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Ok...I'm a child of the night. I know this because i'm tired all day til the sun goes down then i am so energized it's not even funny...



I used to stay up all night and as soon as the sun rose go to sleep. I don't claim to be a vampire for anything...but i do belong to the night. It is when i'm happiest most energized and most...well..not evil persay..i guess the word is mischevious...i love to mess with people at night.



Its like a transformation...i become more sensual..quiet..like literally i can sneak up on even the most paranoid of people...My movements become more graceful...like a cat...and i become the happiest person you'll ever met...well til my temper gets triggered then i just scare everyone...and lord help anyone who is around me if i listen to Three Days Grace's "animal i've become" it literally brings out my darkest side...



What would you call it...I just say it's because i was born to the night...to the beautiful sensual and delightfully shivering darkness

I'm sitting next to my Ex...my heart is racing and my breathing is shallow. What does that mean? It means i still want him and still love him....but i almost don't want to....



Just when i think i'm getting over him...he does something that pulls me right back in...And part of me wants to get over him and the other part of me doesn't.....the part of me that does is omplicated as hell....that part of me that doesn't is simple....I love him....



Then he throws out the mixed signals....like today i said i would sleep with someone in a second....Someone i've known for years now...and he got upset....and he doesn't like me talking to other guys....and he acts so sweet and loving sometimes....i just don't know...does he want to be with me or not???



Someone please help me....I'm sending out an S.O.S to the v.r. world....i need some advice what should i do?

My mood tonight is....blah....i'm not happy i'm not sad i'm at an in between...almost exhaustion...



I guess my mood is attributed to wanting to do something but having the lack of means to do it...



GAH! i hate this mood...i need something to cheer me up...but what....maybe i just need to sleep...i did have a busy day...



Sorry just another rant lol....its very liberating and makes me a happy and gooey inside....not really but it does make me feel a little better to get it off my chest...



Well i'm done for now...



Peace love and triple fudge cake peeps



Evey signing out of my journal

have you every felt your heart pounding...not in fear but excitement....enjoyment...not cause of sex but just cause you are near someone that you really like???



Thats how it is when i talk to a couple certain guys on here. Now i'm not stupid enough to think just cause i talk to them alot i know them...but i really enjoy talking to them and i can't wait til i see a message from them....



I can't reveal who they are but my sis ShayleeSilverprism (i know her in real life i introduced her to v.r.) knows who they are she has seen me smile wide....especially when one certain person messages me.



I wish i could talk to them on the phone and get to know them better but i guess i will live with the anticipation of the next messages....



Even tho i can never reveal who they are I want to thank them....because of the kindness they show me and talking to them the pain of my ex dumping me has lessened greatly....I thank the two of you and wish i could reveal who You are so you know but i'd be to embarrassed...



Well another night of mindless babble....I love you sis cause i know your gonna read this and you are always a great joy in my life and the closest one to my heart right now...I know i can turn to you..just like you can turn to me



Anywho Peace out loves have a good night



Peace

Evey

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Forcevamp123
01:44 Feb 02 2010

Yeah, I'm some what the same way with one person on here, but truly I will probably never see or talk to them in real life. We can only wish, but anything is possible so if you want to go for one of them. I say do what you heart says to.

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