Well folks, i thought i woiuld let you all know.....my parents are thinkin about sending me away for awhile, aoarently im not worth keeping around. Yes we had a long talk this evening and iv come to learn and i quote " you are pathetic your not worth shit, why couldnt u turn out like we wanted, your stupid and im sorry to say your my daughter" well that was Frank ( father ) if you can call him that my mother on the other hand see she just kinda stood there didnt say to much all i know is she said " hunny we love you ( ya i can see that ) we think you would be better off some whare else away from here." i just kinda stood there i mean how are you supost to react to someting like that.........anyway there's some fun little facts for ya. Evening
today was very very odd, i went to take my younger brother out to get him an easter gift. And as we were walking around this store he likes this lady kept looking at me and i just kind brushed her off, but i noticed she was following us everywhare we went in the store. i was like ok lady what is it you could possible want cuz whatever it is im sure we dont have it so move on. She just said you need to be saved. i was like omg and just kept walking with my brother. Then he had to go to the bathroom so i took him and when i went into the ladys room ( no my brother went into the boys ) she followed a min after and when i was washing my hands she said " you need to be saved this way of life is only the devil you dont need this you way is wrong and frownd apon." i was like what the hell is your problem you dont know me and honestly your not someone i want to know concidering you juge me before you even know me, she was all " take this bible and pray becuase you are one of the damned you need to be saved. all i said was you know what if being saved means being cinical and rude then you can take your bible and shove it, cuz i want no part of it, i bet you anything im more accepting and open minded then you will ever be. i just thru the bible down and walked out.
I dont know it anoyed me, why are people like that i cant stand it.
I was siting here wondering if there are any beings on this site who dwell in califorina...........i hope so cuz im going insane here, i cant wait to move i miss London with so much of my being its not noarmal but then again i guess im not noarmal. Over all im just wondeirng if anyone lives in califorina, if so please do not hesitate to email me id love to meet up with people from this site, i warn you i hate most people but i believe that to be becuse the ones iv met are utterly fake and the people on here i believe to be real. The people whare i live are uptight peaces of shit that look down on me simply becuase of the way i dress and at times act. The yonger people thtat live here arnt any better there all about the certin look and certin clicks personaly i could give a shit less abotu clicks there a waste of time. but anyway, im done ill shut up now,
Today a very close person to me tried to commite suicide and dont give me that shit o there is no trying he didnt realy wana die. The only reason he isnt dead now is because i came by to pick up my amp. i saw him laying there ill never forget that look on hes face as he was just laying there dieing and the feeling of tottle helplessness i felt. God it makes me so fucking mad. I want to kick hes ass and on the other hand i just want to hug him. I dont know if he is gona be ok or not. but I know ill be by hes side, i dont know why i posted this but i had to get it out someway.
Im beyong the point of tired of feeling alone utterly and completly alone, i long for just one person to coinside within my world, to share my demons to understand my life.....i dont see that happening in this shit hole im forced to dwell in.
Iv never felt more alone then i do right now, Frank my father if you can call him that just tottle distroyed me i dont wana bitch and complain so ill shut up
Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Very Low |
Level 2 (Lustful) | High |
Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Low |
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Extreme |
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Very High |
Level 7 (Violent) | Extreme |
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Very High |
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | High |
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pain killers
thsi is the most depressing and morbbid of all...these pills are used to comit suicide or dull the pain of normal life....noone knows what happens when you take them really but when you take alot to kill yourself....it hurts....it causes your muscle to spasm and lock up....then your body shuts down exept your brain leaving you parilyzed for five minutes....before you die...you have to go through excrutiating pain...and fear....sounds like fun eh??
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The black rose
yours is the black rose you care for no one and if you do its vary few so have been hurt and broken and have no god because no one can judge you but your self stay the way you are beczuse it the only way that you will find happiness
Sometimes i wonder if im the only one like me, well here anyway. Im sick of all this "o lets pay
90$ for one shirt o and i cant whare it if its not from Tillys" crap i wana find real people. semi or completly as fucked as i am. In theory it shouldnt be that hard but truth is most people are fake and you dont realy ever know them, is what im asking for even possible anymore.......
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