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I feel so alone, yet im surrounded by family i just feel empty. im lost i just cant figure out why i am drawn to these things, i used to think vampires and things were so fake then my junior year i had a near death crash, i flipped my car end over end, some how unharmed, ever since then i keep finding my self looking into the supernatural, i feel empty and tired, i just i want to know whats wrong with me. why cant i be truly happy.