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I have only dreamt of Anthony a couple of times. Last I knew, he lost his friends, his job, and girlfriend or wife(whichever it is/was). I don't know why I dreamt about him in the first place. We have spoke since my brother died.

Since a leafe of my hair got yanked out when Niki poked me in the side, I've been having major migranes on the left side of my temple. That was two weeks ago. They're getting worse. I can't lay on my left side anymore without it hurting like hell.

Teaching myself Japanese for a story i'm writing. God, it's hard to get the pronounciation right. So what i'm doing is downloading a program that will allow me to learn at a much faster pace. Had a TORNADO watch. they had Spotters out almost all day. Even unlocked the celler to the church. It skipped past us and had not much to worry about. But I did. I zened out and did a protection cone of power that reached 17 to 20 miles to protect me, all in the house, and those I care about in Defiance. Talk about wiped out!! After twnty minutes of the opening in the cone, i began to sweat to death and get drowsy. I couldn't believe i did it. It's the LARGEST cone i've ever done and it scared the shit outta me. But that won't stop me from doing it again if the time came to save my friends life. Justin and I aren't going our seperate ways after all. We just misunderstood eachother and got it worked out. Been working on the house across town. The other day we put 9 solid hours into working on it. I did most of it, but Kim helped me and Tom did the outside for us. That's why I haven't been online to any of my sites much. Do not discourage my friends. I'm still here. There was a spider in the truck on the way home from the warehouse on MY side of the door. Right there at the lining. I screached and just about sat on Dee's lap in the driver seat the whole restof the way home. I was as close as I could get without sitting on her! lol It was insane.

stole this quiz thing from my homefry MaidenUnderworld.

I don't have a title for it yet, but here's how the outline goes: A woman dreams about a creature a girl already knows about only in different form.



{{{{{{{{{this is from a conversation i had with someone about a werewolf in her dreams}}}}}}}}}}



pixiepagan7146: very human like very skinny with a slight bend in the knees, think of the one on x-men alittle like that but not as much hair

pixiepagan7146: that was a trip the dream m

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: i have a friend who's into werewolves and such and i'm sure she can give me a good picture to go by

pixiepagan7146: ok I tried to draw it but that didn't work LOL

pixiepagan7146: thought that was odd that the dream took place at Maryjos' an Riches' place where I've already seen the beast

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: that's probably the only place it can create around you instead of taking you to where it really is to get near you because there' you feel safe

pixiepagan7146: makes sence what do you make of the sterling silver daggers

pixiepagan7146: the connection of the sterling silver sposing to kill the werewofe

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: it could be another connection to you through your mind and the things you wear. strangers pay attention to details. So it may take the use of things you aquire yourself or your intersts and put them together.

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: Yes, a werewolf can kill them says hollywood, but who's to say that's just part of the fantasy it allowed in the dream to make you feel safe again as a way out if things got bad between you two

pixiepagan7146: ok so why do you think he may be coming to me in the first place?

pixiepagan7146: that could be kinda what I thought too

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: in creatures, there's always the alpha and the omega. That's blood line material. In the mamal world of four foot walkers, you may be considered the alpha female in our famiy of "the beloved"

pixiepagan7146: oh ok is that a good thing

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: *alpha and beta

pixiepagan7146: a familiar in a sence

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: no.

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: it probably sees itself as the alpha male-considering how it's protective and controling our feelings tward it

pixiepagan7146: the coming together for the strength of the two

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: We just may be the rest of the pack.(the rest of us)

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: yes, it probably sees you as the alpha female due to your knowledge and unafraid ability to survive in the means you see nessicary

pixiepagan7146: oh ok an I could say I felt that kind of sence about it cause I wasn't afraid

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: A female is the one that rules the pack. a male leadign the pack spends very few time with everyone. So i think he's claimingyou agains Brownie to believe it or not

pixiepagan7146: in-fact in strange sort of wayI was in awe especially when he walked an his hair just flowed beautifully as he walked

pixiepagan7146: could be makes sence as a sort of protector too ?

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: i think you've been in the proccess of being swwoned by him in his primitive state, but not what he looks like really

pixiepagan7146: wow is that good

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: yes. i think he was just watching out for me and then waited a long time to meet you and knows how you've been feeling

pixiepagan7146: wow brings tears to my eyes isn't that beautiful

velvet_lashes_angel_kisses: lol

pixiepagan7146: ok a question then this morning I dreamed of someone who has been in my life periodically not not for a while now but to dream of him out of the blue is this signifigant in the true identity

pixiepagan7146: there was no elaberte dream concerning this person just that I figured out who he was that had ask about me

I submitted a poem on MySpace that I wrote a while back from a dream i had. And the comments from the readers were amazing. The second one actually shocked me. I use the pen name Pandora 'Kaiio there; It will also be one for a few of my books. Anyway, here's the poem.





3 WAYS



There Is a man with his head in half;

I can see his scribbled brain like fruit;

A murderer, a rapist, a dark mask in handsome light;

Murderer? Yes, a murderer of youngs and hopes.



The first notch on his victory list:

Physically willing to rip apart the clothes,

To shred thier dignity;

While he enters them in each way.



Please don't!

I cover my ears as he walks to her;

There is nothing I can do from my chains;

She is locked on a bed;

I am on the floor with thick chains on my hands,

Around my neck, holing me in my place.



The second notch is mind manipulation with magic:

Each thing they see is to drive them mad;

Who is on top of them and who is hurting them?

Are they the same person?

Are they different?



I scream my cries as if I could be heard;

I know it's just my words bouncing off the walls;

No one can hear me-

Can she?



The third is thier soul hanging up in the closet;

Like a wardrobe for him;

He threads his life into thier soul,

Devouring it with trickery;

God, hang on, sweety...



My tears are fierce;

I cannot help her out of reach;

And my eyes are swollen shut;

My world is crashing down with her screams;

Please don't! Oh, God!

The chains wrap around me,

Though little comfort they can give;

Another life I could not save.



By Pandora Kaiio











THESE ARE THE COMMENTS ALONG WITH THIER DISPLAYED NAMES:

it's hard when we want to help people and we can't... i don't know in what way you were trying to help this person (tho i have my ideas), but all of the emotions that went into this poem come through very strongly. good job.

-BeepBeep





Your poetry tugs so much on my heart. I'm not used to feeling those feelings and you pull them out of me and make me feel them. You are amazing and hope that you go very far with your writing. Just remeber us little people when you get there! Lol!

-♥Amante♥