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You told me you loved me. For so long we were together on and off, but we were always off because you couldn't stop cheating on me. You want me to love you. But how can I love someone who hurt me so deeply? I loved you at the time. I gave you chance after chance. One was a teenage girl you cheated on me with. One was an older woman who was still "with" her husband. And god knows about the others. You ruined my love for you. The best you can even ask for is a friend from me. Everything that comes out of your mouth, I have to decipher if it's a lie or the truth. Most of the time, I come to the conclusion that it's a lie.



You say you love me. You show it real well.... yeah, real well. You say my best friend is like you sister. Yet you didn't care when she told you to fuck off... What kind of brother is that? She needed you but you were so busy wallowing in your own self pity that it wasn't relevant.

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FemmeFatale
08:02 Jun 11 2010

i feel u girl!!.. iam tried of getting trampled on to..hang in there!!.. dont let these awful.. situations.. turn u into the monster that hurt u!

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Do you even care that every day that passes, I miss you more and more? People say that it gets easier with time. The more time that passes for me though... it gets worse. The ache in my chest gets bigger and spreads to more of my body. It's not healthy to feel this way. But at times, I hold my breath and wish that I could hold it forever. I know you will never love me. I knew that from the beginning. Yet, I tried my best to be the best for you. I bent over backwards to do what I thought was right by you. But it never was enough. I wasn't good enough, pretty enough, old enough. Whatever the case was, I was not enough. I gave you everything and got nothing in return. You hit on my friend, you chose the time when we could see each other and when we could sleep together. I cloaked myself thinking that you did love me. That the twisted way you loved someone was to act the way you did. It killed me when you chose that one over me. The one who wanted to screw your friends. I had different chances to, but I stayed true to you. I didn't even want to. And now, I wish I would have. I wish it would've hurt you but I know it would have just rolled off your shoulder like nothing. I was just another notch on your belt. I was just another stupid girl who fell for your charm and your looks. Who fell for the powerful demeanor. I was just another stupid girl. I'm still just another stupid girl. Because no matter how much hurt and hatred I have towards you, I am still in love with you. I will never love another the way I love you. And I need to. I need to move on. I need to find someone who knows what they have. What a good wife I can make. What a good mother I could be. That's what you told me you wanted on numerous occasions. But I wasn't the one.

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Sabastianthebat
07:32 Jun 09 2010

The more time passes from my realm of being it does hurt worse. I believe it hurt's worse for me as more time passes because when it all the sudden hit's me missing that person out of nowhere. Its like a big boomerang slamming into my thought's, emotion's, and total essence of being alive. I just wanted to share that and the fact people suck in the way of toying with another's emotional commiment of "LOVE". For that I am deeply sorry for thee. ~S~

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FancyPanties
17:06 Jun 09 2010

Thanks. I have more to this on my myspace, but yeah. It's the jist of it.

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