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I react the way that I do because I grew up being bullied, molested and beaten since I was born. All this started before I was a year old.

You do not get to tell me I am being childish. I never was a child. Never. So who are you to bully me and judge when you do not know my story.

I'm not afraid of you or anyone. Not of telling the story just ready to spill forth from my lips.

I was beaten, molested, kidnapped and nearly murdered before I reached 6 years of age. By whom you are probably asking..by the man who fathered me.

Because of this, my awakening on a spiritual level was forced. I emplore you to open your mind to a whole new realm of possibilities and ideals. I knew exactly who I am and what I am at 6 years old.

For 17 years people have abused me, bullied and beat me on every level..but the mental abuse is what broke me.

Try to understand from this perspective. Having an awakening, being empathic and suffering from abuse all at once.

So no, I never was a child. I knew exactly who I am. I am all that I claim. You can rant and rave all you want. Kick like a bucking stallion and yet you will never understand who I am.

I never wanted it. I was always it. I cannot change what is not can anyone being all that I am. If I could not be it..trust me id be happier.

But I fight for it because only I can be me. I remember. So please stop claiming what you cannot be. You do not have the control, memories, soul or energy to do so.

I am unique. My stories are long and painful. I do not wish the things I have experienced upon anyone. I can feel the earth. Her spinning. Hear her song.

Then.. in whispers..come the voices of the realms..ar first..then louder and more hectic..finally a chaotic chorus of voices. The pain riddled people.

My soul is tearing apart over and over and I weep red.

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StazCharlieBLOOd
09:26 Apr 22 2018

I'm really sorry to hear that

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QueenZombiee
10:07 Apr 22 2018

I'm really sorry because all happened to you. No one deserves such life without peaceful childhood. They take that from you :( but I'm glad you stayed normal and you learned how to fight for yourself. You seem like strong young woman ~hugs you tightly ~

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Mindie
00:20 Apr 23 2018

I agree with queenzombie. I hope you can fight against those who do that to children. Those who do that to children, shouldn't live.

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How hard is it for you men..no..boys I mean.. to understand that I have a husband. I explain this in my profile and my portfolio shows my family and yet you have the gall to ask me if I have a husband.

Wtf is wrong with you.

Messaging me despite that I have pictures of my family and stating in my profile.. I AM MARRIED.

To blatantly and stereotypically specify male standards on how a woman should be and look like is fucking horrible.

A woman is a woman. The concept of beauty is not based on a man's specific expectations. The man is not deemed superior nor inferior to us either bit nor should they uphold crazy ideals on how we should be.

Women everywhere should not be suppressed nor chosen for how skinny she is. Every woman is beautiful. Every curve. Every line etched on their face showing wisdom and years to share.

Technically the beauty of a woman is curvy with all the flaws. That is perfection. You sir are fucking stupid and low life scum.

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hannahrose
10:54 Apr 16 2018

I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU, HE IS NOTHING BUT A NASTY HORRID UNPLEASANT CREATURE.

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eviltwintoo
19:02 Apr 21 2018

Omg I'm so fucking angry now! Who is this douche?

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Try as you might, but, you cannot bring me down. It is just a number. You make me laugh. ^.^

You child, tamper with something way beyond your mortal abilities to control. No one channels me. I am I and you are you. A simple and unique soul. But not me. Sorry to burst your bubble.

As I said. I am who I was, are, and always shall be. A Primordial beyond your comprehension. I'm the beginnings my child, there was only Darkness.

A place voided of light, time and matter. Energy there was. Chaos was a whole separate being.

You do not carry the memories. You do not carry my soul. You are just a child. Still learning.

You cannot connect to Erebus as I already have him. Locked in eternal embrace. Lovers by night. Husband, wife and parents by day.

Can you see the realms as I do my dear? Your eyes never closing. Always watching.

The past
The variations of the present
The future that always changes.

Do you long for the stars and the coming of night as I do. Sitting under the Tree of Life and talking of times gone past?

Can you push aside the veil...reach through the mirror and touch the simple of a newborn not of this realm?

Have you walked the battlefields. Your heart heavy and your eyes full of tears under,the dusk sky.

Can you hear the prayers and the wailing of the people? Have you carried death upon your sword and drove it through another man's heart?

Do you touch the life lines flowing through us all?

Walking the infinite realms....

No. You do not. Why? Because you are not ME. You are a silly child who claims to be that only I am.

Now go and live your life. Leave my soul to me.

I am annoyed. You claim to know the truth but in actuality the truth you are blinded from. I am who I claim to be. Dont like it? Not sorry. I will get beyond pissed off at those claiming my titles. I have the memories. The soul. The abilities. So. Fuck off. People reading this. Do not need your input. I am only venting at the ridiculous and highly funny child.

I was there. I was here. I am here. I am and shall always be.

You who claim to know what only I am. Makes you pretty stupid. I do not claim it with pride, only agressive ownership. Do I like it? Hell no. Do you really think I enjoy all of your voices in my head. The pain. The sorrow. The death. Watching it and looking upon helplessly. Feeling the earth and all her pain you put her through.. go through me in waves of pain and torture.

Would you like my eyes? To watch empires rise and fall with the tide of time? To know war and blood. To hold death close to your heart. In your arms. To be the goddess and know you are doomed?

So please. Take it from me. You cannot be me because you would be consumed..and your soul no more.

So. Stop claiming it. You think its easy? Try me.