks ago.... I kept saying to home I need the car I'm a store manager I have to go do things like bank deposits....
this morning I came up stares and was like ok time to go I'll call us a cab..... and dad loses his mind.... telling me I'm living in a dream world and why can't I drive the convertible to the insurance place. To that I reply well what happens if between the house and the insurance company we get T boned by another car? Apparently I have mental issues he tells me for the fact that I always have to do things MY WAY.... well think about it are you suppose to drive a car with out insurance NO.... if something happened on the way to the insurance company would we be screwed YES!
I don't think I'm crazy I think I'm being careful but in any case this starts a yelling match about me and him about how he does not want to do anything.... how he just wants to let everything fall a part and not do anything so when he dies I have to scramble to just get rid of everything and he admitted yes that is exactly what he is doing he does not want to pay bills he does not want to give any one his money any more.... he just wants everyone to fuck off...
and once again he thinks he can live like this? ammmm and I'm the one living in the dream world?
I got ready to go out and he has..... .... that right he left the grounds of the house he has disappeared nothing gets done again today.... guess I walk to work in this heat......
I need to see my lawyer I can't live like this any more.
All these years.... all the abuse.... all bowled down to this morning.... "I wont listen to any one till I hear it from a professional"
Professional - I'm sorry we can not insure your son, even if every thing was moved over to his name.... and if we did due to his credit rating the cost would be astronomical
this was followed by a rant from the broker at my father about how he should have done something to help me out years ago.... my father rebutting with the fact that he is an old man.... all he has is his 3 government pensions... and the broken laughing at him stating sir in that case you must be clearing above $4500 a month and that the fact remains he did this to him self..... the call ended at that point with the broker stating the only person who can fix this mess is him and GASP he would have to PAY something to do it.
my fathers statement to this is I AM NOT PAYING ANY ONE ANY THING....
His idea of helping at this point is kicking me out.... selling everything (including my stuff) giving me $4000 the car my cloths.... pointing off into the distance and going.... see ya LHFAO
This also means bye bye internet.... except on my phone.... so I don't know when I am going to be up dating this again.....
the only important people have my cell number any one and well there are very few of them....
you know what.... I'm not even pissed off.... I'm just glad it's over.... no it did not end the RIGHT way.... but at least I'll be free of this family once and for all!!!!
Summer time.... makes me depressed. I can't go out side much because the brightness will just make my head start pounding. I had the past day, and a half off and I spent it in bed with a book.
Had another argument about house finance issues.... he wont budge on anything.... just sits there building up his hording..... you can't even get money for tooth paste out of his ass.... he refuses to spend money on anything.
I keep thinking things can not keep getting more depressing but they do.... they do..... I'm slowly losing the last want I had to communicate with people.... not replying to texts.... I already don't take phone calls.... maybe I am starting to lose the want to exist at all....
this place is a vampire it's self stuck here watching the life slowly get sucked out of me.
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