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Its been so lonely here lately. I am not even sure why. I mean I constantly have family in and out but I feel as if I am isolated from everyone. Its like i can hear them talking but they are far away. I lay in my bed wondering if they can even see me. Its ghastly the way they look at me. Can they hear when I try to talk to them. Why do they all look so sad. I am still here but I am traped and can't get out. At the same time though everything around me is changing. The air, the smells, the sounds. I can hear what sounds like a little bird cring but there aren't birds to sing here. All there is is quiet darkness. Why can't I move though I try with all that is in me nothing moves. I don't understand why I am this way. Am I in a state of death but I am alive at the same time. Someone anyone help me to understand. I am so cold so wonderfully cold. I feel all rigid and stiff. I can smell what smells like roting flesh and the sounds of people walking and talking to and fro. So I close my eyes or were they even open. And I sleep, sleep for what feels like an hour but turns into a hundred years. I will rise again someday but I am not sure when yet. Maybe when the right person or thing comes along and arouses me from my grave. Till then I sleep in a great release of all that is around me. Goodnight world of today, Hello world of Tomorrow. Angelique