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Well today I had the kind of fail moment I watch on the internett and laugh my ass of to.

I had to stop by school today, and I got these brand new supercute shoes, so I dress up with a skirt, knee-long stockings, a cool shirt and all, and then my new shoes.

So I walk into school feeling like Im the sexiest chick in the world, I start walking towards the library and there the floor switches from tiles to wood, I keep on walking and just as I realized my shoes had virtually no grip on the floor my heel twists underneath me I scream "OH SHIT!" and fall flat on my face... Not quite sure how to respond I start laughing and just walk off, more carefully to the library.. and hid there for an hour *blushes*

ColaDvergen: Sexy FAIL lmao

Im going through a strange period of my life where everything just seems to go alright for me, and at some point I know that to a degree this flow of awesome will end, so I wanted to write it down so I can remember how great life can be sometimes! Its awesome how in certain aspects of my life, everything I try to do turns out in my favour, seems like this year is going to be even better than the last year, wich is completely mind-blowing since last year was pretty damn great! :D



So here's the top awesome things that make me feel all giddy with joy these days: My artwork is getting noticed and Ive started to sell alot of it. This gives me a sense of purpose and of course massive ammounts of pride. I take alot of pride in my work because I put so much of myself into everything I do.

Another thing is my growing friendship with Jan-Arne, he is a twisted, and in so many ways, a broken man, the result of a extreemely hard life made worse by bullying in school. He's a schitso (not sure how to write this) So some days he's very hard to deal with, but I find him fun and new and he inspires me as a person and makes me see things in completely new ways, and I completely love him for it, Im hoping this is the start of a long friendship for us, even though he gives my parents the willies since they've only met him when he's having an episode. They trust me to know what Im doing and my judgement of dangerous people, and he's about as dangerous as a puppy lol.

The third thing is my impending final exams and the knowledge that soon I will have completed something important, this also gives me pride, and nerves since the exams are hard as hell lol



For the first time in my life Ive been truly happy for a long time and everything seems so bright and doable. Its like I can do anything I want with my life, and thats ok, its all about the journey and the people I meet and the friendships shortlived or lifelong. Life is so amazing, how I ever managed to have such troubles with anxieties and depression up till only a year ago seems completely unbelievable now. Its like it happened to a different person, and thankfully that person is no longer with me..



I want to credit this to all my friends who never stopped believing in me and still put up with my crazy norwegian ass. All of you make me happy on a daily basis :-) So thanks!

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Angelus
12:31 Mar 27 2012

chuff all wrong with your Norwegian ass, you talented wombat.

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Ive just seen the nightlife crawlers of my town. My head is blown away! Im sticking to my newfound friend like glue from now on! He may be semi insane and have alot of issues, but he's too awesome not to hang around.

Even made a brittish friend last night, he was awesome too lol

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ColaDvergen
22:49 Mar 25 2012

Correction: The brittish guy SEEMED nice.. not so much anymore, poor guy *sighs*

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Well Ive been dating again, I never learn! Met him at the local bar, he was sober and I was celebrating and we hit it off. After three dates I was on cloud nine, he seemed to be sooo nice, and funny and together.. Then came date number 4, we desided to watch movies at his place and he wanted to show off and make me dinner, I was hoping for kisses and sitting close.. I get there and his whole apartment smells like piss, litterally, urin.. I think, OK its cuz of his cats, they are indoor cats so maybe he just isn't so good at emtying their litterbox. Then I got to meet the cats, he introduced them like they were his children and kept talking about them through the entire night, We watched 4 movies so it was a long night, this seemed odd to me "look she's jealous" "oooh I think she likes youuu".. Then he started telling me that his sister has "approved of me" and his roomate; yes there was a roomate, he comes in and says things like "oh this is SO unusual, having guests, and a GIRL nontheless!".. then came the crying, wich is impressive considering we were watching comedies all night long. And Im an optimistic person so I kissed him... *sighs* saying it was bad just doesn't seem to cover it lol..and then the heavy sigh from him and then saying "This was the best saturday night EVER!"



so back to the drawing board for me. Just gotta figure out if Im going for the brutaly honest approach or letting him down nicely, trying to figure out what I wanna say to make sure he takes the hint.. well it was fun while it lasted, but I always get either the extreemely needy strangeling types or the assholes.. lol. Atleast I like my own company :-)

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bloodredatrophy15
14:53 Mar 19 2012

o.o oh wow...

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ladySnowStrixx
15:26 Mar 19 2012

Why not try somewhere in the middle, honest but polite about it.

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