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I’m looking for a change

Future’s not what it used to be

Full of empty melodies

I’m looking for a change

Of scenery



I lost hope

Sick of life, sick of love

Sick Of everything



Shelling out for feelings

Two of these and I can run from anything

I’m looking for a change

Arrest me



Idolize indulgence

I Swallow inspiration from your vanity

You have got it all

Celebrity



I don’t know

Maybe I’m just bitching out of line

Pay no mind….



Feeling is believing

Desire burns a hole right through the clarity

I’m lying on the floor

Fisting apathy



Sell it to the masses

Little plastic packages our hopes and dreams

You have got it all and I am damaged

Lost,

broken,



Incomplete.



NJG 2004

You start a new day

A sun-ray melts your window

Shake the dreams from your sleepy head.



Catch the whispers (as they)

Fade into the distance

Pick up the pieces of what she said.



In a new way

Your stomach turns inside you

Like the memories of being 4.



Catch the whispers (as they)

Fade into the distance

Pick up the pieces of Chapter 4



And all the pages are torn

All except one

This is a single white leaf

And it's a window to the rest of your life.



You journey onwards

Step into the hallway

There's laughter and voices your head's spinning round.



Catch the whispers (as they)

Fade into the distance

Silence is buried deep under sound.



As you speak to me

I don't know where to look

I'm spoilt for choice



I can't hear what you're saying

Too busy listening

To your voice.



And all the pages are torn

All except one

This is a single white leaf

And it's a window to the rest of your life.



NJG 1995

I cannot give you the love that I used to

I think our lives have changed

I thought I'd paint you a different picture

I know it's not the same.



The colours flood free like a rainfall in autumn

Golden brown and grey

The leaves on the tree's catch your name on the breeze

Someones leaving me today.



The paintings that I gave you are the plans we made to save you

The watercolours ran in the rain

So I thought I'd paint you a different picture

I know it's not the same.



She dreams, I sleep. She's leaving.



You wanted me to hold on for the times we never had

I couldn't find the strength then or the courage that you had

You carried me right through this and I let you drown on the other side.



The paintings that I gave you are the plans we made to save you

The watercolours ran in the rain

So I thought I'd paint you a different picture

I know it's not the same.



She dreams, I sleep. She's leaving.



I cannot give you the love that I used to

I think our lives have changed

I thought I'd paint you a different picture

I know it's not the same.



The colours flood free like a rainfall in autumn

Golden brown and grey

The leaves on the tree's catch your name on the breeze

Someones leaving me today.



The paintings that I gave you are the plans we made to save you

The watercolours ran in the rain

So I thought I'd paint you a different picture

I know it's not the same.



NJG 1995

I've been high, Television..

Guides me through these lonely hours,

Teaches me to fight and lie and lust.



Bright Cathode, dark sermon,

Blind me with your rhetoric,

Like cigarette burns behind my eyes.



Like the dream

You think you know you had the moment you awoke

The images subliminaly scar



And settle in subconcious

Pieces of a jigsaw you will never solve



When the lights go down I hear this sound

... it echoes in my head.



I feel better now you know

We shared a secret

Holding onto esoteric thought, forms circles in my head



I don't want to let you go

There is nothing sacred

It's best to keep your secrets secret if you have a weakness



When the lights go down I hear this sound

When the lights go down I hear this gentle sound

And it echoes in my head.



NJG 2004.

I doused my light

In utero position

Fold me like a flower



Drowned in thoughts

My mind's a flood

I'm locked inside my neon womb



I hear you call

As I freefall

But I can't hear you through the haze



Northern lights

These silver days are melting

Through a silver haze



Clouds disperse

The ancient rain falls dancing

On the broken earth



I hear you call

As I freefall

But I can't hear you through the haze



NJG 1998