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I stand by the ocean,

Hearing the words through my head,

As I watched the waves,

Crash against the cliffs.



"You're grandfather passed away this morning,"

That's all I hear in my head,

Knowing the pain of losing someone,

But he is someone I held dear,

Just like I held dear to his son,

My father since I was born.



I can't even breath without feeling pain,

Because it hurts to damn much,

And my heart feels so empty,

That I don't think I could love again,

Because if they are going to die on me,

Then I don't want to feel nothing.



But that is wrong,

Cause I am closing everyone out,

And I don't want to do that,

Cause I have a daughter and my family,

I just have to make the best of it,

And try to move on with my life.



Try my best to have time to heal,

But it isn't easy,

Because I have lost to many people,

My father, my great grandfather, my friend,

And now my grandfather that I have knew,

For too damn long.



I knew he was sick,

But I thought he was going to get through this,

But I guess not,

Because he became more sick,

I can't blame my grandmother,

But I can't forgive her either.



She made his life a living hell,

Always complaining to him,

And now, I don't think I'll speak to her again,

She's an alcohol,

Just like he was.



Of course, she didn't help him,

She let him drink no matter what,

The doctors had warned him,

And you'd think she'd try to help him,

But she watched him drink himself,

Until he got sick to the point that he hit death.



I hate her with a passion,

Because he was my grandfather,

And I cared for him dearly,

Now, I don't know what to do.

God, someone help me get through this.

Of course, my daughter will.

Someone dying isn't fun.



God, if you can hear me,

I want you to watch over him,

Let him be at your side,

And let him watch us.

He is all I care about,

Beside my daughter.



I wish I could have seen him one more time,

Please, help me through this,

Amen.