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All this media etention as of late about blogs, and webpages like this plus others cant be a totaly positive thing. On one side of the fence you have the peoples privacey. On the other side of the fence you have web stalkers out to do harm to people.



Some where in the middle you have us poor people who just want to make friends, Meet new people, and experience things from different walks of life.



I've never been a fan of sexual content on the web. Some can argue its art, and some can argue other wise. Where does on draw the line?



I've made loads of good friends online over the years. But even for someone like myself who suffers from depression, and paranoia all this negative media etentions even getting to me. I dont know I was raised different. People is people, and you have to try to respect them. People have crossed the line with me before, and it useually results in a block, and delete. How many times have I had conversations with younger people where they make mention of some body messageing them with subjects, and actions that made them uncomfortable. How many times have I said to people "look see that block and delete option use it!" but yet it seems like the vast majority don't get that idea.



Then you have the parents of younger members of our online communitys seeing stuff like on CNN running a muck thinking "Oh dear lord every one out there is out to get my son or daughter". I'm not saying people have a write NOT to worrie. Beleave me I've had some pretty messed up incounters myself in my life time. I think maybe people need to educate them selves on net behaveuor.



I dont think its 100% right that parents should poke there noses into every nook, and cranny of there kids lives. Over reacting never helped any one. Best thing I would sugest is moderate vigulance.



I myself have blocked, and deleted people from friends lists over the years just out of shear "Im not too comfortable for what ever reason" sometimes overly paranoid ideas.



I don't know I think the internet COULD be a wonderfull way to meet people shear interests, and communicate. But the kind of "witch hunt" mantality the news media tends to put on things makes me wonder if or could there be any one out there thats going to be hooked into a situation where they get blamed for something they dident do. Yes with modern technology ( IP traces and such ) you can prove where people come from and whos who. I almost feel like the net terrorizems winning here. Where letting a few sick'O's ruin what could be a great global community for all. Yes I think we have a resposablity to take action, and report things when things get out of hand.



I thought this was a worthy subject to bring up here, and post in my journal... discuss!

I guess I felt I should log something here. Life continues in its ever on going slow grind to inevetabilty.



I have become extreamly guilt ridden for any one that has to have anything at all to do with me. I have become almost total afread of people. I don't trust any one any more. Life feels like a 1980 arcade game, and i just ran out of .25 cent coins.



Game Over



My subsequent battles with the lawyers, schools, and student loan peoples have left me feeling well. I guess the sentance most used is "we dont care you did this to your self now deal with it" comes to mind. Maybe thats been most of my life right there. Trying so hard thinking I should be something when really all I was to be was nothing. My real mother should of had an abortion I shouldent exist. I mean just trying to do those things that most people take for granted for me are the hardest things one could do. For instance just going to a take out to get food.... I wont go in any more its drive through or no food for me. I dont like being seen.... I dont like being touched.... I dont like talking to beings that really dont give a shit if you even exist at all. I hate how life has become so plastic and fake. Maybe life was always this way, and I just dident notice it till I got to the point where I am now.



I mean thats not to say that life cant be a wonderfull thing, and that for the normal person that there is not alot to enjoy. But its become clear to me with my life experiences to date that the way I think of things is not the way most "human beings" do. I feel totaly alien. I feel so out side of the "normal" existance that people take so much for granted.



I go out late at night, and I drive for hours. A "war drive - for memorys" as it where. Remembering the way things used to be. Remembering old friends long gone from my life. Where did it all go so wrong? Was it the abusive teacher in grade 3? Was it the fact that I always saw things on another leave from most people? Was it the fact that my mind has always felt so much older then my body does, the fact that life seems like a sick sad dajavu, the fact that even as young as kindergarden I could understand physics?



I wish I knew where I belonged in this world. Because I really do not feel like I belong any where any more.... any place... or with any one at all.



I dont even feel like I belong here.