In the section of my journal Favorite Albums I have all my favorite albums that I've been collecting and posting here when I can afford it as I pay a premium in support of the artist. The password is the magic words spoken by character Ali Baba (Ali Baba and the Forty Thieves) in all caps with no spaces. Once I have more links set up on other sites I will just share my link to other sites that store them. It just seems appropriate to me for now.
A little about myself. I have found having dyslexia that shapes a constant focus to overcome the disability a defining quality to my character and coincidentally very common denominator for members of this site. Yes look around with trepidation we have you surrounded. It's our experiences in life as well as our DNA that shape us uniquely especially during our formative years of youth.
I grew up as an only child and Army brat in many places around bases stateside and in Europe. Originally I'm from a back woods area in the Appalachian mountains. My father also dyslexic but grew up quite different then me and carried the wounds of war transferred quite a bit to me. Let's just say I had an extremely strict highly scrutinized childhood and leave it at that. Besides competing in martial arts I wasn't into sports unless you think hunting, fishing and trapping are. I've lived on a small farm and took care of many domestic animals but ultimately I don't care much for that as I think it's a great disservice to breed animals for food or captivity but rather think it is best when they are wild. Think if you want to eat meat you should hunt for it in a wilderness not a supermarket. Served a bit in the military as a paratrooper. Did some security work for a crew as a career criminal. Spent the 90's incarcerated. Then after released with the work ethic that was instilled in me built myself up to a foreman in the steel industry. It's around that time I first came to V.R..
Sometimes I play video games my all time favorite is Skyrim. Liked the first Bloodlines computer game too. I'm counting on Vampire: The Masquerade Bloodlines 2 video game to draw in a crowd to V.R. as media hypes tend to do; plus having a guild online there my intuition tells me will be important. "!!!" It keeps getting pushed back in launch date.
I see myself as an occultist in identity. I have done some studying with empirical results in many different traditions but they never really fit me. So having an Elemental guide created my own unique way with my own composite symbol that resembles a 3d mobius strip and 16 cardinal point vortex that differentiates linear force from cyclical form. Most seem to build off others' work I tend to pioneer my own way with the mixture of things coming from my Elemental friend. This seems way if I wanted the absolute. I consider myself nosferatu in that I can feed from any source but usually from spiritual ones. I don't have wings or change into a bat but I can fly pretty well when I astrally project. I do think that if you want things done right you got to do them yourself. I do tend to take my time though so you may be in for the "long game" if you find you are playing against me. That is just so much better than doing something half assed in a rush job. I know life doesn't always give one time and decisions must be made in the heat of moments but it's been my experience that's when mistakes are often made. So I try to take my time and keep the poor judgement to a minimum.
As a loner social media is more a responsibility to me than anything else. So here I get to share what I have been up to. I use quadcopter drones-my gargoyles in ritual magick. I am strongly attuned to nature and specifically the Elements of the wise. It is through them that I have found the best way of orienting one's self to the absolute. I don't believe in divine creators but think its just a way our ancestors' anthropomorphized and gained and understanding of the cosmos much like those who thought everything revolved around the earth; but think there is a spiritual (subtle)dimension to everything and all life forms have an eternal spirit wherein refined beings evolve to a summit before devolving in eternity. I am generally a peaceful person but there is a time for conflict especially if you have integrity to preserve. With my level of scrutiny and desire for understanding the absolute I tend to see depths others miss.
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I think for myself so do have an opinion and am not afraid of expressing it if I think it's appropriate. Sometimes I make assumptions but you have to start somewhere in a dialog before any changes can be made. You can: [voice yours in return, pending your character I may value it as I sometimes make mistakes and am not bound by insecurities to admit them and try to save face; Like most you can avoid me and remain silent some may perceive you as wise being a mystery, be careful of atrophy as one learns more through experience than observation; Or even just block me if you're too weak to deal with it].
Whatever I rate I try to do so objectively taking your personality out of the equation and simply judge what I consider to constitute a great profile presentation or lack thereof. Refer to my journal section: Open Book for a list of this evolving criteria. I put time and effort into what I do as I alone am responsible for it in this short unique life in the matrix of eternity. Thus, I prioritize my time so I may not return a rating and especially not if you are a chronic name changer or deem as a skank that just wastes my time. If it is something in the database then I must have it in order to rate it with an informed decision.
I am mostly lead by psychic senses and occult sources not the facade people present but I may try to understand reason I am warned away from some. I am in a symbiotic relationship with an Elemental whose very presence constantly burns me in ethereal ecstasy. In many ways like the stories of those who encountered the Fae it spoils one in that the earthly delights don't satisfy after tasting their fruit. It is my understanding that the spirit realm is just the subtle meeting place of all conscious physical beings throughout eternity that we are all connected to through an eternal spirit. Some of those connections are stronger than others pending where you are spiritually speaking. It's not always an evolution to refinement as decay is a principle of nature. This is also the source of magick to me as all power comes through sacrifice. It is the vampire that exemplifies these principles in one life drawing on others through bonds like the blood covenant. Yes, I believe in reincarnation which is just to me in accord with nature's cycles that wax and wane like the moon phases. But this doesn't negate the fact that we are mortals too which gives great value to this unique life.
I treat the add as a friend option as a like button and is someone who I find at the least merely above tolerable so don't read too much into it. It is just a starting point to build a friendship on through interactions.
Most exist as a grey area for me out of respect for their privacy as there is such a thing as TMI that I try to avoid. I don't charm to attract but am just myself if you can't accept me for who I am or am inspired by you to do then why bother it will only end badly? I don't do tit for tat nor do I tell anyone I add or favor their journal to pressure a response. I think it is something that should be based on my judgement and initiative alone. Sometimes it is something that I expect returned and if it isn't then I'll remove it so it can be pending. I give and take honor based on merit and "is" based on your behavior and personality. I do not block as I think lines of communication should remain open to close them is to censor which is only applicable during times of martial law. If I don't like you I'll let you know and avoid you I don't think it's necessary to censor one to do that. I think having a bunch of profiles expressing yourself on one social network is ridiculous, rather if you want to expand and use principle of attrition then expand to other sites and link them with links or banners and keep the themes in member pages and articles. I may honor another in secret but I never do anything negatively anonymously. You are just a piece of shit and a coward for it-you know who you are. If you are in a position of authority or entitled then I will judge you by higher standards in all things rather than habit of most to take advantage of the weak and butt kiss the entitled. If you are truly a leader and great in character then it will show through especially when enduring a trial. I got no problems testing the veracity of anything. Even with my past I have a strong sense of justice. I would love to have been dealt a different hand in life to have been a pillar of the community like my family but but even so know what I have now is also a result of everything I've suffered that brought so much disappointment. Wonder just how much was chaos factor or an agent of chaos that had a bond with me and used their magick to fuck my life up so much-time will tell as well their motives. Not such a bad thing if the motives were for a relatively good cause as opposed to those who just feed their ego and pride. The same goes for those who have acted likewise on this site and closed some doorways to me and some others. I know well the power of magick and especially those who like to abuse blood rites.
If you are someone I referred here weather by personal invitation or a link through another site then let me just apologize right now as it stands now I can only just barely tolerate most. Those members I actually like I can count on only one hand and most of them aren't very active anymore. It's my endeavor to change that so please bear with all the assholes and delusional fools until better character manifests itself.
To navigate this site one needs to hone psychic skills and intuition to determine who is behind the mask at any given time as their is much deception and manipulation. Learn to trust these abilities to determine who you can trust to associate with and definitely before giving out any personal information. It is these senses that will tell you who to truly fear and respect much like animals do instinctually.
Coven I'm a member of Headed by: DarkMother
