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* New Moon Magic *



New Moon workings can be done from the day of the new moon to three-and-a-half days after. The new moon is for starting new ventures, new beginnings. Also love and romance, health or job hunting.



* Waxing Moon Magic *



From seven to fourteen days after the new moon.The waxing moon is for constructive magick, such as love, wealth, success, courage, friendship, luck or health.



* Full Moon Magic *



From fourteen to seventeen-and-a-half days after the new moon. Prime time for rituals for prophecy, protection, divination. Any working that needs extra power, such as help finding a new job or healing for serious conditions, can be done now. Also, love, knowledge, legal undertakings, money and dreams.



* Waning Moon Magic *



From three-and-a-half to ten-and-a-half days after the full moon.The waning moon is used for banishing magick, for ridding oneself of addictions, illness or negativity.



* Dark Moon Magic *



From ten-and-a-half to fourteen days after the full moon. The dark moon is a time for ridding oneself of bad habits, Binding spells, for exploring our darkest recesses and understanding our angers and passions. Also bringing justice to bear.

It is rainng and it is storming and it is oh so yummy.

Work was hell but I got to talk to my boooo.

He wrote me this..... I did not get it at work but wow Max is nummys



You make my heart sing



It dances and cheers to hear your name



Beating and pounding so hard in my chest



The feeling and vibes I get from you are intoxicating it almost makes me weep



Weep with joy for it's too good to be anything less



You set my spirit free and it feels oh so alive



Roaming around in the open plains of your love



Like a wild stallion that can only be tamed by the Goddess that is you



You have tamed my heart and it now belongs to you and only you



That is my oath and promise to you



My love, my soulmate, my friend, my Goddess eternal







*smiles with love*



Those my dear are my vows to you.







I feel like I am on cloud nine and wow meow le purrrr I love him so much! He makes me laugh and smile and sighs deeply he is my best friend and more...

So my day is now wonderful!

For I am loved by a man that loves me..

(listening to sweet sacrfice)

Cindy a co worker's son wanted me to sing. She

never heard me sing. She was like ummm you have a great voice. She said you

should have sung at the talent contest. LOL I said um no. I have been asked a

few times to sing with bands and I cannot for one I am not into singing to the

masses I sing to myself. She never heard me sing before. Her son did not like

the serphim song but she was in shock. She did not know I could sing. LOL I am not good with huge crowds.

I had to brag for it made me laugh and yet smile too. For I am not for going on a stage and singing. When I was a kindergoth yeah had no worries or anything . Now yeah not happening ever. LOL Not a American idol fan,she suggested that. Whatever I think not… grrr public eye forever?? Not me for I am uhhh not that type. I like not being noticed for a reason .

Ehh I had that as a plus size model why do that again? Ahhh no!



Work has been interesting we had our manager for half days last week she was not here for about three hours and bam she left. I am stuck here until 800 pm thinking and rethinking the situation she has a type of virus that her immune system is weaker then an aids patient.

You would think being in the health industry that you would take care of yourself better and show forth the love of self. But when it comes to her eating habits and her lack of care for self it shows worse then I do. At work I don’t show off and get glam there is no point in a place such as this. People losing their jobs over stupid stuff and then moving forward with worse issues. People are tired and frustrated and wow. I get that I even am. But I hold out for one I just found a cheapier place to live and I have to get that first  I am excited about that so I am all about that.

Tomorrow I put down the money I have and if I get it then I am movinggggggggggg! Hehe to a brighter place in the sense of human form and they have all kinds of people not just artists drs lawyers and such all walks of life. Where I have been living is uh hood like school orientated and party people.

I found out tonight Corey says some of the coworkers drag my name down for I am not their friends nor do I care to be there friends. I show her the manager if there is something wrong. I give her examples and they hate it for I do my job right and they don’t. Do I care? no why should I? I said Michele dislikes me and I am okay with that. I don’t care just let me do my job and I will ignore them. He looked at me. He said yeah they do talk about you a lot for they don’t see the shit you go thru on a daily basis and Michele if she hears bad stuff abut me does not correct me of fix it if there is something wrong. So if they are offended when I say I am not their friends. I am co workers. I don’t hang with people who dislike me. I don’t care for them nor the gossip and Corey saw this and sees I don’t talk badly about anyone. HE is a Christian and he said for a pagan you are more Christ like then them. I said thank you I think… It was a weird moment for Corey to say.

I laughed and said umm if you ever want to go to the dark side let me know. :)

hehe yeah my day in the nut shell

Ehh work was like hey what are you going to be doing after 430pm? Uhhh going home.....Why?

I have done two weeks overtime and I am sorry my body cannot handle it anymore :)

Heck I was called Michelle's slave and thenafter that I was like I call bullshit on that. One for she is not my master and two when I offer my services that is because I need something :P. I am not her slave or a slave. I said slavery was in my veins for I am black irish and native indian. Can you please tell me what the frick she was thinking? EW

Anyways today I left on time and all I was thinking and hoping was Max will be on. Eh for not. POUTS

I miss my sunshine. He makes me laugh and smile and makes life worth while.

We discussed in two years from now where we may move to. Hmm imagine that. I love him and he loves me enough not to push it but to think about it. :)

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

How are you doing? Well I am not another work week of overtime which yes will help me get closer to my new home in Riverside. My roomie is moving on his on near his woman which I am happy for him and seriously happy for he will be taking care of himself.. Which is needed.so he can grow to his potential and I can get back to clients with on massage and Reiki and enjoy seeing people heal and grow it .

I miss walking around naked and seriously not having to worry if someone is coming in..

So I am seeing this as a positive thing for both of us. I am looking forward to my apartment and to my new living arrangement being cheapier and a lot more space. Heck yeah!

I am hoping that I wont have crazy college student that drink and drug out and then look at you like not only are you the girl next store but a piece of meat that walks alone and with her dog and her dog doesn’t like your kind. Lol I have never been looked at like that but it was different I was wearing jeans and a t shirt and walking my dog and he a guy from the party house apartment looked at me like damn look at that. He watched me walk by and continued to watch me and I thought in my head wow that is a first. So I realized a size 22 is getting closer to the original goal .::hhmmm::: I have always known I was cute but damn not recently and that was just wow weird for the man is a thin little slut puppy of a man and okay a bit taller then I but eww..

Some of my coworkers also are creepy like one who body sculpts and designs his body. His name reminds me of dog rufus but the women swoon over him. He reminds of a jock. Sadly the man was named in Jax as a single guy great catch and well everyone seems to like him. I was turned off by his whole weirdness of coming up to me at lunch or on break and trying to make conversation. He is a manager. So he was outside a booth where I was buying a silver chain and his broke. I asked if he had a lobster claw or a regular clasp. He did not know so he whipped out with it. I said you just need the jeweler glue and a crimping tool. He asked what that was and he was like hey can you fix it? I did the no you can get a jeweler to do it. I looked at him and he said what. I said for a man it is odd you don’t know anything about tools.. He said well I am not the average man. I said yeah and I am so not impressed. I looked at him like how do you not know how to fix things? It is in a guys nature to have tools or build fires or have the primal passion? Yeah okay this guy is a walking hormone but now after talking to him I realized he gets away with looks and being nice to people. A few weeks later I saw him dancing in the hall way in front of women and they were heheing and I looked him up and down and did the wow you are a crazy human. So he knows I think he is nuts and wow way too into his self. .As is Mark and he too also wants to communicate with me. Odd thing is neither amuse me at all in the brain. Neither one impress me and I really like a man I don’t know at all in person. If I actually worked with him I think I would make him fire me. God he is a prick too. Way too into his self. (shakes head)

Now things going on in my head…I have been dating online Max for four months. He was sad, faithless and oddly enough more moody then me. I am not sure why I am surprised time has flown so fast and yet he has changed in such ways that it is simply just getting better and better watching time go by with him in a sense. Anyways he is learning about the spiritual realm and well he chose a god I m very proud to say Anubis.

He is less sad and well less moody.. hehe Anyways I made him a package to which I have to mail to his sister’s house for some reason. But then he goes and does something like this



lol, I'm sure I will. ;)



God I love you.



*kisses you deeply*



--- On Thu, 5/15/08, tschwab@medservco.com wrote:

From: tschwab@medservco.com

Subject: RE: part two 05/14/08

To: ravenousvampyre@yahoo.com

Date: Thursday, May 15, 2008, 1:22 PM

you will like the blankie I made muahaha



WOW iit put me in awe and rapture and shock a lot of shock hehe. I got so red in the face at the work place that some one at work mentioned I was red and wondering what I was talking about. Frankly I am glad she did not for I was thinking oh wow he said god and I love you. That is HUGE. He did it on how he felt and wow it was powerful moment for me.

So I never stop creating, never stop thinking, never stop growing, that is what is all about. Love and being in love. To never stop dreaming the dreams of many and yet never know really truly love is. Is it just a spiritual thing emotional thing and or a physical thing? If so then I have never met this man in person. Never talked to him and yet on the internet I met this man who says I love you and really means it. So I never stop dreaming that maybe one day I might not meet him in my dreams but hear his voice, look into his eyes and see what he is all about. For a moment in time the world would stop just so I can see what it is inside this man that makes me feel so damn alive. :)

So today has been a day of reflection and pondering and oh my god what the heck happened to the time. Reflection of this week.

Since our manager is sick and in the hospital… Corey and I are expected to do things while she is away. Like me do reports and Corey do the faxes. 2050 faxes which took out of our time to do what we are normally supposed to do triage. So we are down two days and then some… Now that it is the weekend. Or should I say Sunday. 

Anyways I got to see Shauna on Tuesday and she was omg eating a lot. You can tell she is eating for two now. She has three more months and she is going to have a child. I am surprised how nervous she is even though she has all the books and all the stuff that you can think of. for the baby. Between the husband and her they are not only computerized on what to do and get they are also getting their lists together. They are ready for the baby however, they are not prepared for the fear they feel about being first time parents. Will they be like their parents? Or will they do better? Will they be worse? I guess most new parents go thru things like this but because I was a nanny children don’t scare me. What scares me is the society we live in and how children turn into monsters that want to hurt their teachers, teacher sexually abusing children, children killing or raping children. I know that they are going to be good parents I just cannot express anything for I am not a parent.

After work Tim has been kind enough to take me home after work and well I must say the man is cheapier then getting a cab nightly so I took him up on the offer. Tim is a friend that used to be a boyfriend. I have not dated anyone since him until Max and well Max and I are online so it I think is well. Four months and counting. I care about him and well even though Tim hit on me and asked me to get back with him. I was like no I cannot Max and I are seeing each other and well I care deeply about him and he makes me feel alive. I cannot disrespect him . I am sorry. He has not dated since we broke up and well I figured if we were friends we could get over the hump of the we dated thing. I had no clue he cares that much for me still that he had to try and I said no. I love Max I cannot go backwards I am moving forward thanks. He was hurt but understood. We were to get married but he never got his shit together. He never got an of his goals done, and on top of he was racist. I was not sure why for his parents were not that way but that is okay. He is like so many others of race. Disliking others for their skin is different. Not mixing races and making new races. It is a powerful statement needless to say if you know you love another and the skin or race is not a problem. It is neat to see these children grow and expand into a race of people that know race is not the issue but people are the issue..

5/12/08

I was by myself for a few hours so I did what the higher upper said do over time and so I did . I was stunded for we had 2 people late and 1 called out. So I did all I could and got as far as I could without choking anyone.  Office work got to love notttttttttttttt

Okay ladies and women of all kinds.. I have a bone to pick with the grandmas of the world hehe. They have those reallyyyyyyyyyyy ugly moo moo cottony pastel things we like to make fun of and really don’t understand why they wear them.Well as my luck would have it. My ex boyfriend’s mother got me some of these really odd things and well the colors are nasty pink yellow and so on I did the shiver why?

She thought you would like them for you will see when your roommate is not around wear one and find out. My ex did not know what she meant of it and neither did I. She is a dear lady and well I told Tim about my roomie that looks at me like I am a piece of meat and well though he is a slut puppy I could never touch him on that fact alone plus well he is not all that and a bag of chips nor do I want to jump something I would like to call the little brother.. So one day while doing clothes and out of jammies that were nightmare before xmas. I was like why not? I will wear the pink one and see what this moomoo thing is about…Yes I put on the pink one. I am normally a nudest but never while he is around so I did the okay let me see. I put this thing on and walk around in it noticing the color it freaked me out but the feellllll was freedom. So I wore it while doing laundrey not realizing it was on any more for I actually was typing up in a book I am writing..

So here I am typing away and doing the listening to music while typing and the door opens and Roger my roommate walks in stops in his tracks drops his cell phone and literally does the jaw dropping what the fook look. The sheer factor of him doing that alone was priceless. The man says and I quote”pink? You are wearing pink? Are you okay????” I turned and stopped typing and said yes I am why? He looked at me and said you are wearing pink you never wear many colors less alone pastel.. Did someone die?”

I smiled and said no. I got this from a friend to try and see if I like it and thought okay why not? He picked up his phone and closed the door and started talking to his newest sex toy / girlfriend whatever and said I think my roommate is not happy or maybe she is too happy. She is wearing pink!!!!



::Blinks::: Grandmothers of the world next time you have a fun toy like this and make people think and still remain nude don’t not share the gold make sure we know about it for omg that was so cool.Plus some of them have pockets so you can put crystals in them and walk around nude it is awesome. Stupid moo moo thingy!!! Hehehe. Ahhh life so cool.. It is almost as cool as the rejection line you give the number to at the clubs you go to for you know the man asking for your number is really only wanting sex. He may be creepy or worse too evil for words so you give that number to him and you walk off . The number when you call it proceeds to tell the stalker slash crazy human mundane to freakin stop the bullshit and tells them off. It is a great tool I never leave home without and yes is programmed into the cell phone. Why?? Because I go to the club to dance get drunk lol and not get laid for well this generation of people are nuts..Or I am just too old for the crap. Lol 36 years old and really don’t care that I look 20 something you aren’t tasting me unless you are worthy..



Most men aren’t so worthy of a one night stand less alone more then that . I learned after I was 25 years old that men are wonderful for one thing in Florida sex or relationship. They don’t actually believe in dating or romancing or spoiling a woman. I am originally from NY the men do all the above and then some. I am not a snot nor do I hate men but the area of Jax the men really aren’t worthy. Yeah they are cute to look at but really keep it? Ehhh I like being single again and dating is all I do. I am not into the relationship thing except for Max. Which is online and well I like it a lot actually. It is male companionship without the bloody mess of dealing with stupid males.. Yes they do exist.. Smart men and they are handsome and they are very neat. Wow !!! Just not in Jax FL is all. Snickers..

So he goes out, I go out we talk for hours on end and then I go to sleep. Lol it is perfect actually.. I understand why people do that. He is phobic of commitment but can easily do it on line. I am phobic about handsome intelligent men for normally they are more dangerous then most smart cute guys.. I did not know what he looked like and when I did I did the do what? Why? Huh? What is wrong with him?

Nothing but the fact that he is afraid of a real a relationship. Ehh so luck would have we are perfect for each other for dating him in person would be interesting. He is too pretty and could easily snap me out of being mad at him. As flipper would say eheh…

I probably even would be submissive and well that is unheard of for me. Why? Lol a man who is stubborn as me and intelligent and pettier then me looking at me all goofy looking mmmmm… that would be bad. But I might like it. Who knows?. Maybe one day I may.

Shrugs…

Soooooooooooo work the wtf place.. I do about five jobs in a day meaning I do pull off five personal hats and still do my main job.... Our boss knows we are all over worked and do work well as a tell tail sign we argue but laugh it off. which is cool. So we are like family... So she pulls us into the office and tells us we are going to be on the phones. And still do our jobs and still someone how do the expectations of the quality they put in place..Our work is down sizing and forcing people to quit. But hey some of us don’t want to leave till we are done with school..Can you say the company was stupid to listen to a ceo that knew nothing of growth ????aaaaaaaaaaaand get a new place to move when the company is in debt? 13 million dollars worth of move for four floors of which now our floor is looking less and less like what it used to be..Why? because they cannot afford it…And then the outsource and screw up the customer service. Thinking cheapier work in India why not? Lol please with out true customer service there is no hope for growth!

Can you say screwed and they are trying to make us run so we don’t get paid a compensation??? So yes they fucked up and now they are trying to force people to leave in a sense that if you are not doing your job then you are gone.

Wish again for you had bad luck on the last one right?

Ehh such is the modern world of cooperate America.

Humans! Mundanes! Muggles? Anywaysssssssssssss the new moon must be out for omg work has been not the normal busy Thursday but a freak nightmare. For example Josie has been away for three weeks and we were going to hang out for lunch. So I waited and the old manager JC came up and said hello no shi- two seconds later WS comes out of no where and is talking to Josie. The mannnnnnnnnnn fired her ass and she got a job with a different part of the company. Then he cornered me and asked me with others JC and another high up person asking about rumor mills. Now he acts like nice like nothing ever happened and Josie is too nice. So she was talking to the bast--- and I was looking at him like do what??? You are nice to her you threatened her and threatened me and you fired her and you act like nothing happened. wtfeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I am over the professional world lol wow am I . They really are the rat race of the world...