I think it is wise to pay the piper in advance. So here is my gothic playlist (audio only) from my You Tube channel (not monetized). Note you can navigate through different songs using the playlist icon in upper right corner of the video plug to choose what you want.

Greetings. Please, call me Tree. It's the nickname I'm most comfortable with. I'm a rather tall guy at 6'8", 240lbs., hazel eyes, brown/silver hair and spend a lot of quality time communing with nature where I'm most comfortable. I'm also an American of British and French heritage.

I have found having dyslexia and HSP that shapes a constant focus to overcome the disability a defining quality to my character. Apart from the problems it has also given me a depth that others don't seem to have matched with a balanced sense of humility. In the past it was a bit overwhelming to organize all the details by the time I was ready to process them. I had to content myself to just rely on simple logic and intuition and have a taciturn demeanor. But with time and experience have been able to gain the strength to endure it and organize it all to a more complete picture as well as add a spiritual dynamic to it.

I first came to this site in 2010. As fate or Murphy's Law would have it it was my first and subsequently only social network thus far. I loved the ability to write out and express myself where I had trouble in speech. Then I went through my first induction. Now I realize it's all within the TOS and the V.R. rules but just because you can do something doesn't mean it's smart to do so no matter how many do it like smoking tobacco. I value my time, resources and opportunities that other's have squandered and thus something needs to be done lest it continue as well as restitution made which I have the power to just take if its not given. I am well schooled in life when it comes to paying debts owed others in the context of a society. I realize that I am one of those rare exceptions to something with my hypersensitivity. Still I could not believe then and even now the audacity that people have on the internet to act the way they do. I suppose that's because I grew up well before the internet was established and learned to interact with people face to face. Since honesty is an integral part of my spirituality in order to perceive absolute truth it isn't part of my nature to lie where others are free to do so easily to socialize.

I had too much on my plate back then to deal with it so left lest I be tempted to do something that would land me back in prison. But came back in 2015 under different circumstances. Still it has been hard for me as I'm not just perceptive to detail but a bit psychic too. The mesh of my netting is wound quite tightly so I pick up a lot of stuff. Much like in bodybuilding where you build muscle to handle the stresses so it is in the spiritual I gained to endure. If I have a problem beyond my tolerance now then I will just resort to skills I have in the occult to deal with them. Beyond naivety and plain ignorance from egotism I understand that people act so freely because of the anonymity the internet gives and or the protection they gain from a herd mentality to not fear reprisals. It is wise to be discrete with personal information openly but where it is a "pro" for security it is a "con" for those that abuse it and don't take responsibility for their actions.

Now I know there are many fellow practitioners of the subtle arts to varying degrees on this site as I've had to deal with their shit on an off the site. One of the greatest lessons I've learned in life is how much people are different than they are the same to be treated accordingly. I've constantly been personally trained from occult sources for over 30 years now. It's mainly about the authority you possess and where it comes from. More to it than just the strength of a persons personality and size of their ego especially if they need to lie to themselves or are vested with such from others. Knowing yourself and having a good grasp of reality is fundamental to it to me. Lots of members claim they are powerful but it's the effectiveness of that power that's respected. It will be my endeavor to express just that and by what magnitude we are different and still maintain my subtle nature. But for now I find myself in a catch 22 until I can establish my own thing. I try to judge things with surgical precision so when it comes to this site and using the internet I try to deal with it in that context. It should be...interesting seeing just how much I can do using the internet as my tool rather than what many would think are mere delusions of grandeur.

It's our experiences in life as well as our DNA that shape us uniquely especially during our formative years of youth. I grew up as an only child and Army brat in many places around bases stateside and in Europe. Originally I'm from a back woods area in the Appalachian mountains. My father also suffering the same disorders but grew up quite different than me as the oldest in a large family and thus forged with different experiences. A government agent that carried the wounds of the Vietnam war and transferred quite a bit to me his only child as those with similar focus and sensitivity can express well to the same.

You see after WW2 and Korea The U.S. was experimenting with new training techniques in the Vietnam era. Movies like Stanley Kubrick's "Full Metal Jacket" expressed this sentiment well to me. But breaking someone down (Brainwashing) and building them up as a fighting force trained to kill on command without question at the young age of 17 is something quite different to deal with with a heightened focus your entire childhood with a vet that suffers PTSD. It's taken me a while to reach a balance and have had quite a colorful life.

Besides competing in martial arts I wasn't into sports unless you think hunting, fishing and trapping are. I don't. I think it's a big part of who we are as a species and it was a means for our ancestors to survive. Now we need some catharsis in the society we live in in modern times to become whole in this department. Thus, to my understanding we have all the spiritual dynamics that develop to those that look deeper in themselves and the cosmos for wholeness. So the subcultures of a kindred community form in nocturnal mysteries apart from the majority in society that find a catharsis in the popular religions, arts and sports.

I'm kind of a DIY jack of all trades master of none. To name a few: Served a bit in the military as a paratrooper; Did some security work for a crew as a career criminal; Spent the 90's incarcerated worked there as: Teacher's aide, Librarian, and in Landscaping/Horticulture; Then after released with the work ethic that was instilled in me in my youth built myself up to a foreman in the steel industry. I'm semi-retired now and just work when I choose. I think it's great to take pride in your work as many do when comparing themselves to others but think you should take equal pride in any endeavor you apply yourself in or you'll be broken in retirement.

As far as education goes I have a H.S. diploma and vocational degrees in Electronics, Horticulture, and Business. Besides that I'm self taught in many things. Chiefly in knowing myself which I think is very important.

I have studied many traditions with empirical results but they never seemed to fit me very well. It's something about the scrutiny that was instilled in me via my strict youth and attention to detail. So relative to my unique life's experiences I found my own spirituality. I think I'm best understood as a human occultist. As such I've developed a strong affinity with the vampire and nocturnal mysteries but defining that is not an easy thing to do plus I'm still learning and refining it. The word spirit comes from the Greek word breath which I think conveys the meaning of something invisible that can be felt. Like any spirituality it is more like building a radio able to detect invisible radio waves but in this case subtle energies the mind creates to identify with the cosmos. What one gains through being embraced from a vampire is not much different than rituals in an occult lodge. It's just the ritual tools are flesh, blood and soul for an occultist identifying with the vampire.

Now to my understanding most that you would identify with being real vampires are those that follow teachings by the occult movement that gained popularity in the 90's and created a subculture like from occult authors Father Sebastiaan or Michelle Belanger. I have only recently studied their works to better understand what I'm dealing with here on V.R.. I have found some similarities but what makes me identify with the vampire has differences.

In a nutshell: I don't think a vampire has a deficiency in energy that they seek in others but rather I just see it as a natural polarity that develops in how one's psyche forms and is just like a pole in a magnet that creates a reception area for things caught in the field and can develop in many different ways pending the many unique personalities; The drinking of blood to me is just a rite not much different than communion in Catholicism with the actual bite or blood covenant as the important aspect of it much like a man taking a virgin in marriage-it's actually a lot like grounding a circuit and can be quite empowering. I don't need it to survive like a vampire bat but think such concepts sprang from how the ancients thought about the humors and alchemy when it comes to blood. I make it very evident that it's a spirituality rather than deceiving people with theatrics of physical things. Thus fangs and talons that I have are just ritual tools and displayed as such being silver. Some may think it's obviously a costume and comfortably wear fake fangs, FX contact lenses or photoshopping their photos as part of the identity but there are those that do think such things are real. As I'm big on truth and clarity to deceive people in this way sets a bad precedent so I try to make things very clear leaving little room for misunderstandings. When it comes to being undead i.e. coming back from the dead it's just superstition to me created by mass hysteria for the most part as often seen in defining vampires in legend. But there is a state of mind one can acquire that is likened to coming back from the dead. Not just an abstract concept held in the mind but actually through spiritual dynamics things can gain quite an empirical dimension to experience. A dismal journey through the valley of death as sung by Theatres Des Vampires in Suicide Vampire. Certainly like in anything it has it's perks and you try to find what happiness you can but equally there is a suffering to it that one longs for the sweet embrace and mercy of true death to set you free.

I had a significant experience back in 1993 with a terrifying holy occult being (strigoi divinity) that changed my life. I don't anthropomorphize and believe in objective divine beings but still they do obviously impact our lives. I think they are just subjective creations of the mind that form in the dynamic of the brain's inner workings to give form to the cosmos in the astral plane aka Maya(illusion). They may take form outside of ourselves especially in shared belief structures as much as one can astrally project outside their body and travel beyond space and time. This is where ghosts come from to my understanding. Not disembodied beings after death but just power of their physical brains when they are alive. If one is a medium and they are conscious ghosts as opposed to unconscious like in normal dream state it may be wise to ask them what date they think it is like a doctor asks when determining mental health.

As an occultist one may use divine beings to empower more of their will as they correspond to human experience especially as a social creature. Like in text from Emerald Tablet: "As above so below" some see how there are magistrates like judges that govern us with the power to determine our fate in society so it is given form in spiritual beings. There are servants to command and or just fellow spirits to find aid from pending your outlook. Much like a toddler goes through a stage where they think everything is theirs so it seems there was a stage in humanity as a species to think likewise. So many things revolved around the human ego much like at one time the ancients thought the astral bodies revolved around the earth. Hence the divine beings and creators were conceived and given spiritual forms. The patriarchal ones as much as the male is dominant in the paradigm of sexuality in nature so it seems to be the "norm" by the law of averages in the archetypal spirit forms that develop in the minds of people. But beyond that veil I do believe there is an absolute truth best understood through the proper understanding of the Elements of the wise and the polarities that form between their dynamic. At this time my outlook is attuned to such forces rather than other consciousnesses' in spirit though I've had experience with them in the past.

It is just a beginning to compare something in a dualism (good/evil, positive/negative, male/female etc.) to give it definition in contrast but then you should continue the comparison. Thus, there is an honorable and dishonorable aspect to both the light and dark and a refinement that continues in each new permutation from each. In my understanding neither has dominance over the other that is another permutation and the night and day both have dominating aspects to the subjugated aspects of their opposites. Like there are strong dominant females as much as there are weak males.

I associate the vampire as a nocturnal hunter usually like the vampire bat. There is honor in the night for those creatures that perceive well in it. I have been taught from my occult sources to orient myself through understanding the true nature of the elements in the cosmos. However, nature can be quite cold and harsh when viewed from an absolute vantage and requires a tested state of mind able to conceive it likewise. So much goes unnoticed by creatures with habits forged by a stereoscopic focus.

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I consider myself heterosexual as only females turn me on unless you think being attracted to some T-Girls and Trans Women to be queer then I'll accept that. I have been taught to respect a persons gender choice and sexuality. Yes, some are of a degenerative nature but that doesn't make them any less important-especially in the modern overpopulated world.

Besides flirting I don't engage in sexting It's just inappropriate even if your identity is confirmed as it sets a bad example to youth or sexual predators that use this site. There are more appropriate adult sites for this if you want to indulge in it.

Beyond friendship I am not looking for any relationship but of the vampiric kind. I've been in love in my past and know it is quite different than what a vampiric state of mind has like in song Vampyrica by Theatres Des Vampire. To me that's not a love relationship though it has it's own intimacy and may involve sexual dynamics. Now in this regard I don't distinguish between male and female preference but only willing donors.

I am a DIY (Do It Yourselfer) and try to do anything I can myself. Right here and now it extends to expressing myself on the internet by my standards. Chiefly, I try to do this with good SEO that to me is the true measure of any work's worth on the internet.

I like to hike/mountain bike in the woods and park districts-especially at night with few people around. I associate quadcopter drones as my gargoyles. I've incorporated growing my own...herbs into my spirituality so has become a past-time as well.

In a blue moon I play video games. My all time favorite is Skyrim. I have found online games like WOW and ESO too redundant, however, I'm counting on Vampire: The Masquerade Bloodlines 2 video game to draw in a crowd to the vampire subculture as media hypes tend to do; plus having a guild online there my intuition tells me will be important. Sadly, It keeps getting pushed back in launch date.

I used to play tabletop RPG's too and was usually the Dungeon Master as I fit that role well and play through my NPC's letting the dice rolls make things fun. I used to read a lot but any media doesn't really appeal to me and I find myself rewriting how I would have things turn out. But if I had to choose a vampire favorite then it would be the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris which was what the HBO True Blood series was based on. However, I would have ended it with her getting with Eric instead of Sam ultimately reaching reign as a vampire queen herself giving her life in service to her state.

It can be hard choosing an actual favorite as I find I like and dislike different things for many reasons but overall If I were to choose a favorite vampire movie it would be the comedy SUCK.

I like the campy style of the movie set with many musicians starring in it. It covers the adventures of a band as it tours the U.S. and Canada and their relationship with the vampire. It's a movie I can watch again and again over the years and still enjoy. But apart from that I enjoy many movies and television programs with gothic themes.

I have quite a personal way of navigating through this site. I have to be true to myself. I am in a state of change both with adding new things as well in decay. I do tend to take my time so once I do add something new it tends to remain for a while being appreciated. Only working with one profile I'm forced to only share my favorites of something as I think a profile should be brief. But I'm often updating it so there will be subtle changes.

So one of the chief problems I've found on this site is lack of responsibility. Because of anonymity that is essential for protection there are those that abuse it and feel they can do anything they want without repercussions especially if they see others doing it in a mob mentality. Then you have those that feel they can just push reset and start again with something new rather than just taking responsibility for their actions.

There is this habit of many that use this site to wear rose colored glasses and view the world how they choose and see only what they want. It's also called ignorance. A matter of their will to ignore what they choose. It may work for short term fixes to cope with things but ultimately will blind their spirits till they're growth is stunted. I try to reach a balance in this regard and institute habits that make one more responsible without betraying themselves or taking the fun and or cathartic fantasy element away.

As an occultist one of my greatest tools in using this site is the journal. I call it my hoard. Want to know more about me read my journal...if you earn the keys by taking the time to get to know me. I think many just delude themselves in their interactions here so I put obstacles up to separate the real from the fake ones. I encrypt my journal and reserve keys for those that take the time to build relations properly. Apart from that I may post an entry openly to public but if it has a video embedded then I'll encrypt when I post another video. Having too many videos posted on the same page especially toward the end of the month is a waste of energy to me as your computer has to load it all in the cache during every page view. But if it's encrypted then it will only load it at that time it's decrypted. Sometimes I come on mobile and wasting my soft data cap for the month is not economical to me.

So many favor journal or add as friend which is an easy click of a button but then don't spend the time it takes to build a friendship. I don't give a fuck about the score I want real relationships and would rather have none than fakes. So my adds and journal favoring are in a state of flux for those that I interact with constantly. Works not unlike how society and stream bonus works for those who are active. So if you are actively on V.R. interacting with me you'll maintain that status with me as being a friend and favoring your journal if you have one and use often. I don't do tit for tat on anything. Some come and rate you a 10, add you as a friend then favor your journal all to get the like in return to increase their score. I do things only because I choose to not out of obligation to return the favor. I treat the add as a friend as a like button and only means you are merely above tolerable so don't read too much into it. I tend to see a lot in a person with my scrutiny and when interacting will see all the dirty secrets you wish not to be seen as well as many other things you can't even face in yourself. As long as you maintain a measure of humility it won't be a problem. But if you need to save face and hide things then we won't get along. I hate dealing with egos that are so proud it blinds them then they need to hide their faults and is reason they are unbalanced. Everyone has their issues. It's just a matter of are they worthy of being tolerated for the sake of their better characteristics or are they compatible with your personality as some just don't mix well.

I don't block. I think it makes you weak. I suppose it's easy to use to the simple sadistic fucktards on this site to fuck with people but really there are far better occult tools to develop as well the devices to deliver the power if one wants to really torture souls. If someone wants to express themselves I let them. I don't need to censor and control the narrative of what people see myself included. Part of being goth to me is embracing death and elements of decay to be whole. Those who are fooled by such nonsense aren't people I want to know anyhow. They are more useful tools to the vain attention whores that need to fool themselves that they are something they are not by surrounding themselves by such opinions. Besides some are more like pesky little gnats in what they express which are only mildly irritating even when in swarms that such need for courage. I don't need to block a person to snub them.

I have a high and brutal standard when it comes to rating. I really don't think I should subject anyone to that unless they ask for it. Beyond that my opinion of my profile rating is all that really matters and I try to improve on it without taking away from what I find exceptional about it. So, you want a rating from me you have to ask for it. You probably won't like it unless we reach an accord and my opinion becomes valuable to you for your improvement.

My messages are kept private. I don't share them with anyone which is a despicable tactic many use on this site. Taking a screenshot then revealing something private just really shows you are not trustworthy and whatever dirt one wants to expose pales in comparison to me. Trust is one of the most valuable things to earn in life in tandem with the virtue of discretion. If there is truly something problematic with a message then just report it to an admin and if it's really bad then to the appropriate authorities that do govern the web in their jurisdiction.

In my spirituality and identity as a vampire the chief aspect of it to me is being a hunter. The thrill of it as well the prestige. As far as this site goes that means how many I'm responsible for bringing as real referrals. No other bonus really matters to me or is just in support of this. Until I have my own coven and have enough content for it then I won't begin this hunting campaign. Since I don't level other bonuses it makes my levelling quite hard and slow. As I mentioned before my journal is where I spend most of my time to level base score. Since you have taken the time to read through my profile I'll give you an encryption key to many of my journal entries: Video Key = Videodrome. Inspired by the movie.

As I've already mentioned Vampire Rave was my first social network and has remained my only one. I'll remain loyal until I die or am removed but plan to branch out to other social sites to do some hunting when the need arises in the future which seems proper to me. The principle of attrition can be useful to create many profiles on other social networks rather than the habit of some to have many in one place which seems redundant to me. Otherwise, I do what I can to help support V.R. as I like what Cancer created and has a lot of potential to me. It is a service for many to use with interests in the vampire subculture and gothic fiction. There are many different kinds of people that use it their own way. I mainly just want to express what being a vampire means to me as an occultist in my unique mortal life. It is quite evident after spending years off and on this site that what being a vampire means is quite different than others here so I just want to express this in a way suitable to dynamics of the site. In my understanding it is mortality that makes something priceless with a limited life and being one of a kind. If it lasted forever and was shared by others it would lose value relatively. I just have an awakened state of consciousness for now in the waxing and waning cycles of nature. I think everyone is bound by the same eternal spirit but not all are aware of it. That is all one gains when turned is a certainty in that regard. So I've done the calling in the ether now like a hunter that mimicked an animals mating call I need only wait till they arrive so I can embrace them as fate intended.