You are not a Premium Member and you are blocking ads. You are using Vampire Rave for free. Vampire Rave relies on ads in order to operate. Please disable your Ad Blocker. This can easily be done for Vampire Rave only.
If you are using Chrome, click the red hand button at the top right of the screen:
Then select: Don't run on pages on this site
If you do it correctly, the red hand will turn to green and you will no longer see this message.
Not really. =P But it wasnt the worst either, so it evens out.
Dell canceled my order for no reason at all so I had to reorder it today and my ship date got set back 4 fucking days. Do they realize I need a laptop? Do they know the colorful tapestry that is my language every time the fucking thing freezes up? SIGH.
Then I got called in to work today. Again. I had three days off, and so far I worked 2 of them. Ill probably get called in tomorrow. I hate work.
I saw this thing on history channel where there is this commune in WA and the people there only work a couple hours a day or something. I want to move there. Work takes up so much of your time to actually do something productive.
Im sorry. I dont find setting up your new cell phone account to be anywhere NEAR productive.
All this talk of suicide. I attempted suicide once. Only once. Of course thinking about it takes longer than the actual act. I took 28 Ativan and my mom found me in the hall way. I dont remember walking into the hallway. Maybe it was a last ditch effort to save myself. Or maybe I was just so out of it I didnt know what I was doing. Either way, I came to that morning in the hospital. I was a minor so I was forced to go to therapy. I fought going for the longest time, but then it actually started to help. I learned coping techniques and have since stopped obsessing about dying.
I didnt see any white light or any of my loved ones. It was just ...black. Its a void of non existence. Nothing. So if you think killing yourself will take you away from your problems, then youre right. If you are under the idea that it will take you someplace else where things are different, you are wrong. Once you die, thats it. Game over. And the saddest thing is, since your dead, you dont even realize you made the mistake. No thought, no feeling, no relief from your bullshit life. Just nothing.
And if that sounds appealing to you, then you dont fully grasp the scope of the word nothing.
Very well said. I to know how suicide feels not from the same point of view, but as the bystander, the love one. My aunt tried to commit suicide, but was found in time to be saved. Of course she was unconscious for a long time. She's happy she survived. Suicide is not a way out of life, there are people who can help, but it does take time. Unfortunately my class mate didn't get that help. So I know how it feels to be on the "outside" looking in.
Ok mother fuckers.
04:57 Jan 03 2012 Times Read: 460
You think this is a fucking game? 'Lets fuck up Adam and see how far off on a bender we can get him!' Well congratulations. It fucking worked. Why did it work? Because you played on all my fucking weaknesses like a pro.
You had me writhing on the fucking floor like maggot, gasping at the air praying for either a breath or death to take me. You made me bleed, Made me scream, and yes....You made me weep.
Youre good. Oh yes. I do applaud your skill level. But its game on from here on out. You fucking got that? You underestimate how far I will go. Im a shitty little twisted fucker and you are on the top of my list. Everyone involved in this has a nice little cozy spot, just for them.
Be ready. And never say I didnt warn your sorry stupid ass.
so here i am again.... or at least it seems that way... this way... that way what to say...
i cant help but just get right to the point here... this is going to be my head talking to its self in a written form..
i SHOULD hope no one reads this because of how i feel while doing this.. BUT~~~
i would be lying to make you believe that, since i guess a part of me will expect this to be viewed by someone... i dont know why that fuking matters...
fuk... its on someone elses computer.... im in someone elses house.... we are all fuking insane to boot... (and of course *now**
***we all drench our minds ** with the most wonderful sort of disease) tee muther fuking hee
s o y o u k n o w what w o u l d b e interesting ? ? ?
what is the idea ?
is there one... here we roam...
and roam and roam... like fuking sheep..(dude)..
i love the beatles... or at least i used to.... people are so
fuking stupid... all of us... me... you... him... her... them... us...
we have like some sort of un-spoken contest raging in our minds against each other....
it became a popularity contest of the most ridiculous fashion... over the most fuked up shit...
fighting to see who has the most money... women... possesions... those are ovbious examples....
but we have to have anything we can... even if its something unpleasnt that the general population would avoid
its always a fukin pissing contest!
(we all want success or out standing sympathy for failure)
massacre for placenta! massacre for placenta!!!!! can you smell it... you fuking loser
COMMENTS
-
JustinV
21:47 Jan 08 2012
Well, you have the look anyway. ^_____^
EasternStar
02:07 Jan 09 2012
stupid? no way. bad ass? fuckin right you do =)
lifesucks
03:53 Jan 27 2012
u are bad ass and really cool