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I've known love a fewtimes in my life. I known many types of love, but that's not ewhat I mean.

I've Truly given my heart to 5 people in my life, all of it to some, some to others.

My first was the second strongres in my life. What I mean by that they had everything I was. Sh was my everything I woke thinking of her, dreamt of her, woke to thinking of her. Even bleed for her at her knees.

Then One day it was gone, taken away. So I closed down to the world

The were others, Iwas married 3 time and the same thing or theme repeated it's self they cheated. So this to me shows it's my lack of feeling or inability to open my heart completely.

what does one do one love looks at you everyday and you want to let thenm in but no matter how hard I want to give all something dark hides it.

The woman I'm with is wonderful. She's smart, pretty, funny, happy. But latly I don't help with her happiness. I do love her with everything I am, but that doesn't seem to be enough. So I ask myself what do I DO. we both are in poor health but we try to help each other the best we can. But Fear and Anger plants seeds that push you apart. it makes you do stupid things. We build walls and make alternate plans for if the worst comes. This is poison to the soul and heart.

All I ever wanted was to be happy, but I always want more. Not for me for whom I'm with. I feel like such a failure that I need to give more and have more and circle my defenses. All that's done is push the one thing I want most away. How far I don't know. I know I love her with all my heart and soul. She gave me the most hansome 2 boys Brandon and Riley and a beautiful daughter mackenzie. I would die foir them al even willing to go to prison to protect them. I just wish she know how muck I love her and need her. She is my everything. The second to open my heart and it scares me and all I do is screww things up. For that I am so so sorry. But that doesn't change my love for her. She doen't think I do but she's wrong. I love her with all that I am.

Your Status: Enchanter (Level 80)



You have completed 14% of the next level.



Pages Viewed Score (Pages: 153,164): 74 x .50 = 37.00

Time Spent Score (Time: 33.05 days): 74 x .50 = 37.00

Base Score: 74



[ Bonuses / Penalties ]

Ratings (Ratings: 13,893): 74 x 0.0347 = 2.57

Database (Submissions: 18): 74 x 0.0005 = 0.04

Forum (Posts: 209): 74 x 0.0052 = 0.38

Profile (Rating: 9.855): 74 x 0.0200 = 1.48

Journal (Read By: 63): 74 x 0.0063 = 0.47

Friend (Lists On: 164): 74 x 0.0062 = 0.46

Blocked (Lists On: 1): 74 x 0.0000 = 0.00

Overblock (Blocks: 2): 74 x 0.0000 = 0.00

Society 74 x 0.0100 = 0.74

Mark 74 x 0.0000 = 0.00

Mentor 74 x 0.0000 = 0.00

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Total Score: 80.14



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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!



Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level | Score

Purgatory | Very Low

Level 1 - Limbo | Very Low

Level 2 | Very High

Level 3 | Moderate

Level 4 | Very High

Level 5 | Very High

Level 6 - The City of Dis | Moderate

Level 7 | Very High

Level 8- the Malebolge | Very High

Level 9 - Cocytus | Very High

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

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