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I am tired of bullshit I am the king of bullshit I can identify as one faith or another this religon or that cult it doesn't matter when I am true to myself I know its all in me even if I dont show it I am born of every belief so many times I have bumped my head and lit a fire up under my ass just to claim I am seperate from other beliefs in my christian dogmas then a take a deep breath of air and well it goes without saying because its all inside and it will rise to the surfice so the pain is real yes I have created my own personal hell dont be fooled by any of my writeings yes I am a beast yes I am a saint yes I am a dragon yes I am an angel I AM THAT I AM all up in you and you in me a little to close for comfort huh

well with all the stuff I have writen I am sure to get evil reactions it never fails speak your own truth and hate does follow besides I learn a lot from the bible so I understand when anyone gets mad its expected after all its called the holy bible but what is so holy about the knowledge of good and evil anyway it sucks the life force out of me but as above so below and as within so without

I hope I have harmed none by anything I have put in this journal I say please dont let me do anything wrong anymore in what I say and do you are in control of all the world every liveing being in this local universe is under your control I dont want to fight with you and myself anymore over free will and does and dont's because I keep comeing to the realization that its all you behind the good and the evil stop tareing me apart be good to your temples its hard for me to talk to you this way but the things you make people say and do break my lost black heart I always saw you in an innocent light please restore that trust we once had

the time is hear for me to heal within and without all the lies I dont have to destroy I learn my lessons the destruction is past and the darkness is strong but love is the greatest giver of all, hate drives in the minds of those who give satan a place but they to will see and feel the light of day and the strength of the sun so much can be argued and desputed and for what and in the end to heal and comfort the damned is all that matters the devils angels are not evil they help the one who needs love the most cant just sit back and tell my self god will fix it it all contiues to go on I must we must take action and be gods eyes and ears and except responsiblity for our creations all of them and stop acting like the problem we know how to be the problem its time to have compassion and understanding and be in the solution

you wake up and its unreal like a puppet forever on gods string nothing you do is apart from his almighty will you live your life for pleasure and love until you come out of a blackout of spiritual darkness and realise you have sinned gravely you cant believe it you refuse to accept it it troubles you it depresses you deeply your life changes and you realise its all a nightmare come true people thrive on your misery and feed the delusion it spreads like wild fire you believe the devils lies like all the world does it makes you so sick and weak no one can be trusted its all a game that no one can win you tell yourself mind over matter to be present with the lord is to be absent from the body the sin comes out though into the eyes of the proud world they live to torment you and judge messengers of satan only to fall into to the snare of the devil you wake your not guilty it was some mysterios nightmare it still wants you they still want you in a personal hell