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Ever looked at a picture,

And hated absolutely everything about it?

Not quite understanding why you hate it so much.

I mean you didnt put it there.

Didnt ask for it to be in your face.

Yet there it sits,

Taunting you,

Polluting your mind,

Averting your thoughts to nothing more then problematic situations.



When you repress,

The problem sits,

Welling inside you,

Growing and growing,

Until finally you burst.

You may never get over it.

May never come to terms with what had happen to you.

What others cant comprehend though,

How could they?

They never were there anyway.

Or so they wish to believe.

Hope their lies keep them warm at night.

Hope their cold hearted words drag them straight into the depths of the very hell they've made for so many others.

You are not righteous!

You can not judge.

You've no idea who a person can be.

How could you know,

When you base everything in your life off of a lie.

Your foundation,

Your life,

Your tales,

Your love.

Its all a big lie.

A big hurtful,

Decieving lie.

You try to pretend that you are perfect.

Presenting yourself in a Godly manner.

When really your a pathetic excuse of what you were.



You want to look down on people,

People who live lives happier,

Maybe worse than yours.

Why cant being happy ever be good enough for you?

Why must a world that doesnt revolve around you still have to bask in your "light"?

You are not my sun,

Though you have burned me.

You are not my hope,

My ambition,

My dream.

I will never present myself as something I am clearly not.

I can put on a show,

Sometimes I hide behind the smiling mask.



I stared at the picture of a demon.

A beast that haunted my nightmares.

I worked up enough courage to look the creature in its souless eyes.

This whole time,

I have been letting something,

That can never touch me again,

Never speak another hurtful word to me.

Ive been letting that fear rule my life.

Keep me in my place,

A safe haven,

Hidden and very well fortressed,

Prepared for any threat.

I set my haven on fire.

And walked through its ashes.

No longer afraid,

No more holding back,

Staying in the one place I didnt wish to be.



I fought the war against myself,

And won.

I will fight to protect my new foundation.

The one I have built on pure beliefs.

And learned experience.

Something you were never taught.

Something you will never know.

Because you will forever stand infront of that demon.

Cowaring in fear.

Letting him control you.

And demand your attnetion,

And emotion for the rest of eternity.



Theres a spot for people like you in the darkest part of hell.

So you've doomed my day of light to darkness. Bleached my beautiful sun white with the pale luminous glow of the moon. Locked my mind in this tainted innosense, for you to twist and bend but never break me. Though I beg and plea for something but this misery. My love for this demon has become the only injection my veins wont reject. Oh! My addiction for this tormented affection. Can anyone save me from my self corrupted beauty? My heart is racing, blasting my blood faster and faster. How I crave you, and all you do. With every word you say, all the breaths you've taken from me, everytime you've made my heart cave in my chest. Why do I love you? Why do I let you desacrate my world, how do I enjoy this desolation? Watch my wonders and dreams cascade down into a terrifying drain of emotion. You seemed to save me in the beginning. Stop me when I was weak, when I caved in on myself, when no one could see how blind I was. You brought me to the light. You showed me the wretch I had become. What happened to you? To my shining star? Now you've dropped down, fallen into a self-righteous pit of oblivion. I wish to save you, hope for your happiness. But you shove my hand away. In this darkness I see your eyes, I see your face. Watch your life slowly pour out with each shivering breath. I sit and wait for the day that my sun will fade back into the wonderous hugh of happiness. I lay by your side my demon angel dreaming the day that will come after all your destruction is done.