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Sick of hiding my feeling, sick of saying I’m fine that words like vomit seem to pour out of my mouth without a thought , never thought it would get this bad, Can’t seem to get this shit out of my head what did I do to deserve this . What can I do to divert this? I need answers that aren’t in the back of life, I need answers to end this right, Get back to the me I seen not the me I see, I lose control and just don’t know how to get me back, I lost her in a world so cold I lost her in a world alone, I see her in the distance and screams out to me, You left me here to face this cold you left me here all alone

I hate to be in this little funk, Sometimes it makes me want to fuck a ho up, I can’t stand to look at me I can’t stand to see what my past has made me be, I try not to think about It try to let it be but somehow it’s always there screaming at me. I can’t stand to hear its mouth mother fucker just let me be, I’m trying to live my life for me, not a he or she not even a we for me, I need to be free,

crazy days and crazy nights too much to mention it might start a fight I’m sick of fighting tired of stretching until I run thin. I don't know what to say or where to go, I might just turn this circus into a freak show. I hate the drama can't play the little games; I need to turn this around before I go insane. I can’t look in this mirror its saying lies to me. I'm looking at someone I used to be, some kind of monster I thought I could not be, that’s not me my reflection says it’s me