~*SCREAMS*~
Sorry... had to be done.. feeling much better now though heheh :P
So many things we take for granted in this life. Our basic needs met, we dare not dream for more. We settle.
Personally, I have always been the one with my head in the clouds. Never satisfied with less than wholeness..forever searching for just that little bit more...so certain that it's out there. Reality may leave me bleeding and broken, but I WILL emerge from it..BETTER, STRONGER, and more determined than ever to BE, HAVE, LIVE!
In light of my most recent Blessings of Friendship, Love, Trust, Respect, Joy, and Peace..I have found my WILL once more!
I've experienced just a taste of what is possible, and it has left me wanting more!
I wish to LOVE without regret
I wish to LIVE without fear
I wish to TRUST without hesitation
I wish to GIVE without obligation
I wish for Acceptance without judgement, Forgiveness without conditions, Wisdom without conceit.
This may seem alot to ask, but I only ask it of myself.
With Mother's Guidance and Blessing I am WORTHY of all that I challenge myself to be.
It is my WILL to be exactly that.
It is my WILL to share that with those who matter most to me, and you know who you are..
My intention is set.
~Praises be to the Lord and Lady for their gracious gifts of wisdom love and light~
Blessed Be!
"Escape"
She Loves Him
He Loves Her
Not the forever kind of love
But mutual admiration
Understanding
Laughter
Escape
She Knows Him
He Knows Her
Not deep soulful kind of knowledge
But mutual familiarity
Comfortable
Friendly
Escape
She Wants Him
He Wants Her
Not the possessive kind of want
But a mutual hunger
Passionate
Uninhibited
Escape
She beckons
He is there
A mutual need fulfilled
Sated
Relieved
A moment in time
"Escape"
Home
In a time that was not a time
In a place that was not a place
There you were in my soul
Beautiful green meadows
A strong Northern Gale
The winds of enchantment and knowledge
Do not believe what you see
But see what you believe
With my final breath drawn that day
I spoke your name
Knowing we'd be together again
The taste of that last kiss
Lingers on my lips still today
So many times my heart has wept
With longing for you
You were always there,
Yet your presence never revealed to me
Reborn with the innocence of a child
I could not know you then
I found myself once more
In a time that is not a time
In a place that is not a place
Praying to the only God I knew
For guidance, answers, healing
For a heart and soul that seemed broken beyond repair
And you were there...
I was drawn to you instantly, though
The reason I could not comprehend
I was searching for nothing but hope
Instead I found life
Even now, sometimes it's unclear
How we got here.
Our journey is centuries old,
Yet is still in its infancy
We've come full circle, my darling
Our Great Mother really does listen and answer,
no matter what name you call her
For she brought you to me,
Even though I didn't know Her or Honor Her
For who She is
She has brought me countless blessings in you
I loved you then
And love you still
Forever from this moment on
Eternity is our will
Thinking of Him
Often she finds herself drifting
Soaring to a new level of awareness
The reality of now fading away
All that remains, her thoughts of him
Floating through existence on
The pleasing sound of his voice
The electricity of his touch
Swept away by his burning kisses
The warmth of his embrace
Carried through her days
By the memory of his face
His brilliant smile
Blazing eyes
The strength of his love
The heat of his desire
The passion in his soul
Lost in her dreams
Forever, thinking of him
Weakness
Love is not weakness
Friendship is not weakness
Loyalty is not weakness
Devotion is not weakness
Compassion is not weakness
Generosity is not weakness
Forgiveness is not weakness
For those that may characterize these traits as my weaknesses, I assure you, these are assets that make me one of the strongest women I know. I have endured many hardships in this lifetime, and yet I AM. Pushing ahead, moving forward, however slow the pace.
Fear is weakness
Blame is weakness
Even self preservation is weakness.
When we carry burdens from our past into our present, whether they be past obligations or emotional scars, they are damaging. There are certain people in my life, family, friends, PACK, that I am just there for, no matter what the circumstances. I am PROUD to be STRONG enough to be that kind of woman.
While you were Sleeping
In my dreams, I watch over you
While you are sleeping
Many nights I feel your restless soul
Troubled by memories of a fate you perceive to be unfulfilled
I want to protect you, comfort you,
Love you.
And I do.
As best I can.
This morning was different
I lay there watching you
While you were sleeping
There was a new sense of peace about you
A renewed feeling of hope filled my heart
I cant tell you how grateful I was
To witness and experience that shift in your soul
While you were Sleeping.
Stronger Than Love
We've both walked this Earth
Searching for love that burns
Intense and Passionate
What we've found
Is that kind of love doesn't endure
It's fire consumes your soul
Leaving nothing but ashes
What we have runs much deeper
Contentment, friendship
A deep and true love
Flowing consistently
Weaving its way through our hearts
Peaceful, Warm
Steady
Our bond is sacred
Remaining constant throughout time and space
Individually, we have our weaknesses
As well as our strengths
Combined, we are stronger than Love
Although at the moment
What I once thought was beautiful
I now find repulsive
My peaceful soul wont allow it
To remain that way forever
You're an important part of my life
A place for you in my heart
Will always be
Special
Cherished
Loved.
I have so much I want and need to express
But if whatever you claimed to feel for me ever was real
You already know
I am angry.
I am hurt.
I will heal.
Though these emotions cloud my judgement
I will find clarity
I will find peace
And soon
I will forgive you
I will forgive myself
I will find my way to be the friend I always have been
The strength to stand on my own again.
And lift you as well, if you should ever need me
I'm not there yet
Nor will I be for awhile
But I'll get there.
Time heals.
Distance heals.
Hearts heal.
As will we.
It is a whole new book.
Not ours.
But yours.
And mine.
Let's not repeat the same old chapters.
The same worn out pages.
We deserve better.
May the Goddess Bless You Always..
~Dedicated
Within My Soul
Skyclad and Kneeling before My Mother
My skin glistening with Her purest oils
My soul laid bare, awaiting Her scrutiny
As She makes Her presence known
I pause in my prayer
Raising my arms in Her honor
I find my inner stillness
My heart fills with love and gratitude
And there I stay
Absorbing Her Blessing
I feel Her smiling upon me
Her Love, Pure and Warm
Bathing in Her Light
I smile back at Her
Knowing that I have pleased Her
I have honored Her with every step I took today
I thank Her for the Gifts
She has so generously instilled in me
Beauty, Passion, Love, Strength, Endurance, Wisdom, Grace
Peace, Forgiveness
And most of all
Her Essence, Ever Present
Within My Soul.
~Miakoda~
07/27/07
I'm really feeling a lot of schtuff lately and feeling like I should be journaling again. I'm just so lacking inspiration to put things into words effectively as of late. I think I might go through some of my old journals both on and off of here and see if something rekindles a spark of talent hahaha. I'll probably post some of my older ramblings here so if you've read them before... sorry but tough.. if not.. enjoy! Hopefully soon I'll have some new poetry or something falling out of my currently feeble mind.
~Blessings
COMMENTS
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Apocapus
17:26 Apr 17 2009
I'm Glad!
I'll Join You......*SHRIEKS!!!!!!*
That felt nice....