Anais Nin~16:21 Apr 11 2010
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"I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naïve or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman."
"I am the most tired woman in the world. I am tired when I get up. Life requires an effort I cannot make. Please give me that heavy book. I need to put something heavy like that on top of my head. I have to place my feet under the pillows always, so as to be able to stay on earth. Otherwise I feel myself going away, going away at a tremendous speed, on account of my lightness. I know that I am dead. As soon as I utter a phrase my sincerity dies, becomes a lie whose coldness chills me. Don't say anything, because I see that you understand me, and I am afraid of your understanding. I have such a fear of finding another like myself, and such a desire to find one! I am so utterly lonely, but I also have such a fear that my isolation be broken through, and I no longer be the head and ruler of my universe. I am in great terror of your understanding by which you penetrate into my world; and then I stand revealed and I have to share my kingdom with you."
"I believe one writes because one has to create a world in which one can live."
"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."
"...I will always be the virgin-prostitute, the perverse angel, the two-faced sinister and saintly woman.
"I reserve the right to love many different people at once, and to change my prince often."
""They courted the face on the screen, the face of translucence, the face of wax on which men found it possible to imprint the image of their fantasy."
"If you do not breathe through writing, if you do not cry out in writing, or sing in writing, then don't write, because our culture has no use for it."
"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
and for now the last but my all time favorite of hers....
*"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
— Anaïs Nin
COMMENTS
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TheVampyreNico
23:58 Apr 23 2010
Very lovely deep and powerful piece.
Angelus
16:18 Oct 28 2010
one of my favourite writers