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i close my eyes, dancing lights apear. a coldness comes over me and tears sting my eyes. the pain is so deep now i will not soon recover from the words you spoke.

my mind is a swirling vortex of calamity. i think of nothing but insecure and undeniably aweful scenarios.

what can break this endless cycle i wonder. is there a way to live outside of my mind, if not ....do i really want to go on this way?

always there are if's and but's, what is real? is this my hell. a never ending life of self sabotage.

i silently scream...inner termoil has me by it's clutch. does everyone feel so...hopeless? so full of self loath.

are we all living for a beautiful death with flowers and happiness or is it one chance so make it what you will?

are we not but bacteria or a troublesome virus on a larger rather annoyed creature. an infected wound we are.

it never sieses to amaze me how utterly self absorbed we all are. how amazingly stupid and selfish.

why do i hate and hurt so when there is so much beauty in our world, so many people with whom to share life with.

i am my own worse enemy as we all are......but life is but a dream sweet heart.

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priscillak
21:10 Jan 31 2008

u r my best friend

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