Yes I'm whiny, yes I complain about everything, I don't care about what you think I should or shouldn't complain about, your life is your life, if you choose not to complain that's your decision but taking the bait and saying my life isn't so bad means nothing to me because it's not your life I'm complaining about, sure yours may be worse, but it's not the life I know and it's not the things that happen to you I'm whining about. I whine about the things that are bad to me in perspective to my life.
I will never change, that's a fact, and if you don't like it, well, just ignore me when/if I bring it up. I'm sorry if I offend anyone when I do bring it up, but that's a part of who I am.
More and more and more and more and MORE....I keep FUCKING UP the best things I have...I hurt, upset, irritate and annoy...everyone!! It hurts me to know I make them feel the way they do about me....to know they think I'm a horrible person...to lose their affection or worse their respect...
There are people who mean alot to me...there are people who mean more than alot but shouldn't mean that much...there is one person I want to be with forever...there is another one I want but can't have ever...it hurts but I'm happy...even when its hurting...I'd rather hurt than never have contact...I'd rather die than lose what I've got...I'm confused.
You make my world so much brighter, you make every day worth waking up to, I've never been happier and its all thanks to you, I feel loved and wanted, I feel like I actually mean something to someone, and no amount of distance can change it....I love you.....
I hate myself for all I've done...I don't deserve to be happy when all I do is hurt the people I care about....If it weren't for the people that actually (amazingly) still want to know me, I might just die and end everyone's pain...knowing I'm gone and I'll never hurt anyone ever again....
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dont say that hunny, you're worht more than you know, stronger than you think and alot of ppl care about you, no matter what you think!!
u have to many mood swings control ur emotions and it will be better i promise
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WolfenVampire
14:16 Jun 25 2009
sis if you ever want to talk, i'm here. i want you to know that ^_^
Peace