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i feel so lonely tonight. it's raining outside and i'm shivering. it's cold here really. but i love the rain..i don't want it to stop. only it makes me sad.



noone to talk to. noone to poke. noone to slap..noone to flirt..noone to love. hehe.



so i'm stucked in front of this damn pc for 3 hours...waiting...waiting for my salvation.



maybe i can do something useful for myself..maybe slash my wrist just to prove i'm bleeding and alive... ahahahaha!! stupidddddddd!!!!!!!!!!



anyway, i'm wtill up to waiting....

i don't know...



i'm confused....



i hate the way i'm feeling now.....



i feel so down...





i feel so alone....and yet i know i'm not...



quinn help! you know what's going on....



you know it perfectly well....



i won't be alright until someone will slap me...



and now...i'm scared...

quinn i need you! let's talk!

i was being shallow. so shallow. i was hurt easily...but because i love. i do love. i was upset because i was disappointed. because i was confused.



i shouldn't have hurt people i love but because of my shallowness and "ultra sensitive that made me insensitive".



i promise myself, wouldn't let it happen again....



i wish nobody will try to upset me... again.

far-out headline. but anyway, atm, i'm very much thankful to the only guy in the Vampire Rave that i love. who's always been there for me (doesn't exactly mean he's always beside me). for spoiling me, for supporting me and for loving me.



i'm gonna love you always.....





though i'm having a hard time getting Hayden off my mind...



*wink-wink*