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I am turning 40 and I changing in side I feel like mean and been not so nice lately , Not sure what it could be ? I don,t feel myself and there are alot of things I am going though , I don,t know How to deal with it .. I don,t want to be someone I am not . I like being alone people don,t understand that ,I miss my old self , I just want to see in side me and find what I am . I miss the feel of a mans hand strocking my face feeling someone,s arms around you slowly kissing my neck looking in to each others eyes seeing in side .