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labled & sterotyped, made to be the bad guy

disfunctally incorrect, and i cant help but lie

possessed with a demon of unbearable pain

a lil crazy and fucked up cutter with a bleeding vein

a gothic bitch who has no soul

a suicidal teenager whose never been completly whole

dramatic lil gurl and an attention whore

mixed emotions but i dont care ne more

beaten and bruised, but even worse

daddys lil deffect and mommys lil curse

a major mess up to society

all of these things describe me

anti-socail, pushed against a wall

a whiney imperfection lil miss know it all

confused lil shadow of another

a depressed child turning into her mother

a fat highschool outcast

a broken lover holding onto the past

an error to humanity

yes this is how to describe me

the conqucence wen mom 4got the pill

a ticking time bomb trying not to feel

anerexic un4given and only 14

the 4gotten, the ignored, & the unseen

the terror that keeps u up at night

the mistake that never does ne thing right

the anti-christ the ass whose not nice

the stubborn dumbass who makes the same mistakes twice

student in the back of the class whose slowly dying

the therapy chick whose so sick of crying

im what i never wanted to be

bc all of thses things r........ me

drowning in the words u left behind

sick of all the memories in my mind

howd i get lost in u this way

i gave in thinking itd be ok

and now im internally bleeding

im so lost and un needing

this is loves suicide

let it take u on a ride

cut ur wrist 4get ur pain

it all sinks in and u go insane

my heart is broken up and bruised

i was smashed into pieces b4 being used

i wake in the night to call ur name

i know ill never be the same

i let ur lies go right out the window

let u sink ur hands into my soul

and now ur gone but im still not free

i die here wishing u were with me

this is loves suicide

let it take u on a ride

cut ur wrist 4get ur pain

it all sinks in and u go insane

ur words cut much harder then the sharpest knife

i fall everytime u walk outta my life

i look 4 u while crawling on the ground

but its only me ur no where to be found

im lsying here and im bleeding ot death

ive been wounded since the day that u left

u said "i love u" just to put it in my head

by now my emtions r surely dead

can a heart still break if its no longer beating?

i choked on every word u said that was so misleading

this is loves suicide

let it take u on a ride

cut ur wrist 4get ur pain

it all sinks in and u go insane

i lie to myself and say it does matter

but everyday i keep getiing sadder

i hate the way i cant hate you

hate the way that i cant date you

on my heart bestowed loves curse

and i took a couple turns 4 the worse

love is the slowest suicide

just from love thousands died

i scream to the sky scream above

u made me do it, im anti-love

this is loves suicide

let it take u on a ride

cut ur wrist 4get ur pain

it all sinks in and u go insane

just earse the past earse the pain

cut into his love cut thru the vein

this is loves suicide

My blood is rids me of my pain

the knife thats aiming for a vien

my pillows the resting for my tears

i hide behind my mask with all my fears

and all the pain thats in my heart

i didnt know i was bleeding whend i start?

cut me cut me watch me blleed

i dont wanna bleed but its whats i need

cut me cut me rid me of tomorrow

destroy my pain and all my sorrow

swallow swallow every pill

dont stop now my soul is ill

swallow swallow medicate my soul

make me numb make me whole

cut me cute me no more pain

cut me cut me right thru the vein

everytime theres no one to hear my cries

more of me starts to rot then it dies

darkness darkmess all around

deaths so silent i dont hear a sounds

darkness darkness all around

im laying there still on the cold hard ground

my painfull heart slows

the blood from my wrist flows and flows

im fading away my eyes i close

im fading away i take my last breath

then i lose myself and embrace death

You left me here crying again

its a game to u and ur here to win

i just let my feelings get in the way

just bc u looked at me again today

i let u stomp on this broken heart too many times

i let u call the shots and take whats thots were mine

i let u bring me down into the dark

and now im here with this broken heart

these tears r no stranger to my face

my minds pertending im in a better place

why wont sum one save me from me?

why wont god answer my plea?

i ran down my soul til it tore

i let u use me i was ur lil whore

& i cum back to u wen u put out ur hand

why i do this i dont understand

i just let my feelings get in the way

just bc u looked at me again today

i let u stomp on this broken heart too many times

i let u call the shots and take whats thots were mine

i let us bring me down into the dark

and now im here with this broken heart

my pillows wet form my pain

the knife gets dull form missing my vien

how i put up with this im goin insane

one person was my enitre world

and all i asked in return was to be ur gurl

it hurt me twice as worse bc i held on long & tight

i pretended ur lies were real and everything was right

but i couldnt take it ne more i couldnt pretend

now it feels like this broken heart will never mend

i just let my feelings get in the way

just bc u looked at me again today

i let u stomp on this broken heart too many times

i let u call the shots and take whats thots were mine

i let us bring me down into the dark

and now im here with this broken heart

I just let my feelings get in the way again

and i dont ever wanna see u again

id like to set here and tell you my life was cool

id like to set here and tell you i loved my skool

id like to set here and tell you i never cried

id like to set here and tell you i never wished to die

but i cant bc i hurt, cried,got lost, i tore

got called a bitch,lez, a stupid atention whore

i loved,got hurt,died inside, lost my heart

i closed my eyes in pure dark,totally fell apart

i lived thru my dreams tried to 4get my life

took pleasure in pains like pills and a knife

i got pushed back down and held on too long

i was reminded of you thru every broken hearted song

i smiled and faked weeks away

when they asked what was wrong i said i was ok

i hid behind this mask, no one knew i was depressed

i second guessed myself,anger and rage, i knew i was stressed

i laughed at skool then at home brokedown

lied to myself so much i never knew the differance between a smile and frown

i lived thru hell, every single heartache

i learned from my tears caused by my mistake

maybe i didnt make the best choice

maybe i held back didnt use my voice

all i wanted to do was get out ok

and live my life day by day

so maybe i didnt do it right

but i can say that i lived my life

I didnt write this poem but some guy in my class took credit for it even tho i know he didnt write it bc ive seen it on the inertnet (firehotquotes) before...so if its yours tell me



i am a person writing of pain

i am a person in a life of shame

im am your friend trapped in a world of lies

i am your boyfriend hiding my lies

i am your son hiding my depression

i am your bother tryin to make a good impression

i am your friend acting like im fine

i am a wisher wishing this life wasnt mine

i am a teenager pushing my tears aside

i am a student who doesnt have a clue

i am the guy setting next to you

i am the one always going to be there

i am your best friend hoping you'll always be there

as promised here is my poem that i wrote for an assisgnment in English and it got published in The Wildcat Express (our school newspaper)





Where once was a smile is now home to a frown

where was once was blonda hair now is blonde

i have to be differant, have to stand out

If im not perfect im society's doubt

I rip at my skin until im raw

Trying to erase every flaw

I dont want to be them, i wanna be me

Want to walk around in yesterdays make up feeling free

"do this" "buy this" "look like her"

Killing us within, such murder

Starving ourselves to be thin

Dying insaide just to fit in

Getting surgery to remove our past

Now theres a new trend, nothing last

Youd think one day theyd just give up

Youd think one day theyd have enough

But as long as the world keeps spinning

The media will keep on winning

And people will keep sellin thier souls

Just to belong and feel whole

If your unhappy then go fix your face

My materialistic world, such a happy place!

i wish i could 4get u and u werent in my mind

i wish i could 4get u turn back time

i wish i could 4 get u and just move on

i wish i could 4get u pretend that u r gone

i wish i could 4get you thats the right thing to do

i wish i could 4get u but i still love you

i wish i could 4get u so i didnt have to hurt

i wish i could 4get u u make me feel like dirt

i wish i could 4get you like u were never there

i wish i could 4get you wish i didnt care

i wish i could 4get you make u go away

i wish i could 4get u i cant stand to see u look at me that way

i wish i could 4get you just like u did me

i wish i could 4get u but its not that easy

i wish i could 4get u and left things unsaid

i wish i could 4get u and get u outta my head

i wished and wished with all my might

that some how id 4get and turn out alright

and i guess my wish must ahve came true

bc im settin here happy, i ahve 4gotten YOU!