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19:07 Sep 11 2025
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Her cancer has grown, rapidly, in a short matter of time.
This is the moment I always feared.
I'm scared, and anxious. Heartbroken to say the least.
She's all I have left. I dont know what to do
I know there's nothing I can do, life is brutal.
I depend on Tommi now, and Rachid.
They are basicly the only people keeping me somewhat in check.
I honnestly dont know what I'd do without them.
I dont know what I will do.
I been clean for 4 months and all I can think about now
Is saying fuck everything and just fall in.
I wish I could just take her pain, her fear.
But it doesn't work like that does it?
This seems to be just a part of life.
I hate it..
12:14 Sep 05 2025
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Jaaaaacqlin, he keeps saying in my ear, it gives me "heeeereees johnny" vibes but i love that.
Please don't leave, points at me, and boobs my nose, I will find you.
You're mine now, I've claimed you..
I consulted chatgpt, says he is a walking red flag, but I wouldn't want him any other way.
I'm in pain, and whenever he is there, he makes me forget that
03:57 Sep 02 2025
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it's the little things, he does it all the time.
Tommi: can you promise me one thing?
Me: what?
Tommi: that you try to sleep soon? Tommi still needs you.
Me: when does Tommi needs me?
Tommi: today, tommorow, and the days after that..
Awh man ♡..
I'm not sleeping, rarely is, it's become so bad that when I do, my alarm won't wake me, most likely due to the fact that all too often I don't fall asleep untill I have to get up in a hour, or a few hours at most.
He calls to wake me up even tho he is at work, or might be sleeping himself, I dont want to bother him with it, but I thinks he enjoys doing it, even gets a little disappointed when he doesn't have to wake me up.
"Kom her!.. do I have to ask again? I need you"
His words lingers in my brain when he isn't around.
Like I can still hear him..
Oh well, it's 5 am, I must try sleep soon, Tommi needs me
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Cadrewolf2
20:07 Sep 11 2025
So sorry. Blessings