There was a shit load of ppl just passed out everywhere. a couple of fights broke out. IDIOTS!!!! Those ones left. There's only 5 of us up still. And over 60 ppl here. I felt like i was in a mall packed for chrismas shopping 3 fold. I only took 4 sips off a couple of friends. Someone puked on a couple of ppl. I was drawing for a few people. Met one of Jessica's friends that is hooking me up with free tattoos. That's some cool shit. He was helping me try to keep the fights down with Jessica. I wore a corset; wich squeezed the shit out of me-i couldn't lean forward and had to sit straight up like a proper lady or lean back like a pregnant lady. LOL There's gonna be a bunch of us going to that MSI concert it turns out. Got hit on by a jerk. And all around, it was really fun. Meeting a shit load of ppl i didn't even know. Sadly, there were no pictures taken except for when we went trick-or-treating. I was a pregnant teenager carrying a book of FAUST and explaining that i was pregnant with George Bush's kid. I got a few good laughs at it, but someone said they wanted to hit me with a book lol. The next day, that person and i got lost for an hour and a half on the way back to getting smokes. That same person invited me to go see SAW2 with them tomorrow. My hoody from my friend Steve (the lead singer of 33Corpses) got cut in the event of a knife fight. How gay!! im pissed
I got to talk to my honny bunny! He's at his Parent Institute and might get early release; which would be cool as fuck!
Your as Evil as a kitten chasing a butterfly. Nowwhy don't you go hug something while listeningto Clay Aiken. Why did you even take this quiz.Your to nice to take evil quizes.
You Absolutly luv Vampires(*Me: so do i*)
Tom and his rambling on song from his comp "French Toast!" its hillarious.
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Some how i managed to recieve a free month and a day of Premium Membership. I wonder what i did or who liked what they saw on my profile to do this for me. Very nice to have.
Poor Pudgee is all drunk. He came home and I could hear him outside being all loud. Tom went out there to see what was going on and Pudgee was all upset. And if you know Tom, he'll instigate him into feeling like more shit. So when Pudg sent for me, I was there to comfort him. First, we tried the trash can, but that ended up having a hole in the bottem. So the couch wasn't working. He was crying-which i've never seen him do before out of the 4 years i've known him. I wiped the sweat off him with a dry towel, Tom wiped up his pukey face and the couch pillows and floor. At first, he had me put my hand on the back of his neck so the world would stop spinning and he was so grateful. "See, that's why Dan loves you so much." he slurred. "Liz, you're cool shit. I love you." And so on. After a while, i told him i had to let go so I could go get some 7Up and flatten it out. (flat soda is good for upset stumaches-especially the clear stuff) He was telling me to hurry up. Which i did. No telling what kind of dumbshit Tom would instigate. I had to send Tom away to his room a few times to get Pudgee calmed down to begin with. I came back and Tom's in the kitchen, I forget what he was saying. But i told him to go away because he wasn't helping any. Reminded Pudgee that he was alright and that i was back. (it's good to let him know because that way he wont flip out wondering where his comforter is) After I got back, he grabbed my hand and started to fall asleep on the floor. The poor guy. He's got some friends! he didn't want to be that drunk. I know because he told me.
Saw the movie Constantine tonight. Never again! A lot of my dreams so , I was weirded out and cold the whole time. Told Jason I was going to email him the ones that stuck out specifically. There's even pictures i drew, so he'll get the idea when i show him my dream journal.
This is pretty shitty though, because I've had dreams about violent godly creatures for the past few years and my dreams are always into being in someone elses body. I did not want to go home tonight, so i'm staying at Jessica's.
Well, Jason's not going to the MSI concert with us because it'll break cerfuw. That sux. Now we have to find someone else to go with us. Maybe Jeremy! i'll have to throw the idea out to Jessica.
My favorite kidnappers came to town a few times. Jason gets me on Saturdays now and Jessica gets me on Fridays now. Yay!
little test i took
You are sad because of your fear
I got a hold of AuthorHouse's new owner, Darrell Hoard, to discuss my publishing happings. Apparently, the previous owner, Lester James, had told Darrell about me and recomended with keeping on my ass about getting things done. So we talked and he offered me 20 free books to spread the word about my book that I could give to family and friends as a gift or whatnot. and a free back cover dessign for my book too. And i'll get $100 for every person who i reffer to him as long as i give them my name and his number
Dee paid me $10 to do some secretorial work for her while Howard and her got things ready and set together for their heading out and up to Michigan to Rainbow 2005. I'm her personal secretary for the support group. Pretty much doing the art, copy/printing, and designs. But I'm not the only one who does it though. Which is alright. I'm good for that. She does some of her own stuff too, but that's mainly when they're on the road I'm sure.
Well, I got a package from my mom and Oma. I was so happy to get so many photos and artwork and mugs from my old house, and LOTS of bubble wrap. I was so excited about it, that i met the post man in my driveway in my pajammas and socks. Unfortunately for me, i had to quickly change my soaked clothes. I cried and laughed as i went through each and every thing that was in the contents-and saved the bubble wrap. (that shit's fun!) After I was done, I just sat there stareing at everything I set up on my coffee table for like an hour.
I recieved 3 mugs that I used to have. One of three Native American girls dancing in a circle in 3 pictures around the mug. One was of a repeated pattern of homedrawn hearts with a decoupadged background, and a Christmas mug of a teddy bear holding a christmas cooky out to the holder of the mug.
A bunch of art that Oma's selling at a bar. She even made a huge picture of me with purple hair, becuase the last time she saw me i had purple dyed streaks, and there's her hand that she traced with the words "The hand of the Oma" written on the wrist. In the top left hand corner there's a pinky purple banner with my nickname she gave me eons ago Lizzie Tish. and at the center base, she had drawn a plack for me saying Goth Princess. Which surprised me because I'm not one to think i'm a princess of any kind what so ever and to her, i'm this little girl still. I was so excited and shocked by the tribute that I was crying as i placed my hand in her outlined hand to see how similar in size we are. There's so many neato designs that I can't even discribe! She'd pass for making signs for Goth sites I'm deffinately sure of.
The other photos were in two seperate little snake skinned albums with my initials on the bottem right hand corner in little blue stickers and a number 1 on the first album and a number 2 on the second. And in the first album, there were more stickers saying, "In The Beginning...." And there's just shots in there of me as a baby with a square head and my mom holding me on her hip with an apple. And another picture next to it where my mom is sitting on a picnic table bench with me standing in front of her, slightly facing the camera, but i'm looking at my older brother with a piece of apple in my mouth and the apple itself in my hand and i'm giving him this evil look. I probably thought he was going to steal my damn apple! Hey, I was just defending it.
Other pictures were of my cats Bobcat Randazzo, Doggerzz, and Claudia. Then there was some of me dying my cousins hair and her putting streaks in mine. And Cathy, my foster sister. And of course my fashion monster cousin Candice. She's going to cosmetology classes now. DAMN! Oh, and my neice!!! My neice!! I haven't seen her in forever and a day. She's getting so big and cuter than her critter of a mother. Pictures of my brother before he died and group photos of us kids. MY STONER PICTURE!! from school in Hoosick Falls! Omg, I looked at it and was like, yeah. That i don't remember, but i know i was stoned off my ass.
Then there was my cousin Ruthie before she devorced her control freak husband the Marine. And her and my mom putting photos together for me at my aunt Renee's kitchen table.
And Tom ruins the rest of the day by calling me stupid and torturing me to death all day. I haven't been angry so much since that night. His mom called and asked me why i was depressed but i couldn't admit the real reason. Only told her some of the cause.
Thank you Tom for making me feel like the biggest piece of shit just because you had a bad day at work. Hey pal, I did't come into your life to fuck with you, so don't fuck with me! I'm trying my fucking HARDEST to get my life under control and all your doing is dragging me down. I have never ever felt like crying every day until I told you that it bothers me when you flirt with me. Since then, you've been the biggest JERK to me because I don't have any feelings for you. Some days I just want to stay home and starve than be in your cruel, maliscious, hateful presence. I am nothing but nice to everyone and you just belittle me and drag me down like a dog to be shot with Chad trying to jerk the berrel of the gun in another dirrection. And when I try not to cry because of your meanness, you get all pissy and drive the knife home and ask me why the fuck I'M so sad. Stop being a double edged sword. I'm sick and tired and I'd rather starve to death sitting at home, than come up here to survive. I'm sick of crying all the time. It's not like I have mommy and daddy to cry to on the phone or whenever they're home. I don't talk to my father anymore and I can't tell my mother my problems because I don't want her to worry herself sick over her only daughter. You're just acting stupid because I don't like you the way you like me!
I can live off water and stealing food. I did it once, and i can do it again.
I am doing what I can in the mean time.
Took out all the GIF's and things that i did not make myself of pictures. They told me to. But that's ok. Forces me to be creative !
A - Age you got your first real kiss: 17
B - Band listening to right now: None
C - Crush: oh you know who you are. MAIRIKIA
D - Dad's name: Charles Oliver
E - Easiest person to talk to: Tammy
F - Favorite food: it's a cross between pizza and oreos
G - Gummy bears or gummy worms: bears! you can take heads and bodies apart to make them two-toned!
H - Hometown: Berlin, NY
I - Instruments: Bass, MarkIII
K - Kids: none alive
L - Longest car ride ever: omg. going from Oma's to Aunt Barbara's
M - Mom's name: HildaLee
N - Nicknames: Lizard breath, Pandora, Lizzy Tish, babe, and shithead.
O - One wish: My wish is that my mom didn't have cancer
P - Phobia[s]: SPIDERS!
Q - Quote: You zarken frude!!
R - Reason to smile: friends
S - Song you sang last: Something by Staind
T - Time you woke up: i thought it was 11:40 AM, but my livingroom clock said almost 1pm
U - Unknown fact about me: I LOVE to shower with a strobe light going!!!!!
V - Vegetable you hate: asparegass
W - Worst habits: being quiet
X - X-rays you've had: chest, ribs, spine, stumach, skull
Y - Your favorite color: Purple
Z - Zodiac sign: Aries Cardinel
It's extremely cold here. Way too cold to be walking home at night. So i find myself sleeping at Howard and Dee's every other night.
My mother said she sent me a package of her and Oma's art work. (Oma is my grandmother. it's german for the word "grandmother") I'm so excited to get it. Should be here by Tuesday at the latest. Called her today to tell her where anyone can get a hold of me during the day, because at night, they're fucked on that issue. My phone is turned off. Forgot to ask her about the Keemotheropy. DAMN! I can't wait to see the package. I've been waiting months for this.
Finding a job is so hard. I'm not a bad person and I am not a drug abuser, so why won't anyone hire me? That's fucked up. And PeopleLink isn't showing any factories hiring anyone because they're buying another one.
Made some Cornbread yesterday. Oh, it was so good. Haven't had it in forever. But the reason it didn't taste as good as Oma's is because i'm not as old as she.
Went to get my job back at the restaurant or i'm not going to have a place to live, but they just threw me out. Her mother did actually. She hasn't liked me because of my appearance in black. A few people have told me and some chick stood up for me, saying it was bullshit and Betty just doesn't give a shit. I understand that they've had a death in the family, but there's gonna be another one in mine if I cannot find work! I'm gonna be tossed out on the streets again. The only thing different is that i'm not pregnant this time.
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Ocean or Lake? | Ocean, never seen one |
Pizza or Chinese? | Both, they're really good |
Mansion or Penthouse? | Mansion, well, they're both great |
Have you been on a Jet Ski? | Fuck yeah! Diamond Reef Yaht Club in Halfmoon, NY |
Are you afraid of clowns? | No |
How many brothers/sisters do you have? | I have 2 blood brothers, one died 2004; 3 half brothers |
Favorite band/group? | HIM |
Baseball or football? | football |
Favorite brand of makeup? | Aziza |
Waffles or pancakes? | Waffles; there's a reason why i don'teat pancakes |
Do you have an IPod? | no |
Bike or scooter? | bike |
Ever go in a hot air balloon? | not yet, ;but there's one in Defiance |
How will you celebrate turning 21? | already did. |
What brand computer do you have? | Don't have one |
How many times have you been to DisneyWorld? | never. |
Favorite city? | I hate cities |
Ice cream or frozen yogurt? | Ice cream! |
Do you think you are fat? | I could stand to gain a few pounds to be honest |
Ever throw up in a public place? | i'm sure i threw up on my mom when i was a kid in Canada |
Do you have a pool? | no |
Ever drive a car? | YES! |
How many times a month do you go to the movies? | last thing i saw was The Punisher |
Last movie you saw? | The hitchhikers guide to the galaxy |
Who is your hero? | My MOM |
How old are your parents? | my mom is 50 and my dad is 51 |
What deceased person would you like to meet? | Joan of Arch |
Do you chew ice? | no |
Have you been to California? | no, i'm the furthest from home in NY that i've ever been |
Last book you read? | Sins of The Night by Kenyon |
Favorite teacher? | my home ech teacher from Berlin Central |
Do you like to go fishing? | YEs i do! |
How many of those do you regret? | never regret anything |
What is you average in school? | who cares |
Favorite professional team? | n/a |
Do you like mohawks? | YEAH! |
How many pairs of shoes do you own? | 2 sets of sneakers and 2 sets of military boots |
Do you floss? | not really, i should though |
Do you have braces? | nope |
Do you bite your nails? | sometimes |
What is your last thought before falling asleep? | Why can't i sleep |
Do you fall in love easily? | OH YEAH |
Ever have a crush and they never knew? | yeah, it was on Jessee hailey when i was in Berlin Central in NY |
Do you babysit? | yeah, my future neices and nephew |
Ever been shot at? | yeah. My brother who died shot me once with a pellet gun |
Do you work out/exercise? | sometimes |
Do you have 6 pack abs? | getting there. i did for most of my life. gotta get back into it |
Do you consider yourself nice? | way too much |
What movie character would you like to be? | Pandora |
Do you go to camp for the summer? | No |
Ever been bit by a snake? | no |
Have you been on a boat? | Of course. Didn't you read about the jet ski! |
Name of friend you have known the longest? | Bobby Garrison |
Do you like jumping on a trampoline? | yes my b/f's parents have one |
Ever break a bone? | tailbone |
Name of favorite Aunt/Uncle? | Aunt Renee Morris |
What is your ultimate job? | Working at the tattoo parlor in Hoosick Falls, NY |
Do you want to walk on the moon? | yeah |
Can you name the seven dwarfs? | Happy, Dopey, Sneezey, Doc, Grumpy(i have socks of him)Bashful, and that one guy |
Favorite TV show? | E! Entertainment |
Apples or oranges? | Oranges all the way |
Favorite model of car? | Monte Carlo SS |
Favorite flower? | red rose |
Favorite color? | Purple |
Besides family, ever have someone of the opp sex in your bedroom? | Well, yeah! Most of my friends are guys. I only have a few friends that are girls. They gossip too much shit |
Ever climb out your bedroom window? | Yeah |
Do you live in an apartment or house? | both, i even owned my own house by the age of 20 |
How many times in the last month have you had the hiccups? | once, and they were a bitch! |
Ever laugh so hard milk came out your nose? | not really |
How many cousins do you have? | seven that i have known. i have more in FL |
Do you believe in ghosts? | Yeah |
If you were a bird, what would you be? | gold finch |
Ever get stitches? | yeah. behind my left eye i have a light blue scar to prove it |
If you could, would you want to know what your future was going to be? | no. |
How many kids do you want to have? | i wish i could have kids |
If you could change your name, what would it be? | Pandora Aia Kaiio |
Dogs or cats? | Both |
Who do you tell your problems to? | my mom and my b/f's mom |
Who can your tell your secrets to and know they wont tell? | my cats |
Do you believe in love at first sight? | of course |
Do you go to church? | no |
Would you marry outside your religon? | sure |
Volleyball or tennis? | volleyball |
How many people were at your last party? | WAY too many to count. Some i didn't even know, but we were all fuckeds up |
Ever ride in a limo? | not really |
Ever drink champagne? | yeah a few times |
Favorite dinner? | streak! or whatever's homecooked by Oma |
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! |
Yup, it's offial. I'm adicted to the movie The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galexy!
"You zarken frude!!"
"You can survive in the galexy as long as you have a towel."
"Do you want a hug?"
"Slim, you wearin' my underwear, cuz I'm wearin' yours and they just ain't doin' the trick."
"I can calculate the chances, but you won't like it."
"Hammahkaboolah!!"
"Rubbish! We don't care about love, we want to be famous! What is this 'is she the one' trife?"
I wish it would just snow already! I've been sweating my ass off for the past 4 months now. I'm ready for snow damnit! and no small degree's just above 0. I want the deep under.
Today, i made brownies! hopefully they turn out better than the Velvet cake. the center was better than the outside, but this is better becasue brownies are supposed to be easy
Feels like the world turns very very slow at night when i go home. I have no refridgerator, so all my cold items are kept in the Adkin's fridge. I ran out of water the other night so i had nothing to drink when i went home. All my food is what needs eggs or milk or water. I have running water, but it's sulfer-water and that makes me want to puke. it's NASTY. I don't know how people can drink it. My chips are gone, so i'm out of un-cook-able foods.
So i'm waiting for the big move to Port Clinton with clenched teeth
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