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Sitting here alone
Wanting to speak
But the words won't come out
Trapped in my own head
A chamber of self-doubt

Not sure when this
Inner prison formed
My past self is now
Something I mourn

It's not that I don't want to
Open up to anyone
I practaly have nothing left
There's almost no one

So here I sit, in the dark
A self made lost ark
Watching time pass
As my life falls apart

It feels like a collapsing battle
That I was fated to lose
A pre-programmed error
With no option to choose

Why am I still here?
That answer's left unfound
I'm not even sure if
I'm worth being found