In her own words 21:04 Apr 14 2012
Times Read: 365
~Bits and pieces from immortalxkiss' journal, not all encompassing. Imagine reading this knowing some is left out. As if this weren't enough. Portions in italics are from me~
The Chronicles Of A Fucking Nutcake
23:56:18 - May 14 2007: "Stepping out." I've decided that I need to step out of my House....
12:25:04 - May 17 2007: "New Coven" I hope I can live up to this responsibility that has been placed upon me. I would never want to let my new family down.
13:19:54 - Jul 15 2007: It's weird. Never have I felt so at home in a Coven, then I do in CC. Not because I'm an ACM, for I'd feel at home without the status granted to me by my dear Master. No.. It's just because the members, Ade, are all so wonderful.
13:04:16 - Sep 23 2007: "Stepping out" I've been giving it a lot of thought.. and I've decided that Celestial Wisdom and I can't mix.
10:59:51 - Sep 26 2007: "Another one bites the dust"
So.. I've stepped out of Corpse Bride.
10:08:10 - Sep 27 2007: "A new home.. again.." Okay, I know.. lately I've been hopping from one place to another. I've hit three Covens in the past two weeks.
07:39:31 - Oct 06 2007: Weffie's made me her ACM. And, I'm honored that she's given me the position.
13:33:01 - Oct 07 2007: Sent all the information on my Coven to Cancer, so hopefully it'll be up and running soon.
I'm worried about this time, but, it's all a chance I'm willing to take.
If I fail once more, well, it proves I'm not worthy of running my own Coven. And, well, I can take being an Assistant to one that's worth while. It's all a learning experience for me.
00:02:42 - Oct 19 2007: I'm growing tired of HN. Really tired of it. It's become like Nocte, a chore for me. It's not as fun as it was in the beginning.
00:00:37 - Oct 20 2007: I couldn't do it anymore. I had to get rid of HN. It was just.. too much of a chore to keep it up and running. I didn't want to deal with it anymore.
00:17:36 - Oct 20 2007: I've petitioned House Eternal for membership. I don't know if they'll take me on though.. ImagesinWords seems to have a set type of person she takes into her House, and I'm unsure if I meet those qualifications.
11:01:06 - Oct 20 2007: I'm now a proud member of House Eternal. And.. I think I'm going to like it there. Very much so.
09:45:48 - Oct 22 2007: I beginning to get that feeling again. The "I'm not feeling this, time to move on" feeling.
23:02:04 - Oct 22 2007: I'm now a proud member of Cinnamon's Coven, Forbidden Fruit. Let's see how long this one lasts..
07:43:11 - Oct 25 2007: I just noticed I had been given the rank of Forum Master in Forbidden Fruit. I'm not complaining, of course, it just caught me off guard. No one even informed me of the promotion, which I find a bit odd. But, like I said, I'm not complaining.
13:45:16 - Nov 29 2007: Headed back to Sanctus. Forbidden Fruit was a wonderful ride while it lasted, but my time with them has drawn to a close.
21:23:54 - Dec 18 2007: I've pulled myself out of SA.
12:20:50 - Dec 21 2007: I'm beginning to host the idea of starting, once more, a Coven.
10:45:56 - Dec 25 2007: So, I've decided to go through with it, and just make a new one. Something that means more to me than the last two ever had.
Wait, I thought if you failed once more you wouldn't worthy?
22:19:35 - Dec 26 2007: So, I've got my new Coven all set up. I'm really happy about this one, and I've got lots planned. Unlike Nocte and HN, my little Masquerade is more me, more of who I am, and how I see things.
01:37:09 - Feb 06 2008: I really don't want it anymore. I do so much better as an ACM. I find that I enjoy that position immensely. I'm getting bored, tired, and I just don't want to do it anymore.
If Masque closes, I swear that it will be my last time. I'm not going to run any more into the ground. I'm through with playing my hand at master. I am such a failure at the game.
09:22:42 - Apr 11 2008:
I swear, after I close Masque, I'm done. I won't create anymore. And that's most definitely a promise.
08:50:28 - Apr 23 2008: So, I'm in the Coven of the Dragon now.
19:37:06 - Apr 23 2008: I work too hard for the Societies I'm in sometimes..
Yeeeeeah, so hard you leave two seconds later.
00:23:09 - May 25 2008: So CoD was disbanded by Cancer due to some members going against the ToS..
Holyeeee shit you are gone from that one and didn't do it on your own.
18:57:54 - May 29 2008: Yup, Iron Paw and my Coven Master and his Mistress are truly awesome.
01:51:13 - Jun 16 2008: I am now a proud member and Assistant Coven Master of Nocturnal Felinity. And, it feels like I'm home again, and I couldn't be happier about it.
02:25:09 - Feb 11 2009: So much for joining The Coven of Midnight Dreary.
23:32:49 - Feb 11 2009: Umbrae Octo, I think I've found my home.
05:36:38 - Mar 04 2009: We've got some visitors in Monomacy. This should be seriously fun.
Me takes it you still don't know what "home" is?
03:11:38 - Mar 20 2009: I knew going into Infinitus Serenus would be the best thing for me. I freaking love it there!
02:14:12 - Mar 25 2009: Stepped out of Umbrae. Back to Mono I go!
05:51:55 - Apr 08 2009: Back home in Lux. It's such a lovely feeling to be back there.
22:26:11 - Apr 23 2009: Pulled Tinnu out of IS for reasons I'm not willing to disclose right now.
23:21:39 - Jun 12 2009: Yay, I've got my little Masque back!
07:17:40 - Jul 13 2009: Haha, for most of the day I totally didn't realize that I've had Masque for a whole month now.
A whole month and I'm already bailing on them. I should feel bad, but I can't. Meh. It wasn't what I wanted, but that's fine. It'll be safe in Matthew's hands.
06:23:41 - Jan 22 2010: Took away all admin positions from the members.
04:51:52 - Mar 07 2010: I earned WallFlower's Mark. Though, I feel like I don't really deserve it.
I'm sure you fucking didn't deserve it
22:33:05 - Apr 25 2010: Back in Cognitive Fabrication. Out of all the Societies I've been a member of, I feel this one is the closest thing to home for me. It's good to be back where I belong. :]
14:25:40 - May 26 2010: I've been tossing this one around for a while: The Coven of Apathy. Because, every time I put forth an effort, and tie in a theme, I lose interest.
For once she says something I feel makes sense.
00:19:03 - Jun 30 2010: Here's to hoping LBO will be the last stop for this Society hopper. :]
00:47:27 - Sep 23 2010: Okay.. Here's to really hopping CF will be the last stop for this girl.
03:45:40 - Oct 03 2010: I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I really want to be a CM again, but instead of opening a new one, I'd like to regain control of my Ancient Wisdom.
21:47:51 - Oct 18 2010: Score, AW is mine again!
22:02:31 - Nov 18 2010: I'm going to be disbanding Smoke and Mirrors.
06:53:24 - Nov 30 2010: Muahahaha! I'm in Purgatory.
06:56:07 - Dec 12 2010: So long CF. It was fun while it lasted, I guess. I just needed to get away. I doubt I'll be going back.
07:05:55 - Dec 12 2010: Know what, fuck it. Maybe I'll just reopen Smoke and Mirrors.
15:18:09 - Dec 15 2010: Back in Immortal Sin.
21:23:21 - Dec 26 2010: Decided to petition the Coven of Complicit Dualities.
01:15:26 - Dec 27 2010: Apparently CCD is out of the question. It seems I've had "issues" with a member there.
02:30:24 - Dec 27 2010: Eh, screw it, I'm staying rogue. Fuck being in a Coven. It's all petty nonsense and bullshit anyway.
23:55:45 - Jan 03 2011: I'm thinking I may just reopen my Coven
21:57:15 - Jan 28 2011: I'm seriously contemplating re-opening Smoke and Mirrors.
04:51:37 - Jan 30 2011: So, I submitted everything to Cancer. Hopefully I'll have my Smoke and Mirrors back up and running soon. :]
01:03:35 - Feb 04 2011: I forgot how much of a hassle being a CM is.
06:09:23 - Feb 23 2011: I'm interested in finding a new home for Songbird. Frankly, I don't feel like I belong in Lycan Underworld.
22:18:14 - Mar 22 2011: Sometimes I wonder how good a Coven Master I am.
REALLY? It isn't blatantly obviously you are fucking horrific at it?
04:51:40 - Apr 27 2011: I'm getting bored again...
00:40:31 - Jul 21 2011: And.. I'm a Coven Master again.
She's just as fickle about her members as she is about herself:
22:13:22 - Jul 27 2011: The alternate account of the member ToxicKitten, Kitteh, is not and never will be available for a trade (unless I choose to send him back to Smoke and Mirrors).
06:44:16 - Jul 28 2011: I'm offering Kitteh up for trade. See the listing below or in the Classifieds. Price is non-negotiable.
Non-negotiable? I don't believe that for ONE second!
22:55:19 - Aug 25 2011: I really wish Cancer would switch Smoke and Mirrors over to Matthew already. I don't like having her head it anymore. It makes me worried that she'll send all my Favor away and disband it.
03:47:26 - Sep 15 2011: Erised.. Why do I still have you when I've done nothing in the month and some odd weeks that you've been open? It's a waste, but I won't disband. Not again.
Sure you will.
10:41:24 - Sep 30 2011: I will most likely be merging Smoke and Mirrors with Erised within the next few weeks.
01:08:25 - Nov 22 2011: We're bringing back Smoke and Mirrors.
03:54:21 - Nov 24 2011: It feels so good to have Smoke and Mirrors back up and running along side Erised. Erised wasn't complete without Smoke and Mirrors, it was lacking something. But, now it's whole again. And now False Pretense serves a purpose again.
07:26:33 - Dec 15 2011: So, I disbanded Erised. I'm a little sad, but this is what had to be done. I'm not cut out to be a CM. And, as promised, you won't be seeing anymore Covens from me. I'm done with all of it.
LOL!!!!
04:40:56 - Feb 06 2012: I know I am going to get a lot of crticism for this, but I am hoping to bring back my Erised.
21:54:03 - Feb 07 2012: Erised and Smoke and Mirrors together in False Pretense as it should be. Feels like coming home.
23:07:05 - Feb 27 2012: If I could, I would keep my Coven open just for me,
06:26:41 - Apr 14 2012: And with the click of a few buttons, Erised is gone. It was about time, I'm done with all this Coven Master stuff. For good. Now I can spend all my time on Ephemeral and not feel bad about neglecting things here.
18:01:47 - Apr 14 2012: I'm home. And this is where I intend to stay until D either gets tired and gives me the boot or until he shuts doors. So, needless to say, he's stuck with me for a while. :]
And we believe every single word. Because you have never ever given anyone a reason to think otherwise.
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bloodredatrophy15
21:44 Apr 14 2012
lmfao