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This Is Me
19:51 Nov 08 2007
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~This is me, I am what I am~



ask i walk thru life everyday

trying to find someone

that understands me

but i doubt theres one for me

i doubt ill find them

cause I'm to fucked up i always

drive them away

the people i come to love

always abandon me

they leave me alone

iin the dark to find my way agian

every person i talk to has an impact on me

I try to heed there words

i try to be friends with as many as i can

cause i dont want to be alone

I want to helppeople

I want to be there for them

when they need me

im there for you as a biddy

as a sister or brother

a shoulder to cry on

I'm anything you need me to be

despite my dark nature

I try to help as many people as i can to give them my support

given them my love, or anyting I can give, for id do it in a heartbeat

to mre the friends ui have are all special in everyway

often im told i am different from everyone else cause I stop to listen, try not to judge people

I always try to make people laugh

to keep there spirits high

i help others before i do anything to help myself

I worry about people alot

always hopeing theyll be okay, that they wont get harmed

id put myself in harms way for you

even take a bullet for u or give a lung or something

i try to do as much as i can for peoplenever really caring for myself always

for others always try to be courteous even when im pissed off

but when i am mad or suicidal or something

for all the people i love and care for, arent here for me as a shoulder to cry on

virtualy all alone when i am down

my love for all my friends , loves.... is eternal

no one has flaws for its what makes ya different from everyone its what makes you special

im told im an outgoing,fun,relentilous,humorus person,

with compassion for people

but in the inside im down broken hurt, its a true struggle to keep going each day the only reason why I'm still alive

is it would ruin my family and shit

even today i barley made it thru

school, being called a whore, and that i should die cause im a fucking

waste dont always help things

and all i did was try to be nice cause this guy was bulling

a younger female classman

and i get fucking called a whore

butthe names never stop for me

I dont think theu every will

no matter what i do

I'm also afraid if i die my friend wil lcommit suicide over me

and i dont want that I just want everyone happy is that so

fucking hard to ask?

Im cursed at love

all the fucking relationships

that ive been in ive been cheated on all but 3 time and thats out of 14

bf or gf

and i have never cheated on any of them

Ive been told im fucking compilcated well maybe i am

who fucken knows right

I have managed yet another day I always wonder how i make it

everyday thru the harrasment from everyone

but somehow,something, or someone

keeps me going

I think people dont understand me causeof my

adhd and bipolar

which makes me very fucken moody

as some of you know

I get compulsive sometimes,jealous and competitive and so on

each day is a struggle

I think totally different from you all

sometimes when i try to say something it never

comes out right

I cant understand why my fellow women

ex. like when your angry at me and you competly ignore me and i dont know wtf i did cause you wont tell me how am i suppose to fix it?

god theres so many things i dont understand

I hope you learned more about me

parts of me are fragile,parts of me are unbreakable and

part of me you may never see just depends on you



Written 11/8/07 at 12:30am

BY MICHELLE G.

My Girl
19:56 Nov 07 2007
Times Read: 932






babe

all i want is you to be happy

even if you dont

stay here with me

your brave,couragous, wild

funnny, outgoing

and so much more

I love everything

about ya girl

I love the messages

you send me telling

me you love me

Your the goddess

of my heart

you stole thy soul

all thats left is an empty hole

waiting to be filled

waiting for you to comeback

to comeback for me

and then that hole will be filled

and in it will be heaven

cause I'll be with

the girl of my dreams of my heart

you have every qualitity I wish ti have

I believe we could complete eachother

I dont know

Every emotion girl

that you make me feel is

tenfold to what it was before

so many times I think of you

as i lay awake at night

I wonder if your ok

I wonder if your happy

if the person you love makes you smile

if they make you laugh

wonders how stressed you are

with work,navy family, and life

wondering if you have

someone as your rock

Ashley thy love of thine heart

I get angry at you, sad, stressed, frusterated

but no matter how pissed I get at you

I dont close you out of my life

When I dream

I see you

I see you at your best

and even your worst

but I still love you

I believe some love is forever

and mine is

When i make you angry or sad

I dont mean to

I just want whats best

I want you to be happy

I even pray for ya girl

I pray and hope your okay,

hopeing that whatever befalls you

that you'll get thru it

cause your a fighter babe

you never let go

its one more thing I like about you

and even your persistence

theres nothing ugly about you

not even your little toe

Ashley

what you call flaws babe

are what makes everyone different

its what makes everyone special

Special in there own way.