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R.I.P Ryan........i will still always love you in my heart and soul, i will fucking miss you *cries*

well i made a little tribute vid to Buffy and Spike......i love the show buffy the vampire slayer ^_^

here is the link =]

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=R7l_u6fl4ug

well i just love the song basically its by static-x the meaning of the word Otsegolectric is -

1. The act of being sick, demented and/or sleeze.

2. The fact that you are sick, demented and/or sleeze.



and here are the lyrics to the song......



You sold yourself

You sold yourself

You sold your soul

You make your hell

Cross this line, you waste away

Steal and cheat, all day



Otsegolectric



What is mine, I'm electric

Face staring, back at me

Cross this line, you are sick

You are sick, I know it



Otsegolectric



Screaming, scratching

Pounding

Giving, getting

Through me

Crawling, balling

Falling

Giving into

Sinning



Take all day, suck all day

Worm away, turn away

You are sick, I know it

You are sick, you are sick

well not that im a nickelback fan lol! i just like the lyrics on this song ^_^



"Too Bad"



Fathers hands were lined with dirt

From long days in the field

And mothers hands are serving meals

In a café on Main Street

With mouths to feed

Just trying to keep clothing on our backs

And all I hear about is

And how it's so bad, it's so bad



[Chorus:]

It's too bad, it's stupid

Too late, so wrong, so long

It's too bad that we had no time to rewind

Let's walk, let's talk

Let's talk



You left without saying goodbye

Although I'm sure you tried

You call the house from time to time

To make sure we're alive

But you weren't there

Right when I'm needed you the most

And now I dream about it

And how it's so bad, it's so bad



[Chorus x2]



Father's hands are lined with guilt

For tearing us apart

Guess it turned out in the end

Just look at where we are

We made it out, we still got clothing on our backs

And now I scream about it

And how it's so bad, it's so bad



[Chorus x2]



Long time, let's walk, let's talk



oooo and this one haha! SEX!!! HAHA!



"S.E.X."



[Verse 1]

"No" is a dirty word,

Never gonna say it first,

"No" is just a thought that never crosses my mind.

Maybe in the parking lot,

Better bring your friend along,

Better rock together than just one at a time.



[Chorus]

S is for the simple need.

E is for the ecstasy.

X is just to mark the spot,

Because that's the one you really want.

(Yes!) Sex is always the answer, it's never a question,

'Cause the answer's yes, oh the answers (Yes)

Not just a suggestion, if you ask a question,

Then it's always yes. Yeah!



[Verse 2]

I'm loving what you wanna wear,

I wonder what's up under there?

Wonder if I'll ever have it under my tongue?

I'll love to try to set you free,

I love you all over me.

Love hearin' the sound you make the second you're done.



[Chorus]

S is for the simple need.

E is for the ecstasy.

X is just to mark the spot,

Because that's the one you really want.

(Yes!) Sex is always the answer, it's never a question,

'Cause the answer's yes, oh the answers (Yes).

Not just a suggestion, if you ask a question,

Then it's always yes. Yeah! (YES)

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.



[Chorus]

S is for the simple need.

E is for the ecstasy.

X is just to mark the spot,

Because that's the one you really want.

(Yes!) Sex is always the answer, it's never a question,

'Cause the answer's yes, oh the answer's (Yes).

Not just a suggestion, if you ask a question,

Then it's always yes. Yeah! (YES)

(Yes!) Sex is always the answer, it's never a question,

'Cause the answer's yes, oh the answer's (Yes).

Not just a suggestion, if you ask a question,

Then it's always yes. Yeah! (YES)

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.



YES!

ok i fucked someone off last night......out of my own stupidity, here is my big apology to him.........meh i dont think he will forgive me for being such a bitch........snd mainly for being so stupid for upsetting him............



ok listen darling.....i am really sowi, for saying that shit to you and being a big mean bitch to you, and thinking it is clever to be high etc......the truth is i know it isnt good =[ its just stupid and im soooo immature and telling you i should have known better.........because i know you hate that shit. im just so sowi if i upset you, i didnt mean to because........

i love you with all my fucking heart, i dont think i have ever loved someone as much as i have been loving you everysince we started talking......i can truely say that i have fallen for you so fast and sooo much.....and i cannot stop myself, there is something about you what i cannot get enough of.....i mean come on hun you know i think about you so much, i have you on my profile............

saying how much i fucking love you......i wrote a peom about you.........i tell you how much i fucking love you everyday.......i just cannot help my self, i just wish i could be with you *cries* life isnt fair......why would i have to fall in love with a guy who lives soooo far away........you know i would do anything just to be with you......oh shit i think im guna cry............

you have touched my heart so much, you have made me feel shit again, i mean yes its crazy me saying that because we have never met before, but i feel such a fucking connection with you oh meh.......i hope you feel the same way i really do or me saying all this is guna make me look and sound like a complete fool =[ oh dude........i just want to be yours soooo much *cries*

i hope you can forgive me darling, i really hope you can, i cannot bear to lose you....your my world sweetie a day without talking to you drives me insane.......i fucking love you.....................

Well what can i say i hate anti-smokers.......this has been annoying me recently,but why the hell do people think its ok to fucking publically bash smokers!!!! there telling you what to do....and how wrong it is because you smoke.

i have smoked for 7 years now, and i dont like people giving me lectures about it, i smoke simple as, if they dont like it they can just go to hell.

ugh.....but this subject annoys the crap out of me.....all these anti-smokers ugh.....i hate them....half time i wanna go over to them and say I BLOODY SMOKE GET OVER IT!!!

its like when im in the middle of the town having a smoke, you get some bloody anti-smoker walking past you giving you the evils O_o all because you SMOKE!

also here in england they have banned smoking from like near enough everywhere......pubs, bars, cafes, public places etc.......also the next thing there going to do is not display cigerettes anymore in shops O_o

the reason for this is because they seem to think because there cigarettes are being displayed theres more chance of young people smoking.....im sorry but what a load of crap....... ugh....i could go on about this subject forever haha!

well its just how i feel on the subject *sighs*

finally i have gotten round to doing some major updates on my profile and portfolio hehe! i needed it weeeee xD hope everyone likes!!!



x

fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck im sooooooo fucking stupid.......i always end up upsetting people who care about me *kicks her self* how can i be sooooo god damn stupid =[ ugh......best if i keep my trap shut..........

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DeathsEmbrace
20:28 Jan 14 2009

O.o



whats that about

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you ever been talking to someone....and they say something that is so bad it feels like they have just ripped your fucking heart out..........



how can people be so heartless???? *sighs*

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DeathsEmbrace
15:04 Jan 11 2009

aww damn...... yea i have had that happen before..... -hugs you-

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Minx
15:44 Jan 11 2009

Yep, I've had that... I have found people do that coz they have such a shitty feeling of themselves that they have to make someone else feel utterly shit, for themselves to feel a bit better. It stinks...

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chrysanthemia
17:15 Jan 11 2009

Yes. Just now actually.



I think Minx is right.



And I also think it's so wrong. It's sick to make someone feel like shit just because you're having a bad day.



But what can you do?

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MorbidAngels15
20:57 Jan 12 2009

the best thing i can do is not let him get to me.......but thats really hard

i agree it is shitty and out of order......makes you feel terrible it does =[

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well me and my friend have done this short little animation.......its called doodles of mayhem lol! we was inspired by Kristopher Stroms work =]

so please take a look, here is the link



http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=AF0CJBHXMFc

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CaoimheDierdre
06:19 Jan 09 2009

Cuute :D

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well i suffer from anxiety, i use to see a counseller for it but the last few months i have not had a attack.......but about 30 mins ago i had a really bad anxiety attack O_o i couldnt breath, my heart was pounding, i felt like i was going to pass out, its the most horrible feeling...........*sighs*

and i still dont know what causes them, i sometimes think it is when im nervous or in a funny situation, but i was with my family when i just had this attack O_o im not going to be like that around them.

i have had tests at the hospital and there is nothing medically wrong with me to cause these anxiety attacks.......so is it all in my head? do i get all stressed and worried over nothing.........



meh.......i dont really know *sighs*

- myself lol!

- my so-called friend lisa who sits on her arse and does jack shit for my group in college

- bus drivers :-s

- when my ipod dies on me..........

- my feet

- ginger hair (paramore should die)

- Screaming immature twilight fans!!! grrr!!! xD

- chavs......(scum)

- mcfly........there just evil!!!

- richard (sex-driven psychopath)

- harry potter!! i cannot stand it!

- emo boys that look like emo gurls lol!

- beer...........

- cold weather

- skateboarders

- my hair :-s

- my parents ranting at me all the time..........

- people in general ranting at me lol!

- ignorance

- people who ring my when im asleep





erm.........well that just random things of the top of my head, there probably is many more things that annoy me

Well HAPPY NEW YEAR! haha!!!! oh i had a brill time with my family :) got a little drunk but so does everyone hehe!

well you know how everyone sends happy new years txts to everyone, well i sent one to my little friend called greg and what i got back is a fuckin shit ass dilemma.........grrr!!

here are the txts -

ME - Happy new year huni, love kirsty xxx



GREG- Happy new year amazing sexy lady xxxx



ME - Aww....thanks, you shouldnt be saying that because im not :(



GREG- Please dont say that you are more than amazing your a perfect lady i dont know why you waste your time on a loser like me, i mean your so perfect xxx



ME - Thanks hun, youre so kind, i know we had or hard times especially with this recent shit whats gone on, i want to forget about it all ok its a new year so im willing start with a clean slate.



GREG - Kirsty i owe you more than an apology you have always been there for me when i need someone. You have always helped me through troubled times will you please give me one more chance? i want to be with you so much kirsty xxx



so there are the texts, i have not replied to the last one because i dont know what to say :( i mean do i give him another chance? i have known greg for ages and he can be a great guy, but he is so emotionally unstable and he always drinking all the god damn time......plus he started smoking the weed, i use to smoke it dont mind it on the odd occasion but when it all time it gets rather stupid.....god damn new year i already have problems and a big decision to make :(

do i tell him im not interested???

do i lie and tell him some bullshit so i wont hurt his feelings??

or do i say yes? and maybe i be not alone any more and be happy, even though i keep saying to myself i love being single, but deep down its really hard and it does my head in :(

but also if i do say yes, what happens if it turns out bad and we argue and he ends up hurting me......thats happened far to many times :(

grr.....i really dont know what to do help????



xxx