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After him it all came back.

It slashed through my heart like a whip on my back.

Damn him to hell!!

Yet I cannot curse him with the simest spell.

Now I continue to thruogh fits.

Now I'll once again slit my teenage wrist.

No SEAN its not your doing.

But I bet you'll think of me when its her your screwing!!

I thought it was to good to be true.

I guess for believing you Im the fool.

I am a poor, pathetic, wothless nobody with nothing to do.

Except to seach for the love I thought I could get from you.

I thank Sean, for setting me free.

Now I can die of drug and alchohol abuse.

And ignore my every scare and bruse.

Its seems as though my lonliness is a curse.

But thanx to you Sean its even worse.

Without you my emotions run wild.

Without you Im merely a lost child.

Without you Im incapable of love.

Without you I cry to the heavens above.

With you I am nothing, I dont exist.

Without you I sit here cuting my wrist.

Without you there is no heaven or hell

Without you my body is just a souless shell.

Im nothing without you and that is for sure.

For all my sicknesses you are the cure.

My love for him has saved my life.

I eternally long or him to ask me to be his wife.

So long I must wait for him.

I spill my soul to the oceans and wind.

Too bad he'll never feel the cool of my touch.

To offer my heart dosent seem like much.

T'is all I have to give. . . my heart and my soul.

Im hoping his love will make my mind whole.



I once though of taking my own life.

I thought of making friends with the blade of a knife,

Or cuddle up to hangmans noose.

It seemed like I had nothing left to loose.

I once drank liquere and did drugs, to the point of hilusinationg about being attact by bugs.

I would cry out the night sky ' some one save my life'

So I now patiently wait to be his beloved wife.

Listen to the night, and hear its call.

Join me now or forever fall.

I love you so flesh, blood and bone,Join me now or me made of stone.

You dont believe, and that is fine,

would you change your mind if you saw me, flying?

Say it and it will be so,

Allow me to taste you and the blood will flow.

I'll give you power beyond your dreams,

You shall take joy in there fearful screams.

You shall have any one you want dead or alive.

You shall live the richest of lifes.

Can you imagen yourself in all silk, or swimming ina pool of honey and milk?

Listen to the howl of the lonly wlof, she calls to you,

Listen to thebats there crying out for you.

I see your paralized with fear and dont know what to do.

But fear not my love, will decide for you.Take my hand and embrace the night,

your mine, so dont try to fight.

Listen . . .Listen to the night.

It compells and calls you to join its children of the night for all eternity.

I darkly anticipate this hour.

Whensweet blood flows in showers.

Ill take part of there blood so sweet and fine,

Sleep now children your life is now mine.



Ill take thee away to a dreamy place,

Its far beyond all thought and space.

Where no pain is felt and no stentch is smelt.

Where milk end honey flow thick,

Savor it now Because It'll end quick!



For when you awake your existence is free,

You ve now no reason to fear nor flee.

Fly with me on my silky wings,

And forever take part of finer things.



Come my children, take my hand.

Feed with me our awakening is at hand.

Take part of mortal emotions,

They run deeper than any ocean.

Feel there extacy, love and pain.

Kill then all, there all the same.

Your forever my children, girl and boy.

Eternally savoring nights joy.

Part One

The time has come to spill there blood.

The time to forsake the heavens above.

As I wonder out of my crypt.

Through his throut my blade will slip.

None of you beleived me

and you were ashamed of what I claim to be. Now the blood lust grows inside,

Run away children, theres no where to hide!

Chourus

Embrace the dawning of night!

I summon Demons to assist my pligtht!

Like shadows, Im alergic to to light.

I'll tear through your flesh,

You need narcotics to supress. . .

The pain inside.

It is time to EMBRACE THE NIGHT!

Part 2

This si more than I can take.

Im sick of being beaten and raped!

Ive lost all love and hope ,

But now it seems loving was just a joke.

DOnt critisize me you fool,

Take a dive in my emotional pool.

When you dont get you way you always threw a fit!

You had a reing over me. . .This is the end of it!

As I pray to the godess "watch over me

Please be understnding enough to see."

I can't take this any more,

Im not a slut or hore!

Some one take my pain away, I guess there nothing left to say.

" Hush my precious, its just a dream.

Go ahead and try to scream,

Now your life is done!

Bring on the pain thats half the fun!



This is a song that I wrote for my exboyfriend, who critisized, and cheated on me constantly, this is for him!

He was thinkin it and I hated it but it felt good.

She was thinkin it and I hated it but it felt good to.

I knew what they both wanted it, and I really wanted it too.

But hating it at the same time kept me from knowing what to do.

They told me I'd like it and that I reallyt should.

I hate myself for doing it but

Dmn it felt good.