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I've probably ranted on about having a baby before. But that is why I haven't been on here in so long. I'm way to depressed to want to do anything. I want to give up. Even more now then I use to. My boyfriend said I had to wait nine years. I had a misscarry...I can't keep waiting...I don't know what to do. This void inside of me is getting bigger and bigger. EVERYONE is having a family and are so happy..and its disgusting me. I don't hang out with anyone with kids because it makes me sick. I can't go to my parents for help because they don't believe it ever happened. I have no one to reach out too...so I have come here for help. I don't know what to do anymore.....