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19 entries this month
Drowning in Darkness
06:01 May 27 2009
Times Read: 693
The tears flow in sorrow and pain
Threatening to take over my soul
The hurt coming down in a heavy rain
The emotions are beginning to takes it’s toll
Wanting all the pain to end
Hoping to see better days ahead
But nothing appears to be around the bend
Everything appearing as though it is dead
Wanting to have the darkness take me down
Forever lost in the depths of ebony water
Feeling my lungs give out as I drown
Death calling me his beloved daughter
Knowing there is a place in which I am wanted
Though it may be just a river of darkness
No longer will my soul feel haunted
Drowning in the depths feeling Death’s caress
DeadlyXDesire
Depression
05:58 May 27 2009
Times Read: 694
Sitting in a smoke filled room
Feeling so completely alone
Fighting off feelings of doom
Chilling right to the bone
The misery is overwhelming
Threatening to take hold
Numbness overtakes feeling
Leaving the soul stone cold
Nothing left to live for
Happiness a thing of the past
Hope has swept out the door
Leaving a sky that is overcast
Darkness seems a way of life
The flame has burned out
Loneliness that cuts like a knife
Silence is all about
Not caring for a thing at all
Severing ties that bind
Erecting a stone wall
Forever to hide behind
DeadlyXDesire
Dark Demons
05:57 May 27 2009
Times Read: 695
The only things I can feel now
Is such a deep hurt inside
The demons that are within
From which I cannot hide
Wishing for them to release me
Free me from the hell
But they keep me chained
With their dark and evil spell
They like to play games and let
Me think that sometimes I am free
But they are only playing tricks
For their twisted enjoyment and glee
Some say that hell is on this earth
And to this I can attest
A life so full of tragedy and sorrow
Such things one does detest
Others claim that life is what you make of it
To live each day like it was your last
But for those of us it is hard to do
With such a haunted past
No sunlight streaming through into the
Windows of our souls
Nothing there but a hollow heart that
Is full of worm infested holes
DeadlyXDesire
Numbness
05:53 May 27 2009
Times Read: 696
From the day I was conceived I was nothing
Nothing but an unwanted mistake
I guess this is my destiny in life
A lonely road in life is my fate
Feeling nothing anymore my heart
Has turned to stone and wood
There is nothing in my life that
Has ever turned out good
Parents who do not want me as I
Am a burden and a shame
Children who do not claim me
For as a mother I have been so lame
Drying up, falling apart and slowly dying
Like a rose that is withering away
Living life as it comes but not feeling
A thing with each passing day
Not able to see the beauty that
Each day can bring
For having to live this live burns
More than a mere sting
Just going through the motions
And what I must do
But feeling nothing inside but
A hovering dark hue
I have come to accept what my
Life has in store
Knowing there is no joy in my life
No opportunities knocking on my door
Drawing within myself and the
Darkness of my soul
Feeling that within me is
A growing empty hole
Being cut off from everything
I once loved to do and share
Has left me so cold inside
And not having any care
So I accept the numbness
That has crept into my heart
A heart that has crumbled
And completely fallen apart
DeadlyXDesire
Locked Away
05:50 May 27 2009
Times Read: 697
I know that you love me as no one has before
But at times I feel as though I am locked behind a door
Locked away from a world in which there is love and light
Rotting away in the darkness and being hidden from sight
Wishing for a day that I could once again see the sun shine
Savoring the good in life much like a fine expensive wine
So afraid that living here will be the end of who I am
Feeling much like the sacred sacrificial lamb
I am losing all hope of ever being set free
My heart is dying ever so slowly
Where is my white knight upon his strong steed
To plant within my heart a beautiful seed
A seed that which can cause this heart to heal
A heart that will only be his to steal
I know that this can only be a dream
Trickling away like the waters of a stream
Things such as this don’t happen in real life
Only the sharp blade of a double edged knife
A knife that is meant to instill a deep pain
Severing nerves and pulsing vein
Fairytales only exist on the pages of a book
A love to be seen with only a faraway look
Words that are written as deceitful lies
The reader left with false hope in their eyes
All hope for me is gone and is forever lost
A price that was paid with such a heavy cost
I used to believe in the Once Upon A Time
Lost in the melodies and lyrical rhyme
Trying to hide from the pain that was within
The darkness in my soul slowly crept in
The stories lost their beauty and their colors of gold
When reality awoke me with fingers so cold
I know with the words of love that you speak
Trying to give strength to someone so weak
In hopes that your love can unlock the door
And to open up my closed heart once more
DeadlyXDesire
Ghost of the Past
05:48 May 27 2009
Times Read: 698
It came as a shock to hear your voice
After all the time that has gone by
Leaving me confused with what you said
And for the reasons why
What is going on that you decided to call me
I know it was not just to apologize
Or to let me know that we both were wrong
And something we now recognize
You are a ghost of the past now you
Appear to me out of nowhere
I hope that I get an explanation
And know I have no reason to fear
The small talk was all just a cover up
As I could hear the strain in your voice
There is more to the story than you have told
But to tell me will have to be your choice
I told you that I was always here for you
I have said that all along
That no matter what happens in our lives
Our friendship would always hold strong
In time the puzzlement will subside
And the answers will become clear
Even though you are a ghost of the past
In my heart I will always hold you near
DeadlyXDesire
Country Travel
05:44 May 27 2009
Times Read: 699
Driving down the road and seeing the fields pass by
Leaving me to inhale deeply and release with a sigh
Watching the landscape change as we go down the road
Feeling the stresses of life as they begin to unfold
An inner peace begins to take over me
Just viewing nature brings such sweet serenity
With the windows down and the stereo turned up
Filling my soul like an over abundant cup
Feeling the sun as it comes through the glass
Arms hanging out to wave at people as we pass
Going from farms to wooded areas with ponds
Tree branches outstretched shading us with their fronds
Passing by and seeing the wash as it hangs on clothes lines
Houses covered up with beautiful clinging vines
How I love traveling through the quaint little towns
Community pride worn like the shiniest of crowns
Little country shops displaying their treasures inside
Country artisans selling their wares with pride
Feeling the warm welcome that is so sincere
Unlike the city, there is nothing to fear
The day almost over and the sun begins to set
Leaving a peaceful feeling and the deepest content
Beautiful colors splashed across the evening sky
Reminiscent of an artist who has left their canvas to dry
The cooler night breeze now blowing on my face
Our travels return us home to our own little place
Entwined in each other’s arms and gently falling to sleep
The beauty of the day in our memories we will keep
DeadlyXDesire
Darkness in America
05:32 May 26 2009
Times Read: 729
In the era in which we live it is easy to get depressed
Not wanting to get out of bed, let alone getting dressed
Jobs are hard to come by and cupboards are bare
Easy to give up and not seeming to care
Feeling the impact of these times that are so rough
Giving up on life, enough is enough
Businesses closing their doors at such a fast rate
Is this going to be our future or can we change fate
Not knowing where to go or direction to turn
Economic hardships into our pockets they burn
Giving up on dreams as there is no sign of relief
Heavy hearts weighted down with worry and grief
No hope in sight for the nightmare to end
Wondering what horrors lie around the bend
Contemplating what the future holds in store
Ripping out our souls, leaving a hollow core
Does Corporate America or our politicians give a shit
That they have pushed the working man into this hellish pit
Is it any wonder why crime rates are rising
Layoffs abound with massive downsizing
Bring back the jobs so that we can cope
America needs to see a glimmer of hope
DeadlyXDesire
Depression
05:30 May 26 2009
Times Read: 730
Sitting in a smoke filled room
Feeling so completely alone
Fighting off feelings of doom
Chilling right to the bone
The misery is overwhelming
Threatening to take hold
Numbness overtakes feeling
Leaving the soul stone cold
Nothing left to live for
Happiness a thing of the past
Hope has swept out the door
Leaving a sky that is overcast
Darkness seems a way of life
The flame has burned out
Loneliness that cuts like a knife
Silence is all about
Not caring for a thing at all
Severing ties that bind
Erecting a stone wall
Forever to hide behind
DeadlyXDesire
Drowning in Darkness
05:28 May 26 2009
Times Read: 732
The tears flow in sorrow and pain
Threatening to take over my soul
The hurt coming down in a heavy rain
The emotions are beginning to takes it’s toll
Wanting all the pain to end
Hoping to see better days ahead
But nothing appears to be around the bend
Everything appearing as though it is dead
Wanting to have the darkness take me down
Forever lost in the depths of ebony water
Feeling my lungs give out as I drown
Death calling me his beloved daughter
Knowing there is a place in which I am wanted
Though it may be just a river of darkness
No longer will my soul feel haunted
Drowning in the depths feeling Death’s caress
DeadlyXDesire
Haunted
05:26 May 26 2009
Times Read: 734
You come to me in my dreams
Tormenting and taunting
Leaving me awake and
Shaking with the haunting
A ghostly presence that was
Once very real to me
Now just a distant dream
A hazy faded memory
Waking with tears rolling
Down my face
Haunted by memories
Of a far away time and place
Memories of a love that once
Was so very real
But the truth in your heart
In time did reveal
A truth that was like
A sharp dagger
Driven deep into my heart
Leaving me to stagger
You killed me with your
Deceipt and lying words
They speared my heart
Like a million swords
Those things always are in the
Back of my heart and mind
Will there be another to love
That I will be able to find
But you come to me in
Spectral visions and dreams
Once again ripping open
My heart’s tattered seams
DeadlyXDesire
Light of Love
05:23 May 26 2009
Times Read: 735
Being without you is so very hard to do
Feeling lost and alone and having no clue
My love for you is what gets me through each day
Your love lightens my path to show me the way
One day we will be united as one
Loving arms wrapped around me when the day is done
Enjoying the pleasures that our bodies give
In each other’s hearts we will eternally live
When I look into your eyes and see your handsome face
I know that my heart belongs in one special place
Forever I will be yours to have and to hold
Never again will we be lonely and cold
Wrapped up in a blanket of love
Gazing at the stars of heaven above
Feeling the warmth of what lies in your heart
Together forever and never to be apart
DeadlyXDesire
Lost in Your Love
05:22 May 26 2009
Times Read: 736
I am lost when you are not here
I just want to be able to know you are near
A piece of me is missing when you are away
I long for the day when you will forever stay
You have reached a part of me I thought was dead
Now I have something to which I can look ahead
The day you declared your love to me
Was the day you opened my heart and set my soul free
One day soon we will be together as one
Our bodies entwined when the day is done
We will make love into the wee hours of night
The love in our eyes shining so bright
Yearning to feel each other’s skin
And the warmth that we find deep within
Falling asleep in one another’s arms
Forever lost in a spell of charms
DeadlyXDesire
Rough Waters
05:20 May 26 2009
Times Read: 737
Darling I know that right now things seem to be very tough
One day we will see smooth sailing and no more waters that are rough
Our ship will come in one day you will see
It will take some work from both you and me
Life is a journey to be shared with the ones we love
No matter what storms are brewing in the skies above
But we must hold tight and keep on our course
Like a rodeo rider who falls but gets back up on his horse
Let us sail the crystal blue oceans of life
Letting the vessel cut through the waves like a knife
Weathering the storms that may come our way
Knowing we will one day anchor in the calmest bay
Gathering up memories like treasures of gold
Reliving the adventures when the stories are told
We must have faith or we will surely fail
So darling let us lift anchor and let the winds fill our sail
DeadlyXDesire
Suffering of the Single Parent05:18 May 26 2009
Times Read: 738
Having to do it all on your own
Can be so very hard
Trying to be both Mom and Dad
Dealt to us by destiny’s card
Struggling to make ends meet
Working as hard as we can
The children suffering the most
A missing parent be it woman or man
Not receiving any help from the courts
And being turned away from help
Leaving us stunned and hurt
Feeling like we are society’s whelp
Seeing these children yearn for more in life
And getting to do special things
But those of us having to say no
Because of what our single income brings
We want so much more for our kids
But we really are left with no choice
Having to see them suffer for it
we keep quiet what we really want to voice
Suffering alone and silent
Watching our kids envy others
Those that have mothers and fathers
Or sharing with sisters and brothers
The single parent with the single child
Has more obstacles to endure
The love we have for our children
Pushes us to strive to be so much more
DeadlyXDesire
Twist of Fate
05:16 May 26 2009
Times Read: 739
I thought you were different
But you are just like the rest
You failed me miserably when
I put you to the test
You claimed to have loved me
And that it would always last
But when times got tough
You took off running fast
You only care about yourself
And have no concept of what love is
But one day you will think back
To this undying love that you will miss
By then it will be too late as
That time has already come
They say you can leave but
You can never truly return home
One day you will regret the things
That you did and said
When you are lying alone thinking of me
Alone in your single bed
But I sit here smiling and will continue
On with my life
For I know that one day you will know
It was your own heart that you pierced with the knife
I am glad that around my heart
That I built a strong stone wall
Because this time the disappointment
Didn’t leave me with a big fall
Another will come along who
Will know how to treat me well
And it will be you who will have to
Live in eternal torment and hell
Knowing that you threw away
The best thing to have ever come your way
But here I have said my piece and
Have nothing more to say
DeadlyXDesire
Wastelands
06:26 May 18 2009
Times Read: 759
Wandering aimlessly through the wastelands of life
Feeling the loneliness cut through me like a serated knife
Not knowing if will ever find my way out of the dead landscape
Praying that death comes and be a welcomed escape
Watching life pass on by knowing that will never be me
Hoping for the day that my soul can fly and be free
Trapped on this earth and the hell that it holds
Observing the injustices as this hellish life unfolds
Wanting to hide and retreat from such a bleak and dismal place
Yearning to feel the dirt as it is shoveled onto my face
Knowing that in death no longer will there be such pain
Reveling in the knowledge that this world is rid of one more stain
My only purpose in life has been to be battered and abused
Being nothing more than an object to by toyed with and used
My life here on this earth has come to an end at long last
Solace is knowing I will be just a forgotten memory of the past
DeadlyXDesire
Awakening
06:24 May 18 2009
Times Read: 760
Feeling a thirst consume me
Like a person lost in the dessert
Wanting nothing but what can quench the thirst
Fueling feelings of violence and disconcert
Wanting to resist the urge growing inside
Looking for other means of extinguishing the need
Nothing can replace the unquenchable thirst
Aching to sink my teeth into flesh and making it bleed
Creating such a euphoric high
That cannot be replaced with any drug
Wanting to hunt the prey
Embracing them in a fatal hug
Puncturing the skin with razor sharp teeth
Feeling the plasm flow down my throat
The warm thick liquid trickling down
My tongue covered in a bloody coat
Letting the crimson tide flow
Much like a beautiful orgasm
The energy ingested courses through
Causing my body to shake and spasm
My senses become more heightened and aware
As the changes begin to take place
Trying to hide the demon inside
A killer lurks behind this face
Many see it as a life of damnation
Others see it as being free
I see it as my inner self coming out
I am finally who I am supposed to be
No longer being weak and feeble
Feeling a strength coming from within
The one who was beaten and abused
Committing the ultimate sin
Feeling a sense of justice
For all the wrongs along the way
A new sense of awareness
The predators have now become my prey
DeadlyXDesire
Mother
20:07 May 11 2009
Times Read: 774
I can't count all the times
that you have been there for me
I can only be thankful for you
for helping no matter what it may be
The times that we have shared
whether it be in sorrow or joy
All the great knowledge and advice
in my life I try to employ
I feel bad because I can't afford
to buy you a gift or a card
But I am trying to give you something
that for some comes by so hard
I am giving you a melody of words
that come straight from the heart
A gift that never dies away
Or in time that falls apart
I may not have much in my life
but so glad we have one another
You are an exceptional woman
whom I am proud to call Mother
DeadlyXDesire
Mother's Day 2009
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LOSTXSOUL
06:08 May 27 2009
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