My mother did not want me.
my father did not want me.
my brother did not want me.
nor my sisters.
my lover didnt want me
i didnt want me.
i am unlovable.
i am a abuser.
i abuse people.
i abuse animals
i abuse drugs.
i am abused.
i will never be whole.
ill never be okay.
i will never be the light i pretend to be.
i want to die.
i want to rest.
but im a coward.
im afraid.
i dont want to live anymore.
i dont want to tell anyone.
but i want to let it out.
i dont want to go on.
dont want to be strong.
i dont want to hurt anyone
but i am.
i need help.
i am sick.
no one knows.
no one cares.
good god, let me die without any pain.
let me go in peace.
COMMENTS
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ReaperSoulMate
01:27 Sep 20 2019
Some how I can agree with this deep inside my very soul
xAlicex
03:04 Sep 30 2019
So, I love how this is super and raw! However, I personaly don't agree with abusing animals EVER but..just know that you are you and no one can change that. You (alike everyone on this earth has a super big purpose on this earth) are just like anyone; like you have feelings, a life (etc.) and YOU and YOU ALONE are the only one who can be able to change yourself and the way you live your life. Yes, people including myself have been through hell but instead of laying motionless looking at the scars embrace them and love them for what they are and keep your head up and focus on your self. Like get some fresh air, drink water, walk (excersise) do whatever you got to do to make yourself better! Remember you are worth so much more than what you accredit for in your life okay? ^^