After donating Around 95, 880 ML bottles of bloods plasma, the following year on continuing the same regimen of frequency. Was asked to
Submit blood tube samples. Submitted several blood tube samples. As they wanted it for it was an immediate requirement for them. So I did it. Let them draw the blood from my arm into a tube to send it for testing. Weeks later upon coming for a routine donation. Was told they needed to talk to me. In private as went into a room, they staff presented me with the results of my blood test, Anti HIV 1/2. Disqualified for donating for life. Along with brief counseling session. At that point was astonished. Shock.
Immediately after meeting exited the building. Went home bought some sleeping pills on the way home took whole boxes of sleeping pills and just passed out.
When I walk up from the just few hour slumber. Back to pondering. There wasn’t anybody I could have told this too, I didn’t have any girlfriend or anybody wasn’t sexually active. Although did had 1night fling 1 year before 2019, results in 2020 and before that was my last relationship which was 2017 which really only lasted for roughly 4-5 months and ended in August 2017.
Result of HIV was may 2020.
But altogether i slept with a lot of woman unprotected upwards of about 33. As I couldn’t get none to stay with me to stay in a relationship to have a relationship with. They was all flinging around in stuff. But anyways.
Got rapid HIV test the next day after receiving positive test from the plasma center, Finger prick rapid test said negative I felt relived but deep down I knew, I knew truly I was giving this place big pack long tubes of my blood for blood testing.
Anti HIV doesn’t mean what you may think it means Anti like anti resistance anti resistant no it doesn’t mean that, it means Antibiotics was detected for HIV as in the body is fighting the infection, meaning the body is dealing with the infection. Antibiotics doesn’t always means a good thing. Because I know you like know of like take an antibiotics pill and it cure your infection of sexually transmitted diseases like a penicillin. A penicillin is example of an antibiotic. But HIV is a super antibiotic so super that it kills and wipes out the immune system as it turn rouge on the system, a super antibiotic. Super bug.
But anyways.
I now years passed 2020. 2025 to be exact. Haven’t had sex since that 1 surprise fling in 2019 and before that was the 2017s. So 2 times in 9 years. But that ain’t the reason for this. I don’t care about that. That could be another story, but, Even though o got negative rapid test I feel like the initial 1 that was getting the blood tube samples where I donated hundred of plasma bottles at was right.
That’s right. I was donating blood plasma for money. Took sometimes hours to donate, pay range was about 20$ to sometimes high as 65$ a bottle more times in the month donated extra money would be as extra for consecutive streaks, 2 times a week. But I been since then living my life solo. Alone. As before I used to kinda be dumb and stupid and just not being able to get my head on straight and really I guess wake up to like the real reality. Been taken advantage of, been clowned been shamed and humiliated. My life story briefly I should could mention this real quick, might as well.
I not really loved the vampire lifestyle at all. As I just said I found vampire rave in 2025. Before that vampires and zombie movies is what I knew about vampires. Zombie. But anyway. Uh. Trying to live on humanized world, human society. Fail and fail. And like trouble all the way from the start had trouble my whole life. Not me necessarily getting in trouble I always tried to be a good boy. Good boy as in just ethical going and doing about me my way but that wasn’t good enough in the human society nothing I did was good enough for them. Nothing. They was always faster bigger stronger smarter and I just didn’t get it. 6th grade dropout. Dropped out of school in 6th grade at the age of 15-16. Got tattoo at age 16. Didn’t go to school after age 15. Finally got my GED education in 2025. At age 31.
Couldn’t never stay at a job. The inner anger in me would let me just chill. The inner anger! Burning rage.
But uh. Off that. Let’s see, anyways. Back to the story. The topic. HIV.
So uh. In 2018-2019 got these marks on my face after shaving, shaved my beard the bumps all on my face my neck my beard line. Dark bumps that left now leaves a permanent scar permanent mark. Tried just about everything to remove the mark even soaking it in household bleach. Still remains. I don’t usually write long sentences and paragraphs. So this may be like the first in decades.
To this day I just doesn’t feel normal. I don’t feel like I can compete with the humans and just about anything as I’m surrounded by them every day. I go about every day. I still somewhat live the human life as I just don’t got no job barely got a home. Barely got money. Barely got anything. I’ve been on this same struggle my whole life but it seems like it’s been somewhat getting better as I stayed alive or I’m living. Seems I processing stuff finally as I took steps to get smarter. I bought brain pills to try to help me and it work. But it still doesn’t helps me live the humanized life.
Vampirism isnt all about drinking blood.
Vampirism is a lifestyle its way of life and this is something I never understood because the mask that the world put on it.
They made it a, Fairly tale of terror horror and unethical haunt. I just have to say that, that was wrong. Vampirism is not a scary movie. Not a horror movie. Not sci-fi. Not make believe. Not exaggerating.
“ Vampirism” is a lifestyle it’s humanity original religion. The concept of the universe the very code the whole universe operates by.
This is a matter of really everyone is a vampire. Every supposedly human is a vampire. So more so than others. In this been a runaway goldmine that only certain masses know. Life is all about operating on sync with the code. And this code is. Witchcraft and karma combined.
But on with that later.
This secret has been idol and used by the whole world. As the code is not any 1 religion. Some religions use it as it’s 1 for beneficial gain. Some to extent control.
And what did that do. Is makes vampirism hidden made vampirism shameful made vampirism ghouls and goblins. When the whole world is vampirism. For instance a human eats animals. Animals bleed too. Animals is their source of food, ingredient in majority everything human food. Really don’t even know what eating, they could just smack a label on meat and it be whatever the label say it is. So that’s why I say, Like really Being a Vampire really is just a matter of being Revamp. Revamping your mind. A revamping of self.
For most this is a case of founding Vampirism too late. About time discovering this…. The year is 2025 and counting…. When this thing been going on for millennials, Hundreds and hundreds of years.
But for me the bad is, Haven’t been properly introduced to Vampirism.
When I was young I seen the movies, I seen the horror films. Halloween. As always was shaken by it. But little did I know it’s not just a spook or make believe story. It’s a lifestyle.
And it’s not all about drinking blood or undead zombies needing to feed on the living. Magic is a phenomenon. It’s phenomenal. Therefore everything truly matters. As of every word every action.
I want to say this is the worlds original religion before it got script away and used to be a super power only to the elites.
Vampirism is a lifestyle and not just about the blood crave. And I feel like i want too revive this once and for all. Because like you don’t get told nothing but…. Ghost and ghouls.
Cards on the table, Skeletons out of the closet, Words off out of chest.
A human to me is just persons that’s incapable of awakening their minds in an way that they can’t accept the original gods of humanity therefore humans live a life abiding by ignorance of, Witchcraft, Magic, and the Code.
Wanted to start off with. The title headline nothing has been easy for me,”Is this another disaster?”
This has been a long journey to get here. To get to this point. To get to this website.
Particularly for me. I’ve been the type of person that been used and is used to not making stuff about me not getting personal not getting emotional. Society made me that way. Where I had to put others before myself at the same time put myself above it all. With these. ‘Nothing hasn’t been easy’
I like to continue this story mentioning myself as much as possible. For that had found VampireRave.com, 4-1-2025. Born in the 1993. Coming from a minority poor family. Broken home. Typically moved around a lot. Youngest of 6 other from a mom womb making me 7th. Had no success at schools. No success at jobs. No success in relationships. Had upwards of sex with up to 30 females as none of them stayed around. They all vanished alike they all was ghost but they was real people. With these girlfriends majority 1 night stands, didn’t ever say particularly, “This a 1 night stand” it just happened like that.
As of alike 2021 I finally got away from the cusps of my… family, relatives and siblings. That’s been a haunt for me, personally. To have them around and over me and wasn’t producing in a manner that I felt was good as I looking back on that. I thought they was doing good back when and then. Just so numb and dumb down by whatever it was. Whatever it was as still haven’t figured it out. Was it secretly this the whole time?
VampireRave? Or just like Vampire in general. Of me getting vampired without me even knowing i was being vampired by others.
Speaking of vampires literally this been a haunt from the mass media propaganda too the disinformation everywhere online, tv shows, movies. You name it. Propaganda is everywhere. Nothing really explains this culture is all, Blood sucking monsters who prey on ‘Humans’ and that’s how it’s labeled pretty much from the perspective of a non vampire. So… maybe I should have started off by saying I wasn’t born into vampire. I didn’t automatically understand nor automatically thought or declared I was a vampire. I came into this, As this is where life naturally lead me. Energy wise. Blood wise. I say since mentioning. ‘Vampire’ from information I encountered it’s fascinating. I can agree on most of it all that’s vampire exempt. I can’t manage to exempt this secretive thing. This hidden life. This hidden culture. A lost and hidden culture. Mostly a blasphemies culture. So to be honest there isn’t really any good information out there besides. “Drink blood” and “Drain energy”
No I’m not an informant looking to gain data in run. Just a person from the ‘HumanWorld’ that didn’t have anything particularly good.
Was cut from school at the age of 15-16, 6th grade drop out. Dad and mom would fight all the time. Arguments. The mom had 3 children before making 4 children with biological dad. Siblings and relatives notable haven’t had a rewarding life from my perspective. Ghetto living. Poor black type. But uh. No blames. No blaming!.
Because for me, I just wasn’t good enough to do this young. As when I was young I did suffer a horrific accident that left be back burned and hospitalized for weeks medical induced coma, surgery’s as a child. Took decades to really recover from that on my opinion, suffer that injury age 8 or age 9. Mom and dad broke up in 2006 for final, he died in 2008. And since never really been close to anybody in my family even though I tried. Tried for decade and years to be I guess, human. Only to get little to nothing.
“Nothing”
Work at multiple jobs. Finally got High school equivalent certification in 2025.
Work for little to nothing at a carwash for decade in documented before getting a real job in 2018-2019. Past few years worked for more than 10 employers. Had to quit when times got rough. When people are proving me to strike them or just totally been disrespectful that can’t stand to tolerate. Can’t tolerate to stand by or stand with or stand around, those people.
And
Been forced to get so many covid vaccines it’s crazy. I’m really still unemployed. Total financially I made less than 40,000$ through my entire life and I really started working when I was little as 14 years old. Live in United states. Florida.
In 2021. Occupy deceased grandmother old broken house. In that’s where I’m at today.
No lights and water connection. Alone. Buoy this sure lead up. Lead up almost like it was supposed to be. Though. I… maybe wouldn’t find this if it wasn’t for this. But I’m not one of them type people to say that, because that happened that happened.
Destiny is destiny no matter what happens. In that’s the type person I am.
“ Destiny is destiny no matter what happens “
I can’t say I really did anything vampiric before this. But the best thing I did in my life was detached from Christianity. As I detached from Christianity in 2018. And ever since my life have been changing slowly but surely.
I didn’t can’t this far to play the victim role.
I come and seeking something special. Something that I can take back into society whether this esoteric or not. Because like I said. There isn’t anything genuine about vampires besides spooks and monsters of the clinical movies film propaganda. When it comes too this it’s a taboo and is not properly understood in modern society’s life. Yet you know it’s all these claims.
So what I want is a real. Like a proper analogy to be made of this of it all. And not just a shadowy path that people can commemorate hidden forever.
On the outside we got people that show it. They show that they something else by clothing or a darkish persona. But that’s not good enough.
‘Back to me’ pornography has been my lifeline for decades just the energy of that I’m able to get. And it makes me want the sex. Thinking ya know ‘Sex’ well maybe get sex. Get to do it, get to have it. But now I’m like that’s not good enough neither.
My last relationship was 2017 lasted only months. Single since 2017. No children.
Bare with it maybe a tough reading. I chose to keep it natural in didn’t let A.i rewrite it.
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