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We have a severe thunderstorm warning until 1:00 am. Got so fucking much on my mind I'm hoping sitting outside and watching the storm will take my mind off of crap.

I have a beautiful solid black kitty cat named Xavier. He's been with me before my other "kids", my dog and my other cat and before my husband. He's been with me since he was a wee kitty for 15 years. Today my beloved Xavier is dying. I've known it was coming--all the signs were there. He normally loves it when I work Reiki on him and doesn't want me to stop. Today, he won't let me use Reiki. I picked him up and he had soiled himself. He lets me hold him for a short time and then he just wants to lie on one of his favorite spots. Death is someone who will always be around and when an animal passes it sux!. I believe humans reincarnate. I don't know what I believe about animals.

Well the Croatan forest is on fire and anyone, like me, with asthma or respiratory problems is gonna have a shit load of problems breathing. The smoke was in my bloody house last night. It was very freaky! I'm just glad it's a control burn!

I'm going back on the ferry next week for my birthday! I need to get back to the pure, hard-core energy of the Atlantic.

Well, I put in two applications with my resume yesterday. I've certainly got the experience; let's hope they'll bite! hmmm maybe I'll change that thought to "they'll take the bait" lol. I am the biter after all....

My dear sweet Demon, contacted me. I can not believe the change in him. The last six months have proved to be very different for him. I can't wait to catch up and get more details. I have missed our hours and hours long talks and our collaborations.

If you are a Witch and your familar insists on slipping out the front door. Do not trip on his dumb bloody arse. I truly love my animals, really I do. But Nine tripped me this morning and down I fuckin went on my front brick porch. I now have a pulled muscle and a bruised rib along with an ache in my left knee. I must be getting ancient lol cos it took me a while to get up!

On a more somber note, I went to the cemetary in RRapids and visited my pop and mommie. It was so wierd and unreal to see both their names on the ground like that. I fuckin miss my parents!

Very happy living in my new home on two acres of land. It's so quiet and gorgeous out here. At the same time, I wouldn't have it if not for my pop dying. I can't seem to wrap my head around the idea that he's really dead. Took me forever to get over momma's death and now they are both gone and it's just fuckin wierd. I think he would have really liked it around here. I know momma would have. Pop being mundane human probably wouldn't have appreciated certain aspects of this property and mom, I know she was Vamp, but she never awakened.

Earlier this week I boarded a ferry from Swan Quarter to Ocracoke Island and the OBX. I was prepared for the sun, but wishing it wasn't going to be bad. I got my wish. The day was stormy and rainy and amazing. It's incredible to be able to savor the energy within the Atlantic. There was an area where Oregon Inlet had been overflowed by Hurricane Irene last year. You go across the bridge headed for Nags Head and on your left is the Sound, an almost peaceful body of water. On your right is the ocean and on this day the fury and amazing energy was evident in the way the waves beat against the shoreline where it had parted and overflowed the sand. It was flowing and shoving its way into the sound and it wasn't holding back. I won't ever forget the sight of that.