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Haunting sounds are filling

my head

Filling my soul with fear

and dread



What is out there waiting

for me

The monsters that hide or

the powers that be



Should I seek it out or

should I hide

Do I fight these fears or

take it in stride



Do I run away or stand

my ground

Is there something to be gained

or something to be found



Are they manifestations of

my mind

Do I fear of what I might

find



Searching for answers and

never finding the truth

Where can I find them is the

point completely mute



Am I fearful of myself and what

lies in my heart

The demons that reside within

threatening to tear me apart



Do I surrender to them or

set them free

Giving in and letting the evil

within take over me



Repressed emotions rising like a

blazing fire

The woman that once was emerges

from the ash as DeadlyDesire



DeadlyDesire

Raped, beaten, battered

and abused



This has been her life

she is so confused



Wanting love was her

only sin



Always ending up with

all the wrong men



Only wanting a

gentle touch



Was it really asking

for too much?



Dreaming of a day when

she will find true love



Looking towards the heavens

and the stars above



Realizing the truth

and that it is all a lie



She makes the decision

that she must die



She has lived with pain

through all these years



Her eyes are swollen

from all the tears



Wanting to end this

horrible life



She reaches down

and grabs the knife



Feeling the cold steel

upon her skin



Loving the sensation

as it digs in



Watching the blood

as it starts to flow



Ending all the pain that

she has come to know



A smile comes to her

as she fades away



Knowing the pain has

ended today



TaintedXTeddy

True friendship

is hard to find



They are the ties that

will forever bind



They are a treasure

to behold in life



To share in the joys,

struggles and strife



Friends have the shoulders

that we cry upon



Sometimes staying up with us

til the crack of dawn



They are the reason that we

have that smile



Because we know that they

will go that extra mile



Whether we are close or

miles apart



True friendship never dies

it lives forever in our heart



TaintedXTeddy

Life can be such

a wild ride



Flowing and ebbing

just like a tide



Not knowing what

each day will bring



It truly can be a

wondrous thing



Watching the mysteries

slowly unfold



Curious to see what

the future may hold



Open your arms and

embrace your life



Forget the worries,

struggles and strife



Cause life is too short

so make it count



Your happiness is what

is paramount



TaintedXTeddy

Call me a bitch or

call me a whore



You know what?

I don't care anymore



Do what you want

You can't bring me down



You created a smile

instead of a frown



You thought you got my heart

but it was only my head



Because you can not break

what is already dead



You thought it got me

but instead it got you



Because you had no idea

not one single clue



You thought you got someone

who had a heart



Go on with your life

and make a new start



You made your bed

so in it you lie



You ask who cares

well it isn't I



TaintedXTeddy

Sitting here waiting

hiding in the dark



Plotting my moves and

where I will leave my mark



Deception and lies have

made me what I am



Why do I go through this

why give a damn?



My heart gone frigid

like a block of ice



No more kindness

or playing nice



Hiding in the dark

is where I will be



So be forwarned

and beware of me



TaintedXTeddy

Love is too often

spoken and not felt



It is a word used to

make a heart melt



Often times it is

said and not meant



And all it does is

leave a heart bent



Why do we have to go through

pain such as this



Is it Cupid's little game

of hit and miss?



Or is it lies that you feel

you must speak



Only to get the target

you seek?



Once you have gotten

what you desire



You rip out their heart and

extinguish the fire



So remember these words

and know they ring true



What you give out will all

come back to you



TaintedXTeddy

You said that you loved me

but it was all a lie



You felt you had to deceive me, all

I ask is why?



What did I do to you to deserve

this fate?



Did I do something to you to cause

you to hate?



Hatred it must be for you to have

treated me this way



You kept me hidden and kept

me at bay



You kept from me the truth

of what laid in your heart



What were your motives for

tearing me apart?



I guess I will never know

the reason you lie



All that is left is the question

of why?



TaintedXTeddy