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Posers disgust me.

If any one else tells me what I can and cannot do or say I am going to stick a dagger in their head and watch the blood run down. Fo'real.

How can someone else tell me that life isn't all that bad? How can they tell me things are going to get better? How can they tell me I control what life does to me? I don't feel I have very much control. I think LIFE treats me the way it wants to ... yeah I may be able to alter it, but if I don't let things happen naturally ... you never know the bad could be stirring something up. People that tell me how I need to run my life and life isn't the worst thing in the world need to get a fucking reality check because do they know what I have been through? You know, I just don't think they do.

Every one has always asked me why do I cut my wrists? I have always answered the same way to change emotional pain into physical pain. Plus when I cut I don't feel the pain, I just feel the release. I have given up cutting because deep down in my heart I don't want to die. If you have tried to kill yourself before and you aren't dead then you didn't really want to kill yourself. That's how I look at it.

You know what I am totally sick of? I am sick of people looking at my wrist and telling me I cut the wrong way. To be honest with you, I don't think there is a right way to cut your wrists. If you are going to cut to kill yourself then you are going to make sure you do it. There is no right way, if you want to die you will die.