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I am grateful for the friends I have made on vampire rave, and I apologize for having been away for so long, I should hope that this is the true return of Laath Swei.

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CryingMist
10:20 Aug 05 2011

yeah long time no chat lol

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I've come to find that presently I have lost parts of myself to a deep kind of bitterness, consumes with fear and insecurity. I wish to have what others have without knowing what I myself have, though even now I do not know. I've no confidence, I tell others my weaknesses, I secretly hurt myself for not being more like those I admire. I will be on the rave more often, until I finally go away, when that happens I will be away for at least 8 weeks, I will then return as soon as I have the opportunity. Hopefully a different person, a different view. He who wrote the poems of old is comatose. He who wrote words of wisdom Is comatose. He who suffered and cried out in pain is comatose. my emotions feel only comatose. I do not wish to be bitter anymore, I do not wish to be cold, uncaring, angry, spiteful. Perhaps the hardships that I have put myself willing into will help shape me for the better, perhaps they will be what I need in order to obtain inner peace, so that I may show everyone the true me that I have always wanted to show. the true me that I have always wanted to know. For even now I do not know what my true self is.