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Today i woke up with a plan..

I was gonna be the best Sandrine to ever wake up from my bed.

I was gonna be so daang happy the universe was gonna be afraid to fuck around with me.

I would call in sick at work just so that i could have a day to enjoy the new me

Insecurities?? Heartache?? Fragility?? All these bitches were gonna be thrown outside the window



I was gonna fall in love with everything i saw

I was gonna ride life out

A dark princess on the rise

Maan i wass gonna smoke myself to oblivion..

I was gonna make so much love to myself..

Today was gonna be a hell of a day



I was gonna say what i meant

This weight wasn't gonna stop me

My dark twisted soul was gonna be cleansed so clean

I would be reborn

I would make decisions and stick to em

Today I woke up dead..

Ma was crying.. I wanted to cry but nothing came out

Such a wasted life.. Living but never ally being alive

Today i woke up when it was too late

I don't have many plans because it feels as if i have been dreamless for a while now..im hoping to start college in september..ill be studying nursing..that should be fun..hopefully lll be able to take a creative class as well. In december im planning on travelling back to South Africa. I miss my friends alot.. I dont know if imna be able to make friends in this country coz i feel as if i dont give a fuck about life anymore [i was surprised when my counsellor asked me what i did in my spare time and i couldnt scrape up anything]...it would be fun to have friends though. I think the biggest plan i have is to be a better Sandrine...happier.. My co-workers say that i when i smile or when im quite i have the face of someone planning a murder..i guess i should change that too.

I have a friend that i left in africa thats feeling extra fucked...her life has been one fuck up after another..she has a bitch of a kom and a sister who is so evil its funny... She has been contemplating suicide for a while now and im worried that one day she will acty do it.. I dont know if there is hope for her though..she is 20 something is only ever happy when she is high..im tired of telling her that everything will be okay coz dont think that i believe it myself..she asking for my help but at the moment im unable to help..i actually dont know how to tell her that my life aint going dandy either.

Hmm...so its a brand new year..and im all bout that brand new me bullshit..2016 was crap..hopefully 2017 will be amazing..im about to leave home in search of greener pastures..hopefully ma will follow after a couple months.. But im kinda afraid of living alone.. Its always been me n her through it all. But a gal gatta do what she gatta do.. Moving to minnesota is gonna be soo much fun..i wanna travel by bus.. I love bus rides..you get to see more..mom doesnt want me to though.. She thinks that its gonna take forever..29 hours is along time but think bout all the beautiful places ill see..hmm cant wait for the end of this month to arrive.

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Magdalena
01:56 Jan 11 2017

Leaving home can be a nerve-racking and stressful transition, but over time you get used to it and you may even enjoy it.



I'm not familiar with Minnesota, but I hope you get everything you want from it. Good luck and happy 2017!

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GreyStar
10:59 Jan 11 2017

any journey in life starts with the first single step.



may 2017 bring you everything you've ever hoped for.

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markus666
11:32 Jan 11 2017

Don't forget a Thick Coat. It's cold and penetrate your skin as you walk. Welcome!!

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