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Well last night was both fun and boring, went to check out the bars with Jasmine, that was such a waste of time, and I wasnt exactly feeling the drinking. Then we hung out in my hotel room for a bit, they went home then Mike came over :) Had such a good night, he is such a sweetheart

Well second day in town :D Finally flew out of camp yesterday, then spent the night drinking with friends :) Good times, so hungover right now though so thats not so great... But moving on. Me and Mike are ok, hes so cute I think I just fell for him all over again :) That little dink. I am like hardcore craving chinese food right now so I think im gonna go out and have some of that.



Payday today :D Bought a new dress, I might take a picture and post it :) Maybe...



Now about last night. Wow thats all I can say, lol its kinda blurry but I remember it. Was drinking with mohawk mike and James in James' jacuzzi suite lol fun times, went down to the karaoke bar and we listened to James sing a backstreetboy song "show me the meaning of being lonely" lol epic. Man he kept buying me and Jasmine shots. Then back in his room him and Mike were like talking about us four getting it on, so not happening, me and Jasmine were kinda weirded out lol because James has a wife and 2 kids like wtf right? I made Jasmine jealous with mike though that was fun lol.



Jasmine is my wife btw lol, she is everything to me, I would kill for that woman :) we are not lovers or anything like that. She has a bf right now but she is and always be my wife

Well so much for writing on here everyday... lol I do what I can. Work is hectic though so I blame work lol. Im so exhausted, cannot wait to get outta here (camp) Thursday I fly out, then Sunday I fly home :) Got lots of plans with many different people :) Im excited lol wonder whats gonna happen.



But moving on, I admitted to Mike that I like him and he basically told me he didnt want to jump into a relationship, he said he has had bad experiences with relationships. :( So I dont know what im going to do with him... should I wait? or should I just move on? I'm so confused.



I am in desperate need of a massage and a foot rub ;) That would be heaven right now. But time for me to work out, shower then bed :)

Goodnight

Forgive me love where you are

For me being such a coward

I should have told you long ago

Back in the beginning at that start



Swear to you for all my life

To be always by your side

To late I was to bring you bliss

Forever alone it's you I'll miss



Beyond my grasp and out of sight

The paradise in heaven where you be

Please hear my thoughts as I pray

Marry me my love, it's not too late

Ive been meaning to write in this journal everyday but I am so bad for remembering things like this LOL Apparently keeping a journal is a good way to lessen your stress level and I have to admit that is something I need to do.



So many thoughts to share I dont know where to start. So I will share what I am thinking about right now... Which is cuddling :) LOL yes I am thinking about cuddling. I love cuddling, I could do it for hours and be happy and content. Weird thing is that I love being cuddled to sleep but once I am asleep if you cuddle me ill wake up lol so just dont ever cuddle me once I am asleep LOL I miss cuddling Mike.



Who is Mike you might ask? Well he is currently the guy I am interested in, no hes the guy I really like lol how highschool does that sound. But whatever can't help it. Me and Mike met at work. I work in a camp so we also live where we work. So it took about 2 months but eventually we started sleeping in the same bed, and cuddling :) I never thought he would be someone I would fall for.



Well goodnight

Well I am glad today is over and tomorrow starts in less than 10m.

Woke up only to find my own body torturing myself. Spent most of the day sleeping on and off, then my boss comes and wakes me up saying I need to work in 10m FML Worst 4 hours of my life I swear.



I am so tired of listening to people talk about themselves, and then when you start telling them about something else they switch it right back so they can talk about themselves even more. I mean I like hearing about your experiences and those funny moments but it gets old after hearing only about you for a good hour. But I just smile and nod.



One more week of work then off for 2 weeks. Cannot wait