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Can somebody tell me why a man thinks

he has the given right to abuse a woman?



Do we have "I AM AN IDIOT and I LOVE being abused" written all over our fucken faces.



Why do some think it is ok to emotionally abuse but calls those that physically abuse losers?



If they emotionally abuse doe that not make them LOSERS as wel...



And why is it OK for him to do something

but NOT ok for her....Where is this double

standard coming from...is this what our men

of this world have been taught?



Are we to bow to our men just because they say so??? Bullshit....

I refuse to bow to ANY man who abuses a woman in ANY way...emotional or physical...



If he cannot show me love and respect...

He can simply FUCK OFF...

Dream #1...



This had 3 elements to it...which I was seeing ALL at the same time...



A green dodge viper speeding back and forth on a dirt road....Three people walking up on a dike...surrounded by a bunch of trees trying not to be seen while they moved along...And myself walking behind them....when suddenly I was met by a swarm of bees... TONS OF BEES...They were everywhere....



Dream 2...



A friend of mine was sitting on a sidewalk curb, crying...very upset...In complete distress...I know why this one happened...I have talked to the friend this dream was about and she couldnt believe how accurate I was.



Dream 3.....



This one happened just last night....Its winter out there is snow all over the ground...The streets are filled with snow banks...I am standing in front of this snowbank and I look at my watch...which is not on my wrist cause the band is broken...there is a puppy sitting next to me jumping on me whimpering....on the other side of me at a short distance there is a Scorpion and a Lion fighting....Stinging, biting,clawing and pouncing on each other...And after I looked at my watch I started putting things that were important to me into a little tunnel that was made into the snowbank...Liike I was afraid someone was gonna take them away....



Ok those are it for now...But I am sure I will have another odd one to tell y'all about tomorrow...LOL

I dont know how many of you ever have really odd dreams. But lately here I have been having some really crazy one. I dream in what seems like Chapters. I will dream about one thing, wake up for a couple minutes, fall back asleep and then another one starts. And every dream was mostly about an animal.



The first dream I had was of a rat that kept toying with me...smiling and laughing and running off....I have had this dream a number of different times. The thing that sticks out in my mind about this dream was how pissed I was getting at this rat.



I know dreaming about a rat in this sense basically symbolizes a backlashing friend. Ya know, the kind that acts like your friend to your face but the minute you turn around they have the knife already stuck in your back.



The next dream I was sitting next to someone in some wooded area on these hard ass fucken branches watching a tiger pace back and forth. Then suddenly the tiger was caged.



Seeing a tiger in your dream represents power and your ability to exert it in various situations. To see a caged tiger in your dream, suggests that your repressed emotions are on the verge of surfacing.



Next was about monkies. Just playing around and having fun. One in particular came and sat on my lap and I gave him a banana



Seeing a monkey in your dreams symbolizes deceit from others. Feeding a monkey is suppose to symbolize betrayal from a friend who you always thought cared and had your best interests at heart.



Then after the monkies came the drream about a shark. Me riding on the back of a shark. Attacking anything threatening that got in the way.



To see a shark in your dream represents a greedy and unscrupulous person. He/She goes after what what he or she wants with no regards to the feelings of others. The shark may also be an aspect of your own personality.You may be going through a difficult, painful, or unpleasant emotional period. The shark also symbolizes feelings of anger, hostility, and fierceness. You may be an emotional threat to yourself or to others.



Then I was dreaming about a coyote. Wandering alone.



To see a coyote in your dream, denotes weakness and deception



In the next dream everything was GREEN. Beautiful..but all green.







Green signifies a positive change, Green is also symbolic of your strive to gain recognition and establish your independence. Money, wealth and jealousy are often associated with this color.



Now I do know what each one of those things symbolizes but to figure out what all of them combined means. Could be challenging. If I would have just had one simple little dream it would have all made sense. But this is complicated. What the hell is all this supposed to me.



I have a friend who is gonna betray me?



I have bottled up and repressed feelings?



I am weak and pathetic?



I am going to be going through some positive changes?



I get jeolous?



My life sucks and I'm an emotional mess?



Well, hell if I know what the heck all that is spose to mean but it is fun trying to figure it all out.

I have been asked many times why I would choose a gentle name like Butterflygirl on a Vamp site.... so I decided I would tell you all here why... First off think of the butterfly and what is all has to go through to become a butterfly...



The caterpillar, the cocoon...etc...

Then it turns into this beautiful creature...

which does not live long...I believe if I am not mistaken it only lives likes three weeks

and if you look really close at a butterfly...look into it eyes..i.t is quite frightful....but still beautiful...I am like the butterfly....I have gone through many changes in my life and that is why I chose Butterflygirl as my screenname here....



Hope that explains thngs just a little...:)

In this dream I am riding a horse down a trail and my younger sister...who is normally the horse gal, is walking beside me...This trail is very windy and steep at times....we finally get to the bottom and at the bottom of this trail is a very mean viscious bull...blocking the way to the cows that are in the pasture behind him...

At this point the horse I am rears up and kicks the bull in the head causing him to stumble...

The bull then moves away from the cows and allows the horse to enter the gate....



We go inside the pasture and right at that time

hundreds of cows come up to us...The horse and I and bow their heads....

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My dreams for the most part are very short...

But most always involve animals....

SO I am sitting there on this log with a friend

and here comes this Lion...He looks at us...and walks by silently....Then turns around and comes back towards us....This time letting out a

loud roar...walks right up to me and snuggles his

head against mine...and licks my cheek...



He walks away....looking back with a confident nod...then as he leaves I look ahead into the trees and see a Tiger ....He prances back and forth looking all around as if to be keeping

guard over the trees... He sees me looking at him...bows his head and continues to pace back and forth....



I wake up.....

I have many dreams every night so I

thought I would share them with you all...



I will start off by telling you about a dream I had last night....In my dream I was trying to get away from this animal creature...he had the body of a moose and the face and horns like a bull...This THING would follow me wherever I went, If I looked out my window or whatever

he was right there....I dont know if this was like a stalking or some sort of Guardian being....



Got to the point where I crawled under a truck

to hide from this thing and what I saw in my dream really creeped me out...I seen this thing...

Pee from his backend and shit from a hole in his neck....*SHOCK* Why in the HELL I would dream something like that is beyond me....



If anyone can tell me what that may signify please let me know...cause I can usually deciphar my own dreams pretty well but this one I am at a total loss....