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She said "I used to love you, but not anymore. You aren't the same person you were before. You used to be nice."



Nice. What a concept. If you acquiesce to everything another person wants to subject you to then you are nice. If not, you are an asshole.



Imagine giving and giving and giving of yourself. Sharing your home, sharing your time, sharing your heart. Imagine all of that being taken for granted. Imagine all of that being held against you.



Your home isn't good enough. Let's redecorate. Let's buy new furniture. Let's buy another home.



Your time isn't good enough. Working overtime is held against you. Your free time is neither yours nor free.



Your heart isn't good enough. Nothing about you is. She would rather be alone.



And now so do you.

It's the most wonderful time of the year... why am I feeling the opposite?



Yesterday I spent the entire day feeling soooo alone and lonely. No reason, no explanation... just lonely.



Talking to people on the phone didnt help. Talking to people in person didnt help. Could be because I felt no connection to the people I was talking with.



I thought I had more to say than 3 little paragraphs about this subject. After this much contemplation and nothing else to add this entry is done... for now.



To be continued...